Chapter 18: Choice (5)
Time flows silently like that, what else remains with me? What is exclusive to me? Let's face it, perhaps, there is still a way to go, but there may not be a choice.
"I came to your city, walked the way you came, imagined how lonely you were without me, holding the photo you gave, the familiar street, but without your picture, we can't go back to that day, will you suddenly appear......"
Familiar tunes rang in my heart, and those memories of the past, as if they happened yesterday, I saw them, I saw them......
Zhang Fan sat on the balcony in front of him, standing on a drawing board, holding a paintbrush in one hand, bathing in the sun, raising a fascinating smile, and vaguely hearing his words: "Yue'er, you are so beautiful, there is no way for the painting paper to accommodate you." ”
"Ugh! Is it? ”
I just asked in a flat tone, I was not shocked at the time, but my heart was surging, and I was never good at expressing my feelings.
Zhang Fan nodded, didn't say anything more, the brush in his hand quickly slid on the paper, leaving only a shallow smile on the corner of my mouth, and the breath of youth, and now there are all of them, all of them are left on my canvas like that, and that painting is the last painting he left me, and this painting made him win the championship at the art festival.
And it's just inconsequential things, yes, these are inconsequential things, piece together all my memories and his.
At that time, he pulled me by the way, hugged me from behind, and thought of the future with me, and the corners of my mouth were filled with happy smiles.
Those things may have become a thing of the past, maybe they are happening to others, maybe one day we will lose them forever, but does it really matter?
Tang Ming stood by my side like that, unwilling to wake me up immersed in memories, the only thing he could do was simply stay by my side, like green leaves setting off red flowers, and this one was like standing out from the crowd.
"Zhang Fan ......"
I chanted this familiar and unfamiliar name, so decadent that I knelt on the ground, tears seemed to have broken the embankment, and tremblingly pointed to the place where Zhang Fan had been.
Tang Ming hugged me, the timing was just right, he stretched out his hand and gently stroked my back, it looked unusually gentle, and this gentleness, I have always been rejected thousands of miles away.
"Tang Ming, I'm sorry, I can't, no, can you give me time?"
After all, it is harder to forget someone than to fall in love with someone, and I owe too much love debt, but the door of my heart has not been completely opened for him, so there will be no way to accept him for a while.
Tang Ming listened to my incoherent words, in fact, he has always understood me very well, but it is precisely because of his understanding of me that I have no way to accept him at all, and when Zhang Fan asked me to get out, after rejecting me thousands of miles away, he was the only person who could get close to me, a man like him must be what many women dream of......
Just leaned on his arms, and such a snuggle, unlike all couples, did not mix anything.
Time passed like this, minute by minute, and for me and him, it was as if everything was frozen there, no heartbeat, no throbbing...... Some are just ordinary, ordinary, and bland.
Lonely men and widows are in the same room, and what should have happened didn't happen, but my relationship with him should be a step further today, many things, not that I don't want to, it doesn't mean that everything won't happen.
After a long time, and it didn't seem to be a long time, he slowly let go of the hand holding me, lowered his head and muttered in an unusually gentle voice: "Yue'er, you are so beautiful." ”
After I listened to his words, the whole person froze in place, the former Zhang Fan, the current Tang Ming, these two men decided my life and changed my life, whether it was the past, the present, or the future, whether it was left or not, it all happened in this room.
Life is not only about love, but also about ......
Also, the words that had to destroy the current atmosphere were not me, but he was the one who spoke this time.
"Are you hungry?"
After I heard his words, I just shook my head blankly, even if it was already time to eat, I was really not hungry, maybe it was because of Zhang Fan's words to me before, which made me not in the mood to eat, which made Tang Ming a little embarrassed, thought for a while, and then the corners of his mouth were filled with a shallow smile.
"Yue'er, you're so thin, and you're still losing weight? Besides, only by eating a full meal can you have the strength to lose weight. ”
"Poof!"
After listening to Tang Ming's words, I finally showed a smile that I hadn't seen for a long time, he naturally struck while the iron was hot, took my hand, and was about to leave this room, but... But at this time, something unexpected happened, and Tang Ming also showed a look of surprise and inexplicability on his face.
"Who are you? Why is it ......"
The person who came was Zhang Fan, who was in a mess, pushed open the door and walked slowly towards the room, but after seeing us in the room, his questioning words stopped abruptly, and he didn't expect us to appear here.
After being stunned for a short time, Tang Ming said to Zhang Fan in surprise and inexplicably: "Zhang Fan, you are still alive!" Why don't you look for Yue'er, do you know how sad she is? ”
"Humph!"
Zhang Fan snorted coldly, raised his ugly face, and swept over me and Tang Ming with a cold gaze, I couldn't help but gasp, Zhang Fan had an inopportune seizure: "Get out!" Who do I know of you? This is my place, you guys get out of ......"
Zhang Fan's voice was as cold as ice, but it was loud, like someone was holding a heavy hammer and hitting my heart hard, after listening to his words, my body couldn't help but start trembling, and the temperature in the whole room instantly dropped to freezing.
Tang Ming looked at me, and then looked at Zhang Fan's cold gaze, and was immediately angry, let go of the hand holding me, raised his fist and hit Zhang Fan, I was also shocked by Tang Ming's sudden attack.
"Don't!"
"Smack......
I didn't have time to stop it at all, Tang Ming's fist also fell into place, Zhang Fan didn't dodge or dodge, he was punched heavily in the face, squatted down and twisted to the side, and spit out a mouthful of blood, but he still straightened up in embarrassment, with a cold smile on the corner of his mouth, and said without a little emotion: "Hehe! How is she doing now? I don't know, look at me, Tang Ming, I don't know you're blind? Still is...... Never mind! This is my room, you guys get out of here. ”