Chapter 5: Letters Across Time (2)
"I'm not as boring as they are, and don't take that seafood sale to heart." Ai Wenxue walked over and patted me on the shoulder.
"Selling seafood? Who sells seafood? Ai Wenxue's words sounded in the clouds.
"Li Mingxuan, who else can there be, his family is pounding seafood, there are a few stinky money in the family, and he has been virtuous since he was a child."
"You know him?"
"Well, I'm in a community with him, but the building he lives in is a little rich, but he always goes to my house to find his friends before and after the building, sometimes shouting downstairs in the middle of the night, I heard that he spends money happily, so many people are willing to contact him, especially our family's peers who are not rich but are mixed in the square circle, often help him fight, my mother's tavern is sold to his family, I know him well, but I am not familiar with him, after all, he doesn't want to be with a sour boy like me who is not famous and poor." Every time Ai Wenxue talked about something, she would habitually push her glasses.
"Then he also knows about your family?"
"Of course, my family's affairs are already notorious in the community, and this is all thanks to my father! So I don't talk to Li Mingxuan easily, don't bother each other, and I'm not afraid that he will tell anyone about me, it's just that I went to junior high school, and I don't have so much spare time to take care of him, and it's the right thing to study with peace of mind and not let my mother down. After saying that, Ai Wenxue walked quickly, and I still followed behind slowly.
When I walked to the school gate, I saw my mother standing there waiting for me, because in autumn, my mother changed into a long windbreaker, the autumn wind is always not as mild as in summer, but it adds coolness, every time there is a gust of wind, she will grab the neckline with her hand, my mother is a thin figure, wrapped in a long windbreaker looks more petite, so my mother always said that she likes summer the most. When my mother saw me coming out, she immediately greeted me, took my schoolbag and asked me how I felt on the first day of school in a very concerned tone, I didn't tell my mother what I encountered at school, and I didn't put an unhappy expression on my face, but I was not familiar with the new environment.
In the next two days, I was still tormented in the same situation, but I always had to learn to get used to it, learn to be patient, after all, junior high school has just begun, maybe everyone is just a new topic for a while, and at the beginning of the school year, everyone's mind has not completely transitioned from the relaxed summer vacation to studying, maybe after a while, the learning task is becoming more and more heavy, everyone has to pay attention, and when you put most of your energy into studying, there will not be so many boring people. After that, every time I heard about it that I could share a table with Li Mingxuan, I was lucky; I comfort myself like that when I say things like how I dress, so when I listen, those words are immune to me.
Since I found a way to comfort myself, I don't feel as resistant to the comments of the people around me as before, maybe most people really follow the trend for a while because of the freshness, but the days always have to pass, and over time some things will be tired of mentioning more times, but after finding that there is no meaning, the loss of freshness is to be stored in time after all, and I will keep the clouds open and see the moon after the limelight.
You may also realize that junior high school is no longer as easy as primary school, not only the number of subjects has increased, but also the tasks that need to be completed have swelled, so two weeks after the start of school, in addition to Li Mingxuan, who is heartless all day long, and the little followers who follow him all the time, there are really few people who take me as a topic of laughter, but the estrangement between me and my classmates should not be eliminated in a day or two, but studying under the same roof, Those who look down and don't look up to see each other are usually indispensable, and in order to avoid embarrassment, they will casually say hello to each other.
In fact, we all understand in our hearts like a mirror, it's just a play on the spot, as long as nothing touches the bottom line, it will be all safe, not to mention that most people are busy studying and don't have so much time to make trouble, of course, most of them do not include Li Mingxuan and others, for their various boring behaviors, I chose to turn a blind eye on the basis of maintaining my bottom line, the previous topic was obviously less people who followed the coaxing, Li Mingxuan saw that there was not much movement to toss, so he waited for an opportunity to find new signs to fan the flames,I won't give him a second chance after a lesson.,I found that there was no drama in my place.,So I shifted the goal.,This class didn't gain anything, so I went to other classes to inquire about gossip through acquaintances.。
The person mentioned later may not be known to everyone, so it didn't cause much of a sensation, and I never understood what his purpose was in tossing so much, in order to attract the attention of others and find a sense of existence?
Anyway, it has nothing to do with me, it's not interesting to think about it, in this era of looking at faces, maybe outstanding appearance will really make people have an innate sense of superiority, although Li Mingxuan tosses around like a woman with a long tongue every day, but his popularity has not been affected, there are still endless confession letters, and he is still constantly surrounded by people.
He has been habitually calling me "village girl", but he has not squeezed me like before.
At the same time, it made me feel that my school life had changed, and I met a friend who usually got along well during the week, and it was a soft-spoken, kind but thoughtful girl.
At her suggestion, we agreed to keep it secretive, to know only what class each other was in, and to go for a walk in the playground every day during lunch break.
After that, every time I walked in the playground, I sat on the playground when I felt tired, or looked up at the sky, or looked for someone who could attract my attention, although seemingly ordinary activities always made me meet someone or something that interested me, such as clouds of different shapes in the sky, such as the boy who could make me like when I came into sight......
At that time, we didn't understand the difference between liking and loving, and blindly thought that love was the same as liking, and as long as we could be together, we could swap love and liking at will.
After all, junior high school is the process of sublimation of children after elementary school, so we still have a little immaturity at that time, so that we will naively fantasize about the future There are a lot of whimsical plots, for this era is still in ignorance, some things will be understood, and the unknown will follow, after all, the thorns in time will not let go of everyone, that thorn everywhere slowly stings our body, at first do not know how to protect themselves, so they make fools again and again, Endure the pain and pull out the thorns that poke into the skin.
It wasn't until I saw myself in the mirror that I was covered in bruises and wounds, and I found that although the trauma had formed scars of different depths, no matter how I covered it up, I couldn't deceive myself, and after a long time, I was tired and tired of covering it up, and I remembered those thorns, which were not a sharp weapon to protect myself, rearranged and assembled into a piece of armor, and lived like a hedgehog from then on, but in this way, we unconsciously hurt those who wanted to protect us instead of armor......
After graduating from junior high school, I didn't keep anyone's contact information except Ai Wenxue, and the mysterious partner who accompanied me through the three years of junior high school also disappeared into the sea of people and disappeared into my life like those playmates when I was a child, and I didn't bother to tell each other my name until I said goodbye for the last time.
In the current society, science and technology are developing, the times are progressing, each period will have different products, people also have different changes in different periods, since the second year of junior high school, I have also learned to keep up with the fashion trend, in the face of various problems have their own ideas, no longer stick to the planning of their parents, began to choose the way they feel appropriate to dress, and once again made up their minds to keep long hair. Sometimes, because of my single-mindedness, and constant disagreements and disputes with my parents, I gradually understood that the generation gap is what others say, but people older than us think that this is the period of adolescent rebellion.
Some people who are growing up want to keep but can't keep them, but there are some people who seem to have taken root in their own memories, and the more they want to get rid of them, the more often they appear around them.
I finally got through junior high school.,Finally be able to stay away from some people you don't want to see again.,Simply think that as long as you don't leave any contact information.,It's not easy to meet.,If you're unlucky enough to come across it, pretend not to know it.。
But unfortunately, when I got to high school, Li Mingxuan, who I didn't want to appear again, was in the same school as me, or even in the same class, he walked into my sight again, remembering the scene when he went back to school to get the score after the high school entrance examination, he said that junior high school and I were at the same table for three years is the saddest thing in all his current experiences, and I ruined his dream of being at the same table with a beautiful woman, and said that he would never see each other again after graduation.
I replied, "That's the best, as if I'd like to see you again." I still remember that after I finished speaking, he made another gesture of spreading his hands, showing a helpless expression. Now, with the facts in front of me, I wish he had amnesia; Or have a seven-second memory like a legendary fish, causing him to remember me at all; Or maybe he could pretend he didn't know me, and when I heard the familiar "village girl", I found that the fragments I had imagined didn't count in the face of reality.
"It's really the original little village girl.,I didn't see it during a holiday.,The change is quite big.,I almost didn't recognize it.,When I saw your name on the class sign-in sheet.,I thought it was a duplicate name.,Now think about it.,Except that you shouldn't have a second person with such a strange name.,Junior high school always wants to stay away from you.,I didn't expect high school to meet again.,This is the legendary narrow road?" Li Mingxuan still felt that he was on top of his face, he approached me and whispered to me: "Junior high school, you are rustic, disgusted to death, I see it now, don't say it, I suddenly found that you are quite special, not as annoying as before." ”
"But I still hate you so much." Since junior high school and Li Mingxuan's table, every time I see him, I feel uncomfortable, that kind of discomfort is like thinking about happy things with joy, walking and walking, suddenly a pile of garbage appears in front of me, and there is a foul smell in front of me, pinching my nose and passing by can also see a few big rats in it, which instantly makes me feel sick to my stomach. Li Mingxuan didn't bother to listen to me, just waved his hand away with his back to me, and finally disappeared at the staircase at the end of the corridor.