Chapter 19: Don't be afraid, let's go home
With a score of 599 points, he was admitted to the Department of Psychology of "Harbin Normal University", and when he heard the news, Cheng Wangshu probably understood why Uncle Song would make such a phone call to himself, such a score was very different from Song Ran's level, and he was probably desperate at that time, so he would lead the disaster to himself.
Cheng Wangshu didn't wait for Song Ran's college banquet, and when Song Ran's call came, Cheng Wangshu hesitated for a moment to answer.
"Do you have time? Let's get out for a walk. Song Ran's voice was as calm as usual, but there was obviously a little more tiredness.
"It's better not to, it's raining outside, and I promised your dad that he won't bother your life again." The dark clouds outside were tightly pressing, and the thunder seemed to be ready to split down at any moment.
"The college entrance examination is over, he won't interfere with me, are you so reluctant to see me? I just wanted to apologize to you. ”
"Okay, you go downstairs to my house and wait for me, I can't go out for too long, my parents went to Beijing to see a doctor, I'm alone at home, I have to go home before dark."
"yes, okay."
Song Ran lost a lot of weight, he was originally a big man of 188, and the failure of the college entrance examination probably hit him hard, and the stubble looked a little decadent.
Song Ran was a little surprised when he saw Cheng Wangshu, surprised that Cheng Wangshu would wear long pants and long-sleeved sportswear and a hat in such a big summer.
"Are you sick?" Cheng Wangshu heard that Song Ran's tone was more worried.
"No, but I found it was going to rain, so I wore something thicker." And Cheng Wangshu didn't want to explain too much to him.
"Well, let's go for a walk in the park next door."
"yes, okay."
Along the way, the two of them chatted without a word, without the warmth and comfort they had at the beginning, Song Ran's tone always revealed caution, which made Cheng Wangshu sound so harsh, but did he defeat this proud boy in one exam?
And Cheng Wangshu probably understood his embarrassment and forgave him for his so-called disappointment, but he was calm, but the damp and stuffy air made Cheng Wangshu more and more irritable, probably because of his irritability, he misunderstood, and his attitude became more and more nervous.
"I was there when my dad called, and I still have to say sorry to you for him." Song Ran's face was not very comfortable, and he stumbled out the words of apology.
"Well, I know, but, I don't accept it, it's not your fault, I respect your decision, but I can't forgive your father's barbarism, I understand what he did, maybe my father will be the same when he is in the same situation, but he will definitely do everything possible to protect your self-esteem. But it's gone, and I don't have the idea of dwelling on these things anymore. Cheng Wangshu's words were so clear and clear.
Song Ran knew that she didn't care anymore, she didn't care about her own opinion, nor did she care about her father's opinion of her, he probably broke this girl's heart.
The color of the dark clouds became darker and darker, and the cries of birds made Cheng Wangshu's mood more and more irritable.
"I know, I didn't expect you to forgive me, I just hope to give me a chance to make amends, I ......" Cheng Wangshu was pulled into his arms before he could hear what he said next.
The thunder in his ears woke up those deeply buried memories, and Cheng Wangshu pushed Song Ran away.
"It's time for me to go home, send me home." Cheng Wangshu's ears were full of crying, he couldn't hear what Song Ran was talking about, he just wanted to go home, and his pull made Cheng Wangshu more and more afraid.
"Don't touch me, let me go home." Cheng Wangshu cried and ran into the rain, all he could see was the black pressed trees.
Song Ran wanted to try to pull Cheng Wangshu back into the pavilion just now, but Cheng Wangshu's strength was amazing, and he didn't let himself get close at all.
He had never seen Cheng Wangshu like this, her eyes were full of fear when she looked at her, deep fear, she would rather run into the rain than let herself touch her.
She sat in the rain and cried, clenching her fists tightly, her nails embedded in her palms, and the bright red blood was washed away by the rain.
"I want Uncle Sadako, Li Weizhen, where are you?"
Cheng Wangshu didn't know how long he had been crying in the heavy rain, he only remembered the way Li Weizhen ran towards him, and the moment Li Weizhen pushed Song Ran away and covered Cheng Wangshu's ears, those terrible voices finally became much quieter.
The moment Cheng Wangshu fell into Li Weizhen's arms, his roar made Cheng Wangshu feel at that moment that even if it was a roar, it was good.
"Why are you taking her out on a rainy day? She said home, why didn't she send her home? She said she didn't want you to touch her, why did she hold her. Li Weizhen's roar also frightened Song Ran, at this time Li Weizhen was too different from his usual gentle him, his eyes were red, and the blood vessels in his forehead burst out one by one because of anger.
And Cheng Wangshu accepted Li Weizhen, she allowed him to hold herself, although she was still crying, her mood was obviously much calmer than just now.
"Girl, it's me, it's Uncle Sadako, don't be afraid, let's go home." Li Weizhen's voice surrounded Cheng Wangshu's side, which made her feel a lot more comforted, and she grabbed Li Weizhen's arm tightly.
"I'm scared, I'm going home, there's crying, a lot of crying." At this time, Cheng Wangshu only had those sobbing sounds in his mind, and the sentences were spelled out.
"I know, I know, I'll take you home." Li Weizhen covered Cheng Wangshu's head with his coat, then gave Song Ran a look, picked up Cheng Wangshu and strode away.
The smell of Li Weizhen on her clothes made Cheng Wangshu feel much more at ease, although Li Weizhen could still hear the crying from her clothes, but at least she didn't hurt herself anymore.
In the dream, it was the cry of the little girl in the rainy night, although she couldn't see her face, but the clear cry for help was in her ears for a long time, Cheng Wangshu desperately wanted to escape there, but no matter how she ran, she always circled around this girl, the rain in the dream was cold, the silver lightning split the entire sky, and her beautiful face couldn't tell the rain or tears.
Her eyes for help stared at Cheng Wangshu like this, the man was desperately tearing her clothes, Cheng Wangshu couldn't see the man's appearance clearly, the vicious eyes stared straight at herself, and said in a hoarse voice: "If you don't want to die, get out." ”
"Go and turn on all the lights in the room." Song Ran was no longer in the mood to take into account whether Li Weizhen's tone was very polite.
"Her clothes are all wet, I'm going to knock on the neighbor's door to help her change her clothes, and you're here to watch." After Li Weizhen finished speaking, he planned to go out.
"Don't call her mother?" Song Ran asked.
"If you want her to break up with you when she wakes up, you can fight." Li Weizhen's tone was very unkind.
The deep disgust in Li Weizhen's eyes and a sneer on his lips made Song Ran feel very unhappy, but he still suppressed his anger and asked the question he wanted to ask when he saw him just now: "What's wrong with her?" Isn't this the first time? ”
Li Weizhen glanced at him, didn't answer, and ran straight out of the door. Li Weizhen's voice reached Song Ran's ears through the corridor, and Li Weizhen knocked on the door door, and then politely asked if there were any women in the family who could help his sister change her clothes.
When he saw Li Weizhen coming up with a grandmother, he understood why Cheng Wangshu still called Li Weizhen's name when he was so unconscious.
He didn't want to admit that this boy, who seemed to be a little lazy, knew her better than he did, and he was thoughtful and thorough.
Cheng Wangshu kept repeating in his dream, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." ”。
"Girl, girl, that's not your fault, that's not your fault." Li Weizhen sat on the floor in wet clothes, grabbed Cheng Wangshu's hand and said softly.
"Why has she been apologizing, and who is she apologizing?"
"When she wakes up, ask her yourself, it's her secret, and it's up to her to decide if she wants to tell you." Li Weizhen held Cheng Wangshu's hand and said, his voice soft.
When Cheng Wangshu opened his eyes, the light was a little dazzling, and Li Weizhen was sitting on the floor, clutching his hands tightly and falling asleep. The clothes and hair on his body were still wet. It was already dark, and the rain was pouring outside.
"Don't you even know how to change clothes? Beware of getting sick. Cheng Wangshu muttered quietly, wanting to cover him with a blanket, probably because of the big movements that woke him up.
"You woke up, how do you feel?" He raised his head, only to find that there were a few bruises on his face and scratches on his arms.
"Did I get hurt? Why don't you get out of the way? ”
"No, I went to the gym before I came, and the coach played it." The smile between his eyebrows made Cheng Wangshu feel warm in his heart.
When Cheng Wangshu raised his head, Song Ran was standing there apologetically, he opened his mouth, and wanted to say something, Li Weizhen spoke first: "Wangshu is also awake, you can go, this matter has nothing to do with you, and you don't have to feel guilty, but I hope you can keep this matter." Li Weizhen's tone was not polite, and there was some anger.
Cheng Wangshu pulled Li Weizhen's sleeve and said to Song Ran: "I'm fine, thank you for taking care of me, but I probably won't be able to attend your college banquet like this, so I have to work hard when I get to the university." ”
Cheng Wangshu's barely pulled out smile was ugly, as ugly as Song Ran's barely pulled out smile.
Song Ran wanted to say something, but when he saw Cheng Wangshu's expression, he also felt that he would be embarrassed to stay any longer, so he nodded to Li Weizhen and left.
When Cheng Wangshu looked down, he found that his clothes had been changed into clean ones, and he looked up to meet Li Weizhen's eyes.
"I asked the aunt downstairs to help you change it, don't worry."
"Well, you can go and change out of your wet clothes, there are your pajamas in the closet on the left, and my mother has washed them." Cheng Wangshu pointed to the wardrobe, and was about to lift the quilt and get out of bed, when he was pressed back to the bed by Li Weizhen.
"Well, I'll change it now. What do you want to eat at night? Are your parents not at home? Why did you eat instant noodles for so many days in a row? ”
"Well, my parents went to Beijing to see a doctor, and I was supposed to go to my uncle's house to live, but I felt that it was too much of a toss, so I didn't go, and I was too lazy to cook, so I just ate bubbles and paid for it, just get something, and I don't have much appetite.
The bright red nail scratches on the back of Li Weizhen's hand stung Cheng Wangshu. I guess there were other wounds on my body, but I didn't even have bruises on my body......
Li Weizhen's cooking skills are very good, a piece of egg custard is very fragrant, he carefully holds the bowl, Cheng Wangshu wanted to take it, but he refused.
"Miss Cheng, don't move, just open your mouth." His smile was distressed, and then he blew the spoon and sent it to Cheng Wangshu's lips.
"Well, it's delicious, and Uncle Sadako's cooking skills have improved again." It's really delicious, he just sent it to his mouth spoonful by spoonful, although it wasn't much, it was enough for Cheng Wangshu to eat.
"I've called my mom, stay here with you today, if you feel tired, just sleep for a while, I'll be in the living room, call me anytime anything. Don't say, you're fine, don't need it. I know, you need. Li Weizhen said with his back to Cheng Wangshu.
"Okay, thank you."
Many years later, in the winter he said that if I refused, he would probably never forgive himself, and when I asked him why, he just smiled and said, "Because I liked you before I was 15 years old, but I lost you, and then you built yourself a castle, I thought ......"
The sound of rain outside the window has not stopped, and there seems to be an eye in the lightning in the sky in the distance that has been looking at Cheng Wangshu, fear suddenly penetrated her skin, she shrank in the corner, wrapped herself in the quilt, and protected herself in this way.
"Girl, are you good when you come out, it's me, Li Weizhen." Cheng Wangshu, who was in a trance, didn't know how long he had been screaming outside the quilt, but he heard his voice outside the quilt all the time, using the gentlest voice: "Girl, Uncle Sadako is here, give me your hand." ”
When he woke up, Cheng Wangshu only saw Li Weizhen holding himself in his arms, and the two of them sat under the table a little funny, his arms were full of blue and purple tooth marks, probably because he found himself awake, and he wanted to hide his arms indiscriminately.
"It's okay, it doesn't hurt at all." His dark circles were very heavy, and he probably stayed on guard all night without closing his eyes.
Cheng Wangshu pulled Li Weizhen's arm and stroked it gently with his fingers, blowing gently like when he was a child.
"It's okay, girl, it doesn't hurt at all." Hearing Li Weizhen's words of comforting him, Cheng Wangshu's grievances suddenly came up. The tears that fell on Li Weizhen's arm frightened him, and he thought he had scared her.
"Girl, I was wrong, I'll get out right away." Just as Li Weizhen crawled out of the table, Cheng Wangshu hurriedly grabbed him.
"Li Weizhen, don't go, I'm afraid." Cheng Wangshu took Li Weizhen's hand with red eyes and said in a choked voice.
"Okay, I'm not leaving, but shall we get out from under the table first? Don't you think that's weird? Li Weizhen squatted in front of the table and stretched out his other hand to Cheng Wangshu.
Li Weizhen thought about this action for many years, and he knew that Cheng Wangshu had been locked in the alley on that rainy night for the past few years, although he had taken her body away from there.