Winter goes to spring, there are no days of carrying the river, and time seems to pass longer and harder day by day.

Since that quarrel, Jae-yan has really never been to Gyeongin Palace again.

I'm afraid he's not just angry with me.

I was afraid that he would hate me, that he would always hate me.

I don't know what to do.

Jingren Palace has no Bai Ge, no Dai Chunrong, and no Gao Wanzhi, and with it, there is also the laughter and laughter of Jingren Palace in the past, and the jokes and ridicule are gone.

The magpie and the warbler, who have always been noisy, have now become silent and have not smiled for a long time.

In the dead of night, I would always see Dai Chunrong and Gao Wanzhi in my dreams, they looked at me covered in blood and wept bitterly, saying how miserable their death was, and begging me to save them.

But I couldn't do anything about it.

After waking up, I realized that everything was just a dream, and after the dream dissipated, I would begin to worry about Bai Ge's situation, whether she would be hungry and cold outside the palace, whether she would be unclothed, whether she would be infected with a malignant disease, whether she would be entangled with a scoundrel, and I could never feel at ease.

The pain in his body is healed, but the pain in his heart is getting heavier.

Imperial Physician Zhao often comes to Jingren Palace to ask me for a pulse, and it seems that the number of times is much more than when I was favored in the past, and he will always bring me Ziyu's situation, and he will also bring Ziyu's situation to me.

One day, Imperial Physician Zhao came to bring me medicine, and while he was holding my pulse, he raised his eyes to look at my complexion, and then sighed lightly and instructed me: "Niangniang must not worry too much. ”

I rolled up my sleeves and said lightly, "It's nothing," and then asked, "How is my sister lately?" Does the queen always go to Yonghe Palace to embarrass her? ”

Imperial Physician Zhao shook his head and said: "Niangniang is grounded in Jingren Palace, although Niangniang can't get out, but many troubles will not come to the door, but the noble Jin is different." ”

I was annoyed and said, "It's all my fault, if it wasn't for my involvement, how could my sister end up like this?" ”

Imperial Physician Zhao said gently: "You sisters are in the same breath, naturally you are both prosperous and lossy, and you don't have to be too ashamed." ”

I looked at him, "How can I be ashamed?" He added: "Imperial Doctor Zhao thinks that I heard that my sister was also suffering, can I still live with peace of mind?" ”

Imperial Physician Zhao looked back at me, "Even if Niangniang is restless about the overall situation, it is useless, and now the only way to help your sisters get out of the sea of suffering is for Niangniang to regain her favor," he said, he lowered his voice and asked me, "Niangniang really didn't think about it anymore?" ”

I smiled bitterly for a long time before I said, "The emperor doesn't want to see me." ”

Imperial Physician Zhao said slowly: "Although the emperor has not set foot in Jingren Palace recently, the emperor has not set foot in other palaces either, and the mother really does not have to be depressed and sad because the emperor has not come to Jingren Palace to see the mother these days." ”

I lowered my eyes and shook my head slowly, after all, I hurt him first, so I said helplessly: "I don't have the right to be depressed and sad." ”

Imperial Physician Zhao didn't seem to understand, "Niangniang......"

Indeed, he should not have understood.

I pulled out a small laugh, "I'm scared." ”

He asked, "Niangniang is afraid to see the emperor?" ”

I didn't answer, and after a while, I only said: "For me and the emperor, it's better to see each other like this now than to get tired of seeing each other." ”

He wondered, "Disgusted?" ”

I laughed, "You don't understand. ”

Imperial Physician Zhao looked stunned, and soon returned to normal, "Niangniang should pay more attention to rest on weekdays, and the minister prescribed a prescription to send Niangniang to the eunuch from the Tai Hospital, and he must ask Que'er and Ying'er to boil up and take it on time." ”

I nodded, called Ying'er in, and ordered: "Good life to send Imperial Physician Zhao out," Ying'er responded, just as Imperial Physician Zhao was about to step out of the door, I hurriedly stopped him, and said, "I'm not by the emperor's side, I'm afraid I have to bother Imperial Physician Zhao to go to the Qianqing Palace to look at the emperor's body." ”

Doctor Zhao listened to it and seemed to have something to say, but in the end he swallowed the words alive and responded: "Yes." ”

In the past, I didn't go to Qianqing Palace, Yangxin Palace, or Ningshou Palace, Chuxiu Palace, or Yonghe Palace, Chengqian Palace, which was grounded and couldn't go anywhere, and people were idle all of a sudden, so I often lay on the couch, watching the clouds roll up and down, watching the sunrise and sunset, the flowers and plants in the yard are still so prosperous, and the flowers and plants in the yard are still so prosperous, as if nothing has happened, as if those who have gone are still busy there, every time I think of this, my eyes can't help but swell.

I'm afraid it's a tired spring, just close my eyes not long after, the whole person fell asleep hazy, and I don't know how many hours I slept, and finally seemed to be woken up by a whimpering sound, open my eyes, outside the small window is already the crescent moon like a hook, a few stars accompany the flickering cold moon, a faint breeze blowing, the dense leaves sway slightly with the moonlight, the fragrance of the night spreads, I thought I heard it wrong, these days I always have auditory hallucinations, mostly crying, sighing, footsteps, I walked outside but found nothing, just about to get up but heard a whimper that was tried to suppress, I put on a single robe and turned around and walked out of the room, looked left and right, and found a little eunuch curled up under the porch, I walked over and asked him, "Are you from Jingren Palace?" ”

The little eunuch looked up and saw that it was me, hurriedly wiped a handful of tears with his sleeve, knelt on the ground and kowtowed, and said: "The slave was originally under the Gao Gonggong, and he disturbed the mother's rest, and the slave really deserved to die!" ”

I smiled lightly, "It's none of your business," and I asked, "What's your name?" ”

The little eunuch said: "Slave Chang Tai." ”

I let out an "oh", "It turns out that you are Chang Tai, and I used to hear Gao Wanzhi mention you in his mouth," and after a while, he said, "You are very trusted by Gao Wanzhi." ”

Chang Tai said: "A slave is just doing something within his duty, it is nothing at all, it is the honor of a slave to be trusted by Gao Gonggong, but it is just a ......" As he said so, he sighed heavily, and then wiped his face again.

I asked, "You're just crying?" ”

Chang Tai nodded, "Father-in-law Gao went miserably, the slave remembered that Father-in-law Gao took good care of the slave in the past, and the slave couldn't hold back when he was sad, and asked the mother to punish the slave!" ”

I took a deep breath and said, "You are also affectionate and righteous, what do I punish you for," and then said, "Since you were brought out by Gao Wanzhi, you will take the position of Gao Wanzhi in the future!" ”

Chang Tai was stunned for a moment when he heard my words, and then kowtowed when he reacted, "The slave knocks on the mother!" ”

I asked him to get up, "Don't be afraid if you don't understand anything in the future, just ask Ying'er and Que'er, the two of them will tell you, everyone is starting from scratch, fortunately, Jingren Palace is not busy during these days, you just take advantage of the experience, and it won't be long before you understand." ”

Chang Tai replied respectfully: "The slave understands. ”

Anyway, I can't sleep, look up at the starry sky, the black and blue sky is blurry with stars, flowing silver, such a beautiful scenery, how can you live up to it? So, I also sat under the porch on one side, Chang Tai was busy dodging, I grabbed his arm, "It's okay, sit down." ”

Chang Tai was surprised: "How can this work, how can a slave sit with his mother!" ”

I laughed, "I said it was okay," and seeing that he was still cramped, I said, "Is it possible that you won't even listen to me?" ”

Chang Tai hurriedly said: "How come! He saw that I was still insisting, so he had to sit hard.

I asked him, "Did you go to see it when Gao Wanzhi was killed?" ”

Chang Tai sighed and replied, "Yes." ”

I asked, "He...... What do you think? ”

Chang Tai didn't know why, and looked sideways at me.

I also glanced at him and said with a light smile: "Gao Wanzhi, do you have anything to say?" And he said, "He...... Painful to go? ”

Chang Tai lowered his gaze, frowned, pretended to unintentionally pick his fingers and said: "Niangniang must take good care, Gao Gonggong would rather die in order to protect Niangniang, not a word, when Gao Gonggong was killed by the cane, the slave was watching from the side, the person was beaten to the mouth and spit blood, the face was difficult to distinguish, the slave went to collect the body, Gao Gonggong still left his last breath and said the word 'Niangniang' to the slave before he was willing to close his eyes, although Gao Gonggong only said two words, the slave also knew that Gao Gonggong was to let the slave must protect the safety of Niangniang," he paused for a while, and said, "The slave only knows." ”

I listened, tears couldn't help but burst the embankment, I looked up at the stars in the sky, and after a long time, I said to Chang Tai: "Do you know what becomes when people die? ”

Chang Tai asked, "What?" ”

I pointed to the night sky and said, "It will become a star in the sky," and said, "Look, Dai Chunrong and Gao Wanzhi, they are all watching us from the sky!" ”

Chang Tai was convinced, and only knelt on the ground and kowtowed to the stars in the sky, "Father-in-law Dai, Father-in-law Gao, don't worry, although the slave is stupid, he will definitely protect his mother!" ”