Looking at Zhang Lone's empty room, Zhang Lei lit a cigarette. The distance of a wall invisibly separates the world of the two brothers. Over the years, Zhang Lei has hardly taken the initiative to walk into this room, let alone be able to smoke a cigarette here and stay for a while. Looking at the scattered photos in front of the cabinet, only one is a photo with Zhang Lone, in fact, it is not a photo of the two, there are Wang Qiu and Xiongzi on it, everyone was still a child at that time, standing intimately under a locust tree in front of the old bridge, the eyes are so innocent, there is no other strange thing except happiness

Zhang Lei remembered that the tree was cut down by himself, and now the stump is about to be hidden by the years.

When he arrived at school, it was just past self-study time. The night and the noise just covered themselves

Wang Qiu was eating melon seeds and peanuts, took the phone and was taken aback and hurriedly ran to me and said: ", Zhang Lone, your brother has come in, and asked you to go down and find you to have something to say."

Wang Qiu was so shocked that I jumped out of bed, so frightened that Xiongzi almost threw away the book in his hand.

"What?"

After a brief moment of disbelief, I turned to look at Xiao Hei: "Can you give me a pack of cigarettes?" ”

After taking Xiao Hei's cigarette, I was in a difficult mood, I was excited, nervous, scared, and expectant. Everyone watched me go out, and Wang Qiu wanted to follow, but was stopped by Xiongzi and asked him to close the door.

Under the cover of night, I saw a fire flickering not far ahead, and I recognized Zhang Lei with just a glance when I walked to the wall.

"You're here...... what's the matter? Although Zhang Lei is flat, his heart has already been turbulent.

"What's the matter?" I looked at Zhang Lei, who didn't say a word, and sent several mouthfuls of nicotine into my mouth to stabilize my mood.

"The notice is down, I'll leave in three days" Zhang Lei's tone was still indifferent, he just lowered his head, and he didn't look at me again.

"Three days...... Are you sure what day it is? The stone in my heart fell to the ground in an instant, but my heart instantly tightened. The days of worry are finally coming.

"Yes, the time is almost up, you say yes" Zhang Lei finished speaking, handed me a cigarette, although I still had it in my hand. Seeing me stretch out his hand, he forced himself to squeeze out a smile, but it was too dark for me to see.

"How...... Why do you have to be a soldier" I turned my head to the side and lit a cigarette, not wanting the tears in the corners of my eyes to be seen by Zhang Lei.

"There is no reason, the difference between me and you since I was a child is that I have my own clear ideals, I have always wanted to be a soldier, I should be a soldier, I must also be a soldier......" Zhang Lei gritted his teeth without the slightest softness, even if it was his younger brother standing in front of him, he could no longer let him waver.

"I know what a determined man you are! But...... But why can't I go later, you know, I have a hunch that bad luck is coming, Mom...... Mom was afraid ...... "I choked up, this is a secret that has always been pressed in my heart, and I have no one to talk to, even Wang Qiu Xiongzi can't listen to it." They are outsiders compared to Zhang Lei.

"Mom......" Thinking of this, Zhang Lei swallowed, why don't you want to stay, but there will always be disappointments, there will always be regrets, if you don't go, it will be the shadow of a lifetime, a lifetime of pain, you will eventually live in your own nightmare, her mother gave her endless love and life, but she can't repay it, no way, Zhang Lei has no choice. He had repented and cried a thousand times before his mother's bed, but he must go!

"Do you remember, once my father was sick, I was glad that we didn't understand the meaning of illness at that time, thinking that it was nothing more than shabby clothes and living in poverty, nothing changed, wasn't everyone like this at that time? I can't imagine my mother's feelings when she learned of the bad time in the hospital alone, why would a weak woman and a kind woman have such a hard time? It's not fair at all. Are we doing something wrong? Is there anything our family is missing? Why are good people not rewarded after all? I still remember when I was a child, you used to follow my buttocks, and once I went to Uncle Liu's to buy something, and the old guy saw that we were so dirty, and told us to get out. I also beat up his son, who still doesn't know why. Zhang Lian, we have all grown up. You have your life, I also have my life, we all have our own ways to go, don't be cowardly, be strong, the family will rely on you in the future, I don't know how many years I have been gone, maybe you won't recognize me at that time. But I'll never forget your face. You are more delicate and will help the family share more, and I believe you will do better than me! It is said that the personalities of the two brothers are completely opposite. If I can't do it, you'll do it! Zhang Lei smiled and wanted to reach out and touch my head, but he just shook his shoulders and didn't dare to make any more moves. Now indestructible.

"Why are you saying these words? I...... I'm not ready..... I can't live without you......" I couldn't control my emotions and couldn't cry, leaning against the wall and sobbing: "How many years have you been gone?" ”

"Don't cry," Zhang Lei turned his head and wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes.

"I'll be back, at most...... Ten years" Zhang Lei tried his best to suppress the words, this is the best expectation, he finally said it, I don't hear it anymore It doesn't matter to him anymore.

The night has become our best disguise, allowing hypocrites to revel, and people with true feelings to confide their hearts.

"Zhang Lian, you must remember what I am going to say next, you must remember" Zhang Lei had already wiped away all the tears, turned his head and spoke in a serious tone, and stood up straight.

When I saw Zhang Lei's appearance again, tears couldn't stop flowing down, why the moment of affection is always fleeting, and why is my brother's last tenderness always a thought.

"Don't take your word for it, learn to tell the lies they say. That lonely house must not go in as far away from him as possible, and last but not least, the most important one! After I leave, if you encounter danger, if someone bullies you and our family, if there are too many strange things happening, you will go to Wushan."

"Wushan? Why do you want to go to Wushan...... "I can't believe what my brother said. Isn't Wushan our forbidden place, a nightmare for the whole village?

"I'm leaving, don't tell anyone these words, rot in your heart" Zhang Lei glanced at me as he left, it was an expression that I couldn't describe and understand.

And the long-buried brother in his heart never spoke, he still swallowed, jumped and disappeared from my field of vision

A wall separated the two brothers again, and the cries rang out in unison, this night was destined to be a sleepless night, but we all ignored the moon tonight, it was really beautiful.

Zhang Lei has never looked at the villagers on the street so carefully, and has never paid attention to the environment in which he lives, he is like a stranger at the moment, sitting on a strange stone chair, smoking a cigarette that cannot be named, looking at passers-by of different shapes, and suddenly having an inexplicable nostalgia.

The villagers walked back and forth, and no one greeted Zhang Lei, but if it was Grandpa sitting here today, the situation would be very different. Zhang Lei is like a transparent person, others can't see himself, he can only see other people's shells.

Most of the villagers' expressions are the same, and the tiredness and irritability after busy farm work are all written on their faces, like yellowed old newspapers, which will burn out at the slightest fire.

Zhang Lei has always felt that many villagers are lucky people who are on the verge of death. They should die an earth-shattering death rather than live in idleness. Don't they all have ideas? Isn't Waimura interested in the outside world at all? Isn't the unknown world always curious? Why do they always stay where they are......

Zhang Lei even wondered if they were already dead, got up to smoke and move the stones, kicking the stones. Still no one looked at him more.

The only wild dog who saw him still looked at him with a look like a stranger. Zhang Lei threw a stone at the beast, and finally a villager looked at the stone. It seems that they are still alive.