When I wasn't very conscious, I don't know why these words kept echoing over and over again in my head—

From joy to sorrow, from love to fear.

There is no fear of joy and trouble, and there is no fear of love.

If there is no love or hatred, he is unbound.

I felt a chill on my body, my chest was so tight that I couldn't breathe, and my stomach seemed to be all twisted together, and it hurt one after another.

Extremely nauseous and dizzy, I couldn't bear to vomit out of a mouthful of "wow", and when I opened my eyes, I was in a mess.

Luo Xi half-hugged me, gently wiped my back, not too dirty, the hand was so gentle that I raised my face suspiciously, and confirmed my eyes in a daze. Qiu Si hurriedly stepped forward to help wipe it clean.

I called weakly, "Your Majesty." ”

Luo Xi looked at me with a smile on his face, hugged me tightly in his arms, and said, "Miao Miao, it's so good." ”

A little fear came to me and I asked, "What?" ”

Luo Xi kissed me lightly on the forehead and whispered, "You have my child." ”

My body froze unconsciously, and I didn't give up, and asked, "What?" ”

can hear Luo Xi's joy, "The imperial doctor has just diagnosed the pulse, and you and I are about to have a child." ”

I stared at him for a long time, not half happy in my heart, and then, in front of Luo Xi's smile, I said word by word: "Luo Xi, I hate you." ”

His smile gradually disappeared from his face, and he reached out and stroked my cheek, saying, "Miao Miao, aren't you happy?" ”

I wept and didn't answer.

Luo Xi turned around and waved his hand, and everyone retreated.

I was in pain, entangled in love and hate, he looked at me quietly, for a long time, and said lightly: "Do you know how happy I was just now." ”

I cried and gasped, and said, "But that's not what I want." ”

Luo Xi glared at me vigorously, and I could feel his anger.

The dark night was very silent, as if boundless thick ink was splashed heavily on the rice paper, and there was no glimmer at all.

Luo Xi stood up with his hands behind his back and said in a deep voice: "Let's choose a day to seal the concubine." ”

I yelled, "I don't want it! I felt a tingling pain in my lower abdomen, and I collapsed on the bed with no support for my whole body.

Seeing this, Luo Xi hurriedly turned around to support me nervously, frowned and asked, "Are you okay?" ”

I closed my eyes and shook my head, Luo Xi hugged me strongly, I pushed him weakly, and he whispered sadly: "You are already my person, and you are still thinking about him." ”

I'm speechless.

Luo Xi said softly: "You went to see him last night, didn't you?" ”

I was stunned and asked, "You know?" ”

Luo Xi shook his head and chuckled, "Of course I know that the Queen Mother intends to detain me, it's so obvious, if you can't see it, then I'm really in vain!" ”

I tried my best to breathe, trying to make myself more comfortable and calm.

Luo Xi said: "I didn't expect that the Queen Mother would answer you." ”

I tugged at the corners of my mouth, "I didn't expect to see him again." ”

Luo Xi asked me, "I'm afraid you're already hating me now, right?" ”

I smiled helplessly, without any compassion, and replied in a low voice: "Yes." ”

Luo Xi's face turned pale, and he quickly turned into a light smile, "Although I know that it must be this answer, I still don't want to ask." ”

I am silent and I do not struggle.

Luo Xi humbly begged me: "Miao Miao, can you not hate me, don't treat me like this?" The tone of his voice revealed an unprecedented sadness.

I said, "Let go of the great monk," looking at him, my heart suddenly softened, "If you let him go, I won't hate you." ”

Luo Xi asked, "Really?" ”

I nodded and said, "Really." ”

Luo Xi loosened his arms, helped me up, took out a silk to help me wipe my tears, "Don't cry anymore, I won't allow you to cry anymore in the future," continued to say softly, "The imperial doctor said, it's not good for the eyes for people with bodies to cry too much, Miao Miao's eyes are like cutting water, you can't cry anymore, okay?" ”

I pushed his hand away and said weakly, "You have to remember that you promised me." ”

Luo Xi looked at me quietly, nodded with a slight smile, and after comforting me to lie down, he sighed lightly and turned to leave.

There was still a faint pain in my abdomen, and through the sparse lamp, the thin veil pasted on the window, it seemed that the continuous rain was hitting the eaves, and the sound of the murmur made people feel even more lonely and desolate.

Quietly, endless night, endless thoughts, but the night will eventually become day, but the thoughts will stay in the heart for a long time.

I looked down and saw my shadow on the ground by candlelight, and I couldn't help but say, "I'm sorry for making you suffer." ”

Qiu Si came in and whispered to me: "Second Miss, go to sleep quickly, it's raining outside, I'm afraid that Second Miss will be cold, so I specially came in to gather some charcoal." ”

I laughed and said, "It's the weather in mid-April, and there is still a charcoal fire in this room." ”

Qiu Si said: "Your Majesty ordered, I am afraid that the second young lady will be cold, and now that she has a body, she can't be lazy." ”

I smiled palely and sighed, "Speaking of which, Your Majesty is really good to me. ”

Qiu Si looked at me, "Yes, everything has been thought out for the second lady first, and she is more attentive than the slave." ”

I asked Qiusi, "Do you think I'm particularly ruthless and blind to Your Majesty?" ”

Qiu Si bowed his head and said, "It's hard to say slaves. ”

I said, "You can say whatever you want, I'm not angry." ”

Qiu Siwei said: "Then the slave really said it?" ”

I smiled, "Say it." ”

Qiu Si said: "In the eyes of the slave, Your Majesty has indeed done a lot for the second young lady, but the second young lady's heart never seems to be in Your Majesty. ”

I looked at Qiu Si with a smile.

Qiu Si said again: "Your Majesty postponed the draft period for the second miss, and whatever is good on weekdays will be sent to the second miss first, or if there is any problem, she will think of it first for the second miss, and quietly call the public announcement and the slaves, these second misses don't know, but the slaves and maids are all informed, and they are not afraid to tell the second miss so far, and the slaves and maids will also wonder in private, why does the second miss never accept Your Majesty?" ”

I shook my head, thinking about what I had been doing, and I actually felt a little guilty about Luo Xi in my heart.

Qiu Si said again: "Now, the second lady has a child with Your Majesty, why not accept Your Majesty?" ”

My eyes were hot, and I sighed, "Tell me to think again." ”

Qiu Si walked over, raised his hand and lowered the curtain carefully, "Second Miss, it's too late today, don't think about it, go to sleep first." ”

I grabbed Qiu Si's hand, frowned and asked, "Your Majesty postponed the draft date, when did it happen, why haven't I heard about it at all?" So, what's the downside? ”

Qiu Si smiled and whispered: "The second young lady has not been released at that time, and it is normal not to know, it is rumored that this matter is because many young ladies of the princes and ministers have made a lot of noise in those days, and His Majesty ordered the people in the palace not to mention this matter more." ”

I said, "Wouldn't this cause instability in the DPRK and China?" ”

Qiu thought for a while, "Maybe, but these slaves really don't understand, anyway, the waves are over, and everything is fine now." ”

I nodded.

Qiu Si turned off two more lights and went out.

I closed my eyes, but I couldn't sleep.