The room was neither cold nor hot, I sat in front of the desk, my hands tightly clutched the inventory list of the house that Ju Xiang had brought back in the evening, and I was wearing a plain flower-saving cloak on my body.

Juxiang's sigh as light as a gossamer floated into my ears, and I asked, "Okay, what are you sighing for?" But his eyes are always on the list.

Ju Xiang whispered: "I'm sighing that the current situation is chaotic, even if the second lady and Ming Shizi are happy with each other, it will not be easy in the future." Her figure is a goose yellow background, quietly appearing in my eyes.

I slowly raised my head, took a bowl of osmanthus wine from her, tasted it lightly, dropped the spoon and said, "The wine is too strong, I still have a bunch of lists that I haven't read, won't it be a mistake if I'm going to get drunk later?" ”

Ju Xiang helped me up, and added an extra duck down cushion to the back of the chair, "Second Miss has been sitting here since dinner, and her back hurts. ”

I rubbed my eyes, picked up the list casually, flipped through two pages, and took a deep breath and said: "The list of Yunnan Wangfu is really a headache," shook his hand and threw it on the case, "It's just a mess of one after another!" ”

Ju Xiang put her hand on my hand and said with a solemn expression: "People outside say that the gold and silver treasures in our Yunnan royal treasury are comparable to the Jiankang treasury, isn't that so?" ”

I said with pity: "You also know that it is comparable to the national treasury, but as far as it seems now, it is only comparable to two words, and I am afraid it is difficult to deserve it." ”

Ju Xiang looked at me and said, "What does Miss Second mean by this?" ”

I sighed lightly, "The Yunnan Royal Mansion is not rich and noble, and the things I have counted are only a drop in the bucket for the plague that is rampant outside," I shook my head, "It is far from what I imagined." ”

Ju Xiang's gaze was a little dull, and she looked at me intently for a long time before she said: "The Yunnan Royal Mansion in Yaqi City is the largest mansion, so it won't be like this!" ”

I chuckled, lowered my head and said, "It's too much to spread outside by word of mouth," after thinking about it, I felt more and more strange in my heart, "Dad dominates the Yunnan side, no matter how heavy the family background is, there should be at least a hundred tens of thousands of taels to protect his life, Dad is usually not very luxurious, and the money is not in the treasury, but where has it gone?" ”

Ju Xiang was puzzled: "The prince agrees with the second lady to count these, it must be frank and open, but listening to the second miss's tone, it seems that there is something else in it." ”

I gathered the cloak on my shoulders, and a moment of coldness hit, "Doesn't Dad know the situation in the house?" I frowned, "It can't be." ”

Ju Xiang said in a low voice: "Second Miss, don't think so much, the prince must know, as long as you can withstand this plague, it's fine, whether it's rich or bland, there will be no shortage of people to eat and wear, and it's not that the second miss is in charge, why should the second miss find these for herself?" ”

I made up my mind, stared at Ju Xiang twice, took a breath, and nodded, "You're right." ”

There is a glazed begonia flower pinned to the black hair of the chrysanthemum, which is so moist and bright, and it seems to have a thin and flowing slightly brown luster under the candle flame. I looked at her as if she still had something to say, "What do you want to say?" ”

She was silent for a moment and said: "Just now Ming Shizi sent the second miss back, what he said when he was walking on the road, the slaves and maids all heard it, when parting, can the second miss see what Ming Shizi looks like?" ”

I was slightly distracted, "The most important thing now is to let the plague pass as soon as possible, the love of children is long, and the future is long, and he also means this." ”

Ju Xiang's eyes were bright and said: "Even the slave can see that Ming Shizi is accommodating the second lady's mood, as early as a year ago, Ming Shizi mentioned the matter of marriage to the second miss, the second miss was noncommittal," she looked at me stubbornly, "Even if the second miss doesn't like to hear this, the slave and maid have to say, Ming Shizi is so good to the second miss, why does the second miss want to make Ming Shizi so hopeless?" Obviously, the second lady also has a Ming son in her heart? ”

Suddenly, the gloomy and sour feeling and helplessness in my heart surged, but it was quickly forcibly calmed down by me, "Juxiang, you don't understand, if I agree to him at this time, it will be the biggest injustice to him. ”

Ju Xiang smiled softly, swaying like candlelight, there was only one breath left, "The slave doesn't understand, the slave really doesn't understand, if there is a lover in the slave's heart, he should eventually become a family." ”

I bowed my head and picked up the pen, the Lenghua pen barrel was engraved with continuous willow leaf patterns, and the finely carved bird wings were twisting and turning, and the silver stripes of the rings were particularly complex and graceful on the wooden wood.

I said: "I can always look at him, I am satisfied, when I lean on his arms, I covet the warmth he gives, in fact, for a person like me, whether he has a reputation or not, it really doesn't matter that much." ”

Ju Xiang's eyes were sharp and sensitive, and a sharp cold light pierced people's hearts like the tip of a dagger, "Does Second Miss really think like that?" Can you really not care? ”

I was a little weak when she looked at me, I lowered my head and didn't know what to say, I really didn't care at all? What woman in the world would not want to tie the knot with her intended person and grow old together, I am not exempt from vulgarity, but deep in my heart there will still be as uncomfortable as a skeleton stuck, Luo Xi's plundering of me I have not completely let go, even if I know that Cangyang is different from him, but I am still afraid, in addition to fear, there is also the humility in my heart.

At the end of the day, I'm selfish.

Ju Xiang's tone was slightly relaxed, and the sentences poured down like a summer thunderstorm, "In fact, the slave maid can also see the second lady's thoughts about Ming Shizi, and the eyes like a spring breeze are not the second miss seeing an ordinary man, the slave maid doesn't know what the second miss experienced before entering the house, but no matter what she has experienced, the second miss also said, the most important thing is the moment, isn't it?" Why is the happiness of the fingertips in front of the second lady, and the second miss is unwilling to touch it? What's a taste? Only when the mulberry is tied can the flowers bloom and blossom! Could it be that Miss Cheng has to hide all the time? Second Miss and Ming Shizi can wait? If you can't wait, is it possible that the second lady will forget about Ming Shizi in the rivers and lakes? The second miss is a woman, isn't the most important thing for a woman a lifelong event? ”

Ju Xiang's words hit the nail on the head, and they were also the words that pierced my heart the most, as if a cold blade poked into my chest at once, stabbing me speechless, "It's good for flowers to bloom and stalk, but you know that there are no flowers in the world that are red for a hundred days." There was a kind of stubbornness in my tone.

Ju Xiang's expression was a little agitated, I had never heard her say that. She has always been docile and caring, and I know that she is smarter and more attentive than others, and she is always noticed in places where others are not easily noticed.

I whispered: "There are some things to keep in my heart, I don't have to say them, as for my own affairs, I have already said, I know in my heart, many things you don't know, don't worry about me, I choose, I will be able to bear the consequences." ”

Ju Xiang's tone was cold, like the night breeze blowing outside the corridor, "Live your life so carefully, what does the second lady think?" The slave maid doesn't want to see the second miss sad, and she doesn't want Ming Shizi to be sad, because Ming Shizi is sad, and the second miss must also be unhappy, both of them know that they are embarrassed, why bother? After a pause, her tone softened, "Besides, the second miss doesn't dislike Ming Shizi, and the depression and irritability in the second miss are not all because of the list, and Ming Shizi is affecting the second miss's heart, and the second miss is so troubled, the slave knows that the second miss's heart is not good." ”

I forced, "Okay, you don't have to say any more. ”

Ju Xiang said sadly: "The slave just doesn't want to see two lovers who are annoyed and sad. ”

I lifted my clothes and said, "Who said I was troubled and sad?" I don't think I'll come to Ming Shizi, it's obvious that you are too careful. Who said that only by connecting the wings can you grow old with your son, and who said that only with red silk and satin, can the two hearts know each other? Smiling, I shook my head again, "It's just the world's opinion, I have him in my heart, and he has me in my heart, will it be enough soon?" My voice became smaller and smaller, and my mind finally fell, barely steadied my thoughts, reaching out to hold the sandalwood case, trying to stabilize my body, and the bamboo branches outside the window were sparsely and shallow on the window paper, as if I was confused and confused at the moment.