I watched the light in his eyes jump and dim in an instant, "In my life, in just over ten years, I can't stand the toss of my liver and intestines again." ”

I was a little startled, and there was a wave in my heart, and it gradually subsided, "I was in the palace at that time, I couldn't help myself, I couldn't see the front clearly, I couldn't see the future, many people and things could only be put down, I only felt that resigned to fate was my best choice, I also knew your situation, but I was helpless, I did my best to save you from prison, and the occurrence of all kinds of accidents made me hurt into the bone marrow, since I left the palace, I don't want to remember anymore, I would rather forget, do you understand?" Pulling the corners of my mouth and smiling, I continued: "Everyone can't help themselves, you are, I am, Your Majesty too, when I lost my child, I wanted to blame anyone, but I can't blame anyone, no one can blame, no one is wrong, just stand on a different standpoint." ”

His expression was indescribably complicated, "I would rather you forget forever," laughed at himself, "my heart is all tied to you, and when I see you depressed and unhappy every day, without desire or desire, I know that you have not forgotten, and I can't let go of you with you, and the hatred and frustration of the past in my heart are getting worse day by day." ”

My heart throbbed, I looked at him and said, "You don't need to be upset at all, that's not your fault, you can't go back to heaven, even if you do it again, things will still develop like this, people are not grass and trees, who can be ruthless, I am depressed, because I am ashamed of the child who has not had time to take a look at the world, I am not a good mother," frowned, "It has nothing to do with anything else." ”

He lowered his eyes slightly, and said to me: "Si people have passed away, the deceased has passed, three years, it's time to let go of the mustard, how do I not know that you are for that child, but the loss of the child is for me after all, how can I not feel pain in my heart?" ”

My heart seemed to be broken, and I said with tears in my eyes, "But that child is not yours, I thought you would blame me." ”

He stroked my cheek and said with a light smile: "I was unable to protect you and make you suffer a lot, if I blame you, I blame myself even more." ”

The misery and regret in my heart are like the intertwined branches of a thousand-year-old green tree in the soil, and if I want to pull it up, I can only dig out my whole heart.

On his smooth face, the edges and corners are faintly cold, there are soft ripples between the two sharp eyebrows, and there seems to be a smile in his eyes all the time, but the light that is gently revealed inadvertently makes me dare not look deeply.

After being speechless for a long time, I felt a little distressed in my heart, "It's not your fault, don't blame yourself." ”

He looked at me and asked, "Can all the grievances and sorrows of the past really be dissipated with the wind?" ”

I lowered my eyelashes, "It doesn't matter if it can really be dispersed with the wind, it's all in the past, for me, even if there are thousands of feelings, all kinds of pain, I also understand, it's just a storm, it's just a passing cloud, the important thing is in front of me, the people in front of me, the things in front of me, I know, the person who accompanies me is you, and the Yunnan palace is my home," sighed, "The plague is spreading in Yaqi City, and the Yunnan palace is not spared, the princess has already gone to the ghost gate, but fortunately was dragged back by Doctor Chang, I don't want more people to suffer from disaster, do you know what I feared most when I saw the princess dying? ”

He asked in a normal tone, "What?" ”

I said in a low voice: "What I'm most afraid of is not that the princess will die, but that you are afraid that you will be out every day, and you will also be infected with any disease, I can't imagine how distressed and sad I will be if you lie in bed like a princess one day," chuckled, "Doctor Fang Cai is still thanking me, but I don't know, how weak my heart is, I am not righteous, I am just afraid, I thought about it all night last night, saving people outside, is saving myself, is saving you." ”

He looked at me and smiled: "Put you and me in the whole world, just two extremely small and light flat leaves floating on the sea, between the ups and downs, how can you and I be alone?" When the building topples, you and I can't escape. ”

I said, "yes, so how long can we hide?" Instead of hiding, try to see if you can turn the tide. ”

The leaves of the trees swayed slightly, as if not the breeze was blowing them, but the light that gently swept them, caressing them, and everything around them whistled and swayed and swayed pleasantly, and the soft tips of the windtail swayed wisely, and they were trying to enjoy the wind, but suddenly they died down, and everything was silent.

He stared at me, and didn't shy away from helping me brush my hair, ripples arose in my heart, and I only drilled into his arms, "Natural disasters and man-made disasters, not idle for a moment, why do you say that these things have been encountered by us?" It's really unfair. ”

He sighed, "How can anything in this world be fair or unfair? Shaking his head, he said: "It's good if you and I encounter anything, at least you and I are in the same place, there is no separation of heaven and earth, let alone yin and yang, Miao Miao, do you know that there are so many people in the world who are looking at each other, but they can't be together, they are clearly in front of us, but they can only say goodbye." ”

I frowned and said, "Is there such a thing in the world?" How painful and sad is that? I wanted to say more, but the words stopped abruptly.

He asked, "Why is it suddenly quiet?" ”

I said, "When I suddenly thought that there were, I felt sorry for them." ”

He looked at me and said, "Who are you talking about?" ”

I replied: "Lovesick and not blind date, who is the spring for the sky?" ”

His complexion suddenly became solemn, "The inner courtyard of the palace, with high walls and tiles, most of the people inside are helpless, how can you and I not be like this?" But now it's good, should you and I also cherish the present? ”

I smiled lightly: "There is helplessness inside, and there is unbearableness outside." The palace is full of treachery, but isn't the Yunnan palace full of dangers? ”

He asked, "You mean the plague?" ”

I smiled, nodded and shook my head, looked at him and said, "What about the plague." ”

He said, "But the most difficult thing now is the plague. ”

I replied: "I told Dr. Chang that I will send all the medicines counted in the house to him." ”

He frowned and asked, "With so many patients, how can he be busy alone?" ”

I said: "Dr. Chang also said this to me, but the medicine is rare, and it is not easy to get, even if it is given to other medical centers, it is a waste, and only by giving it to Dr. Chang can it give full play to its greatest benefits." ”

He thought for a moment and said, "I'll go back and think about it, see if there's a way to get the best of both worlds, and I'll tell you when the time comes," staring at me, "Have you counted your inventory?" ”

I shook my head and said, "I haven't had time to go yet," looking back at him, "I'll start counting when I get back in the evening, it shouldn't be too difficult." ”

He said "um" and stopped talking, and I don't know how long it was, as if he hadn't heard a sound around him for a long time. I didn't want to move, I just curled up in his arms, enjoying the warmth of the moment, if only time could freeze here, how nice it would be.