The fate between people is always inexplicable, not only did I meet Li Mingxuan again in high school, but I also noticed that Ai Wenxue also appeared on this campus, but he was in the next class, sometimes he would obviously see the bruises on his face, and he was not as willing to talk to me as he was in junior high school, every time I wanted to go up and ask him if something was wrong, he would deliberately avoid me.

Finally, once he passed in front of me, the distance between them was very close, he subconsciously lowered his head and pretended not to see me, I stopped him: "Ai Wenxue, why are you avoiding me?" ”

"I ...... I...... I didn't hide from you. He slurred, his eyes dodging and his head bowed, not daring to look directly at me.

"Did something happen to you? Tell me, have you forgotten how we agreed in junior high school? ”

"Even if you know about my business, you can't take care of it, so don't ask, let alone get involved, everyone is very busy studying, okay, okay, go back to the classroom, the bell for class has ringed."

In junior high school before, Ai Wenxue was not good at taking the initiative to deal with other people in the class, and maintained a relationship with Li Mingxuan that the well water did not interfere with the river water.

In addition, he usually gets along with other people, and if someone talks to him, he just copes with it out of politeness, but never makes friends, so he doesn't have any special friends.

Although Ai Wenxue's appearance did not bring him the same generous treatment as Li Mingxuan's stars holding the moon, there are still a small number of girls who are attracted by his sense of mystery, perhaps nature makes every boy have no resistance to girls' active pick-ups, especially some beautiful girls, Ai Wenxue is no exception, when he encounters girls who take the initiative to talk, he will also joke with them.

There was once a girl who confessed to him, and wrote a long confession letter, but when it was delivered to him, there was no news, and then I heard that the girl did not give up liking him because of this, and said that he was called sunny on the outside but cold on the inside, and pursuing him was like experiencing an adventure, the more mysterious the more interesting.

In their eyes, Ai Wenxue is more like a difficult labyrinth, and it is actually difficult to find a way to his inner world, Ai Wenxue allows them to "study" themselves, always saying that they have no right to interfere with other people's hobbies, and then add a sentence that they don't care at all: they are happy.

Maybe he was the only one who walked closest to me in school, and he didn't dare to guarantee that he was completely sympathetic to me, but as long as he wanted to express his thoughts, he would be the first to think of me, and he would ask me to tell him in exchange for the troubles he encountered, and gradually we became more familiar with each other, he said that it felt awkward to call my name every time, and he knew the origin of my name, so he also gave me an exclusive nickname, and later he would call me "two cents". Looking at him now, he would rather be silent than say a word to others.

"My mom is back at work, and my dad is on duty, which means I'll go home by myself after school, and if you still trust me, come to me and see you at the school gate." He didn't give me any reply.

This afternoon, the rain was pouring down on the window, and the mood seemed to become depressed with the gloomy weather, and I tried to be silent, and I didn't say a word all afternoon, watching others greet me with smiles, but I couldn't fit into their happy atmosphere, and I experienced the suffocating feeling that would make people breathless, and if it went on like this day after day, it would always make people crazy, I never wanted to have such an experience again, I wish it was only once.

At the end of school, the rain finally let go of those of us who didn't bring umbrellas, I found a conspicuous place to stand at the school gate, for fear that Ai Wenxue really came and couldn't see me and let him down, to be honest, I didn't have much hope, and I didn't think he would come, but out of commitment to him, I waited for a long time, and the result was the same as I expected, he still didn't appear after all, and after this day he really disappeared, as if the world evaporated, even if I used up all kinds of contact information, I didn't receive a reply from him, I don't know where he is, I don't know what he's going through. No matter how unrelieved it may be, time will turn into a medicine to soothe my restless heart.

We often collide with very contradictory problems, and we are annoyed that we can't find the reason for the contradictions, such as complaining about the long time in a class that was pressed by the teacher last time, and complaining about the short time in the mock exam where we can't finish the test papers...... Maybe it's just too much confusion, so that we have to put aside some of the things that we don't have time to take care of for the time being, after two years, at the age of 18, we also entered the ranks of adults, and at the age of 19, we also ushered in the years of youth.

Before the college entrance examination, wandering all night in the sea of books, as a liberal arts student, all day long is nothing more than busy chewing words, stuffing all the words into the brain, stuffing until dizzy, I can't wait to talk about Zou Zou in my usual words, I really don't dare to call myself a liberal arts student without dragging the text. In fact, for liberal arts students, the most headache is mathematics, although the difficulty of liberal arts mathematics is not as good as that of science mathematics, but after being instilled with thousands of words, they have to memorize various formulas, and every math practice has to spend all kinds of brains to deal with, and even at the moment of writing the answer after the calculation process of the math solution problem, if there is no question stem to take care of, it will definitely forget to write the word. But the above are limited to other people other than me, when it comes to review, I am also quite ashamed, too relaxed in the later stage, more playful than others, less than others pay, maybe other people stay up late to review, I may have a few dreams!

All students are looking forward to the college entrance examination, the sporadic light rain of the college entrance examination for a few days, dissipated a little bit of the heat of the candidates, parents holding colorful umbrellas pacing outside the gate, waiting for their hearts and minds to return from the examination room, and then take them to make up for a meal, anyway, before the release of the results, every student is safe, can enjoy the joy of the so-called liberation, lazy sleep until the natural awakening, will no longer worry about unfinished homework.

Until the day the results were released, I began to be nervous from the early hours of the morning, sitting in front of the computer wrapped in a quilt, repeatedly entering my candidate number on the fixed website, and I didn't even know how many text messages I sent for appointment inquiries. As long as someone says that they have checked the results, they will feel that their hearts are about to jump to their throats, after a text message prompt sound, on behalf of the bad news coming, one after another is to take turns to receive the results of the results, presented in front of my eyes in the way of SMS bombardment, each text message is the same result, but I just can't bear to look at it directly, the poor score should be proportional to the usual efforts, and I don't want to admit that this is my final result, knowing that the text message is not a manual service, I still can't help but want to reply to a text message, the content is:" Are you sure this score is accurate? Right? Can't go any higher? In the end, in desperation, I gave up this self-deception and chose to face the dismal results. Come to think of it, reality should always be full of surprises, mixed with a little bit of cruelty.

In terms of grades, there are also joys and sorrows, at least not bad enough to choose the degree of squatting at home, in order to fill in the volunteers, it is really painstaking, reporting high and afraid of not entering, reporting low and afraid of not developing, parents therefore complained to me, saying that I was a little loose after the second year of junior high school, after turning over two application guides, I decided to fill in a vocational college to study interior design. When the dust settled, when I picked up the books that I couldn't use with my parents, I inadvertently found a letter sandwiched in a magazine that I hadn't finished reading during my freshman year of high school, and when I fell out of the book, the handwriting on the envelope was already a little blurry, and the letterhead inside was a little yellowed.

"Liangmao, I'm sorry, please forgive me for not being able to continue to fulfill the promise we made in junior high school, because the summer vacation after graduating from junior high school is only a few months, but I have experienced too much, in the face of you, I always want to release my depression to you like before, but everything makes me don't know how to talk about it, so I chose to be silent and escape, and I am also a high school student, after all, we will one day learn to eat alone, walk alone, and face all the life in front of me alone, but for the life in front of me, I am too weak, I'm still afraid, I'm leaving, maybe I'll find a home that really belongs to me when I leave here, you don't have to feel sorry for me, let alone worry about me, all you need to do is forgive me, forgive me and say goodbye, you have to come on, you are different from me, you have parents who love you, and recently I will often see you holding a few girls to lunch together, and see your heartfelt smile when you are with them, congratulations on finally finding a group that suits you, and you don't have to be alone anymore. I won't be relieved, I don't know if you will remember me after many years, but if you read this letter, I hope you know, I like you, I like you so much that I can't bear to be with you, because I'm afraid that I will ruin your future, let's give fate to time, you said that you believe in time and fate the most, two cents, goodbye! ”

A large teardrop hit the letterhead, the moment the teardrop hit the paper, it shattered and scattered, wetting the yellowed letterpaper, and the dried ink was re-dyed under the moisture of tears, forming a trace of irregular lines, and the tears will eventually sublimate in the air, and some of the handwriting that can be made can no longer be restored.

Although I don't know at this time whether the ordinary life will be reconnected by a letter that spans time, I always have a hunch that one day in a certain year and month, I will meet Ai Wenxue again, because the things I have a premonition have not failed once.