Chapter 413: Self-blame
The little man on the hospital bed is as thin as a piece of paper, and the whole person is like a flat boat in a storm, if he is not careful, the boat will capsize, and Shang Lu is the fisherman on the boat, and he is frightened.
The instrument in the ward made a crisp sound of dripping, and the room was quieter, he sat on the edge of the bed, holding Xu Jingmo's hand without infusion, feeling guilty, why didn't he arrive earlier?
The police have already gone to chase Jiang Mobei, and they don't know what the result will be, but he doesn't care at all, he only cares about when Xu Jingmo will wake up.
He gently rubbed the scars on her hands, his heart was so distressed, his brows furrowed, and she was injured, as if it was also engraved on his body.
Time passed quietly, the night faded, the sun rose, Shang Lu didn't sleep all night, he was worried that Xu Jingmo would wake up in the middle of the night. The sun was shining brightly enough, and his eyes were red and he looked nervous.
"Jingmo." The palm of his hand felt Xu Jingmo's touch, he called softly, her butterfly-like eyelashes trembled slightly, and then opened her eyes.
Xu Jingmo only felt that her whole body was in pain, and after her eyes gradually became clearer, the first thing she thought of was Uncle Wang, and she hurriedly said, "What about Uncle Wang?" He saved me, how is he? ”
When she opened her mouth, she realized that her throat had been dehydrated for a long time, and she was already very hoarse, but she didn't realize it, her eyes were slightly red, and her expression was impatient, "You speak, how is Uncle Wang!" ”
Seeing that Shang Lu was just frowning, pursing her lips and not speaking, she grabbed him like a life-saving straw, shook her head and said, "He is my savior, if he hadn't been in front of me, you wouldn't have seen me." ”
"Can you drink saliva first?" Shang Lu is also just, the man protects his daughter in general, and protects Xu Jingmo behind him, but he is seriously injured, but he also cares about her, "Your own body is not good yet." ”
"If he is gone, I will be carrying a human life, Shang Lu ......" Xu Jingmo lost his strength, and could only rely on the support of Shang Lu, and when he spoke again, he was already teary-eyed, "He is very good, I don't want him to leave for me......"
"You drink the water first, and I'll tell you when you're done." Shang Lu's voice was a little anxious, Uncle Wang's life was important, but her physical condition was not very stable, especially now, she looked like she was about to collapse at any time.
Hearing this, Xu Jingmo snatched the water cup in his hand and drank it urgently, "I'm done drinking, I'm done drinking, you tell me how he is." ”
"He was more seriously injured than you, he was rescued once yesterday, and today he suffered a cerebral hemorrhage, and now he is in the operating room." Shang Lu's voice was very soft, as if he was afraid of scaring Xu Jingmo.
However, the moment she heard this, her face was stunned, and then she took advantage of his lack of attention, pulled out the needle, and shouted, "I want to see him, I want to see him!" ”
Shang Lu didn't expect this matter to make her so sensitive, so she hurriedly pressed the person on the bed, took out a hand and took a cotton swab to the back of her hand to stop the bleeding, and said rationally: "Don't worry, he is still being rescued, and you can't help if you go." ”
She was struggling with all her might, "You let go of me, I'm going to see Uncle Wang!" ”
"Jingmo, it's good for you to be sober, it's also a mess if you go now, doesn't he just want you to live well when he saves you, if he wakes up and sees you very embarrassed, he will be very sad."
No matter how much she struggled, he imprisoned her firmly on the bed, she broke down and hugged him tightly, her hands behind his back for fear of beating, and blamed: "It's all your fault, it's all your fault, it's all you, you're too late, it's too late......"
"I'm sorry, it's me who is bad." Her fist fluttered lightly, and it didn't feel the slightest sensation when it hit his body, but it also hit his heart, and it hurt so much that he could only clench his hands.
yes, if only he had been earlier.
Xu Jingmo cried, and his voice was even more hoarse after drinking the water just now, "It's all your fault, Shang Lu, I don't want to burden others because of myself, you know?" ”
"Uncle Wang, he has always been very good to me, last night...... He did his best to shake off the men......" she said something incomparable, "I watched him pounce in front of me, and the impact made me feel pain, and I heard his screams, but I was powerless, and I had no strength in my body......"
Shang Lu felt that his heart was caught in his hands, and it was very stuffy and uncomfortable, and the person in his arms gradually calmed down before he spoke, "It's going to be fine, it's okay." ”
"You don't understand, Shang Lu, he also has a sick daughter." She suddenly figured out that she could only take care of Uncle Wang when she was well, she no longer struggled, she lay down honestly, and said to Shang Lu: "He has been working very hard, and he will work in that place in order to treat his daughter." ”
"Jingmo, do you believe me?" Shang Lu looked directly into her eyes, held her hand with both hands, and said in a firm tone: "You have woken up, he will definitely be fine, and we will repay him well in the future." ”
Lovers always convey warmth to each other and give each other courage, Xu Jingmo knew that Shang Lu was for her good, but she really couldn't laugh, so she could only gently hold her hand back.
The ward returned to calm, he sat down, held her hand that was swollen from bleeding distressedly, and said softly: "I'll ask the nurse to help you deal with it, obedient." ”
She nodded, and kept staring at the back of Shang Lu leaving, until her eyes were astringent, she blinked, and her heart was very uncomfortable, as if something was blocked in her chest, making her breathless.
After noon, Xu Jingmo was still lying on the hospital bed, waiting for Shang Lu to come in with a lunch box, she was excited, and hurriedly asked, "How is it?" Is Uncle Wang's surgery over? ”
Her complexion is a little better, she should be able to visit Uncle Wang, Shang Lu nodded, and said, "He is already in the ward, but he hasn't woken up yet." ”
"I'll go see him." She looked at Shang Lu, her dark eyes were bright, and she didn't accept any refusal, she sat up, and when she swept the lunch box in his hand, she finally said, "I don't have an appetite now, I don't want to eat." ”
"Okay, you can't be too tired now, I'll help you over."
Shang Lu probably guessed what she was thinking, put down the lunch box and came over to help her, her thin lips loosened tightly, and said softly, "Thank you." ”
The moment she saw Uncle Wang, she couldn't be calm anymore, tears flowed down her eyes, and she had no strength, if Shang Lu didn't support her, it is estimated that she would have fallen to the ground.
"Uncle Wang......" she choked up, and she didn't know where she got the strength, she broke free of Shang Lu's hand, walked quickly to Uncle Wang's bed, and shed tears uncontrollably.
She covered her mouth with her hand, and the gentle man, now lying lifelessly on the hospital bed, covered with gauze, lay quietly, the corners of his mouth were flat, and he seemed to be no longer happy.
What is to blame Shang Lu, it is all her own fault, if she didn't think about leaving from the beginning, and planned to stay in that place forever from the beginning, Uncle Wang would not have become what she is now.
She was sorry for Uncle Wang, she thought guiltily, her brain hurt for a while, and she would fall to the ground at any time. Shang Lu walked over, grabbed her shoulders, and pulled the person into his arms.
The doctor was still examining Uncle Wang's body, Xu Jingmo had teary eyes, and asked in a trembling voice, "Doctor, how is he?" ”
"The patient's condition is more serious, with multiple fractures all over his body, and a severe head injury, and he may never wake up." The doctor's parents were heartbroken, and the doctor was also very sad, especially when he saw Xu Jingmo's sad expression, he didn't want to say it too seriously, but he also made the family have some psychological preparation.
At that moment, Xu Jingmo's face was like earth, her pupils dilated slightly, and the next second she softened.
"Jingmo!" Seeing her fainting, Shang Lu hurriedly hugged her and called her name worriedly.
"Get her back to the ward!" The doctor didn't expect it to happen so suddenly, and hurriedly arranged for someone to send Xu Jingmo back to the ward and give him a full body examination.
At this time, she fell into a darkness, she was terrified, longing for the light, but she still couldn't see her fingers, and the depressed bad situation made her very painful.
Shang Lu waited anxiously, his eyes stayed on Xu Jingmo, afraid that if he didn't pay attention, she would disappear.
After the doctor checked her condition, his expression was entangled, "Her condition is very unstable and she can no longer be stimulated, the hospital will try its best to take care of her, and I hope that the family will not let the patient be stimulated." ”
In fact, she had a lot of injuries on her body, but Uncle Wang helped her block most of the impact, so she didn't break her ribs, just some abrasions.
However, Shang Lu still felt sorry for her, and after waiting for the doctor to leave, he kept sitting in the ward, wiping Xu Jingmo's face, feeding her water every once in a while, and caring for her meticulously.
In the evening, he left the hospital without letting go and went to a restaurant where someone was waiting for him again. Listening to Xu Jingmo, Uncle Wang has a sick daughter, but except for Uncle Wang, no one knows where she is, in order to make Xu Jingmo feel at ease, he plans to find the child, maybe this will make him and Xu Jingmo feel more at ease.
I owe Uncle Wang too much, that is a precious life.
He told the man Uncle Wang's name and asked him to find Uncle Wang's daughter, the price was not a problem, he just wanted to feel better.
When he and Uncle Wang worked together to save Xu Jingmo, he was suspicious of Uncle Wang, but when he saw Uncle Wang's wide body in front of Xu Jingmo, his heart received a heavy blow, making him realize that there is true love in the world.
After explaining some things, Shang Lu did not go back to the hospital immediately, but went to another restaurant and ordered two bottles of wine, but he didn't drink it, and sat dryly alone.
He was a little scared, afraid that Xu Jingmo would not be able to get out of the psychological shadow because of this incident, and Uncle Wang's affairs would haunt her for the rest of his life, but he couldn't save her.
However, he just didn't wake up for the time being, everything is hopeful, he will not give up Uncle Wang, let alone Xu Jingmo.
The night is always confusing, and tonight's moon is exceptionally large, and the light that sprinkles it faintly illuminates the alleys. He tilted his head and took a deep breath.