The silver moon dotted the deep blue night sky, and the light gauzy clouds floated in the sky, like an ethereal fairyland hidden in the palace.

It was my last night before entering the palace.

As is customary, family members can meet and see them off. Because my uncle Changshan temporarily received an order and went out on an errand, only my grandmother brought my brothers to say goodbye to me and Ziyu. Grandma walked up to Xuanji, stuffed a bag of silver into her hand, and said with a smile: "A little heart, please smile at it." ”

Xuanji pushed away her grandmother's hand and shook her head, "Madame has something to do, just give me an order," "As for the silver, the slave doesn't dare to accept it anymore." After saying that, Xuanji turned around and led a group of maids and women to exit the house quietly.

As soon as I thought that I would enter the palace tomorrow, Ziyu and I were already crying with tears on our faces.

It's reluctance to cry, it's regret, it's also yourself.

I understand that if I go in, I am afraid that I will not be able to break free for the rest of my life, and I can only go to destruction step by step, and it will be even more difficult to see these relatives who cared for me in ancient times in the future.

I am not a hard-hearted person, although I am not really Tatara Zixi, but in these days with them affectionately, I have long treated them as if they were my real relatives.

I wiped away my tears, pulled out a smile, and looked at my grandmother, who was in her early forties, but her face looked more than ten years younger, probably thanks to the careful maintenance on weekdays. She kept wiping the tears rolling down her cheeks with a handkerchief, and in just one night, there seemed to be a few more gray hairs in the bun that was coiled, and the tears in her eyes were like pearls with broken threads, falling one after another. She wiped it back and forth with a thin silk, and most of the fat powder on her face was wiped off, revealing a yellow-brown color.

I persuaded with tears in my eyes: "Grandma, I am going to the palace to enjoy happiness, Bai Ge is still with me, I will not be wronged, but I have not fulfilled my filial piety as a woman, I am about to leave, I am really uneasy, but fortunately, my brothers will take good care of you for me and Ziyu." ”

Grandma kept nodding her head, but the tears still couldn't be stopped, and after a while, she whimpered even more.

Zhiqi approached and patted grandma's shoulder, and comforted: "Grandma doesn't have to be sad, didn't Zixi say that both of them entered the palace to enjoy happiness, aren't we still at home?" He smiled slightly, and said to me again: "Zixi, don't worry, I will do my filial piety for you two sisters." ”

Grandma took a deep breath, wiped away a handful of tears vigorously, and advised: "You two must remember that once you enter the palace gate, it is as deep as the sea, and it is the most ruthless emperor's family." When getting along with Lafayette and the queen, you must pay attention everywhere, be careful with your face, Ziyu is a demure person, I am relieved," his eyes crossed Ziyu and looked at me emphatically, "It's just Zixi, you have to remember that the palace is not as good as the family, before doing anything, you must first consider the result and protect yourself." ”

Ziyu smiled reluctantly, and said gently: "Grandma, don't worry, I have written it all down, and I hope that grandma can take good care of her body." ”

I followed and whispered, "I also wrote it down," after a long silence, he turned his head sideways to Zhiqi and said, "Although my uncle didn't come tonight, I still want to tell him more, business is naturally important, but it is even more important to raise yourself, after all, you are also an elderly person." ”

Zhiqi smiled and said, "Don't worry, I will definitely help you bring this." ”

I nodded.

Zhijun's eyes staring at me were full of sadness, "Zixi, all your honors and disgraces in the future will be in yourself, and the honor and disgrace of the Tatara clan will naturally be tied to you." ”

I let out an "um" and replied, "I understand." Yu Guang unintentionally saw that Zhirui seemed to be thinking about something, and kept silent, I knew that Zhirui was not such a hesitant character, there must be something important hidden in his heart, after thinking about it for a while, he said to his grandmother: "Grandma, it's not too early, Ming'er is still busy, why don't you go back and rest first." ”

After repeated admonitions, my grandmother was reluctant to go.

Everyone dispersed, but Zhirui's footsteps still stopped in place, I saw it in my eyes, and only called him softly, "Zhirui, you wait," his eyes stared at him tightly, and asked softly: "Do you have something to say to me?" ”

Zhirui's expression was slightly stunned, and he hesitated for a while before he spoke: "Zixi, I don't know what to say." ”

I looked at him lightly, frowned, and said: "Zhirui, you and I are the most fun, there is anything between us that is not easy to say, just as usual, just say it bluntly." ”

Zhirui stared at me for a long time, and whispered: "Zixi, since you fell from the tree, you should know that I treat you differently from others. ”

I squinted at him, "...... you mean?"

Zhirui said: "The heart is like a double wire net, there are thousands of knots," he paused for a while, and then said, "In the face of you later, my heart is really entangled." ”

I looked at his affectionate look, my heart was suddenly shocked, my mouth was still peaceful, and I reminded: "Zhirui, I am your sister." ”

Zhirui shook his head, took a step closer to me, leaned over, and said word by word: "You—not—Zixi." His voice was abruptly cold, as if a cold wind was blowing on the sharp bamboo tips on a dark night, causing my scalp to tingle uncontrollably, and my heart to tremble and beat wildly.

I frowned, looked at Zhirui, and said with a smile: "Aren't you crazy?" Who else could I be if I wasn't Zixi? ”

Zhirui's voice gradually lowered, "I don't know who you are," he said, he sighed, "You are going to enter the palace tomorrow, I am afraid that the doubts in my heart need you to answer for me now, I can sleep peacefully tonight, and I can rest assured in the future." ”

I said softly, "It doesn't matter who I am at all, the important thing is that I am Zixi at the moment, and I am living for her," after a pause, I added, "Of course, I also live for myself, but the two do not conflict." ”

Zhirui nodded slightly, a moment of loneliness flashed in his eyes, and after a moment, he said softly: "Since this is the case, I can only say one word to you: 'Precious.'" 'That's it. ”

I laughed and said, "I've always regarded you as a brother in my heart." ”

Zhirui's gaze wandered back and forth in front of me: "If you hadn't had Zixi's face and body, I'm afraid I would have wanted to take you out of the capital a long time ago." ”

I shook my head, "Don't be whimsical, even if you want to take me away, I won't go, no matter who has their own path, and your path has been set a long time ago, and there is no room for change." ”

He asked, "My way?" ”

I nodded, "Yes, you are destined to stay in the capital, even if I am not him, you can't take me away," his eyes stared at Zhirui lightly, and smiled, "Your road is also wonderful." ”

He asked, "Do you know what my future path is?" ”

I laughed, "I know," I looked into his eager eyes, and then shook my head again, "But the secret of heaven must not be revealed, in short, no one can escape the words 'life is too short'." ”

Zhirui thought for a while, and chuckled: "It's okay if you don't say it, there are more unknowns, at least there is something to look forward to in life," after a pause, he hooked his eyes straight at me, and said, "Since you are a prophet, then now it seems that your path is really like what you said, you want to enter the palace as a favorite concubine." ”

I smiled and asked, "Do you believe it?" ”

He sighed, "I can't believe it anymore." ”