It was a white day, and I asked Qiu Si to set up a wooden chair by the door early in the morning, and sat all morning, it was rainy outside, and I was afraid that such weather would evoke my memories, my fears, and flood my mind with my chaotic thoughts.

Everything that can be seen in front of you seems to be rendered into the most terrible flood beast in this color, roaring to take away time, comfort, happiness, and tearing at the cumulus clouds in the distance like lead in despair.

The pain in his chest was flooding, and he cried out for relief in his heart, and he looked up at the sky, and the blue and white color extended to the other end, like a beating heart in his chest, and its melody kept going in that direction. Twisting the Nanmu beads in his hand, the corners of his mouth twitched, he shook his head, lowered his eyes, and looked at his palm blankly.

After half a day of rain, Dongxue came in to help me change a thick blanket to cover, Qiu Si added a few more pieces of new charcoal in the charcoal cage, I thought it tasted bad, Qiu Si lit a few more light incense, the breath is beautiful and light, calm and slightly confused.

Dongxue smiled: "At this hour, I thought, the princess should come." ”

I replied, "How can you be so accurate!" ”

Dongxue handed me a hand stove and said, "Since the second lady has a body, the princess has always come at this hour in the past two days, not a single cent, a lot of points, as if she has pinched it!" ”

Dongxue and Qiusi's diligent jokes for days are to distract my unhappy thoughts, I don't know, and I don't want them to waste this heart, so they will laugh reluctantly

After Jianning learned that I had His Majesty's child, he would come to see me every day and talk to me, except for some jokes and new talks, the rest was persuasion.

Persuade me to let go, persuade me to accept.

And His Majesty is even more attentive to me, so good that he is looking forward to this child. But the better he treats me, the more guilt I feel about him, just right, and it is this guilt that always supports me to numb myself and occasionally laugh with him.

Because of this body trapped in the room these days, it is true that I have not heard any news from the Empress Dowager Zhuang Wen, I asked Jianning, Jianning said nothing special, but a few words.

As soon as he was declared, Jianning came.

Dongxue and Qiusi greeted with a smile and saluted.

Today, Jianning looks not quite the same as usual, her face is full of flying clouds, and she can't hide her smile, approaching me, she is already full of vitality, and she is a little more beautiful at the moment.

Probably something to be happy about!

I smiled and asked, "Why is the princess so happy today?" Something good? ”

Qiu Si brought a wooden chair from the side, laid out the cushions, Jian Ning'an sat down, and smiled at me: "Is it a good thing, Miao Miao guess?" ”

After Qiu Si served the tea, he retreated, Jian Ning held the tea cup in his hand, and didn't care about drinking it, only looked at me with a smile, I thought about it, "About Lord Rong?" ”

Jian Ning smiled and shook his head.

I frowned, and said, "How can I guess the good thing about the princess, I haven't been out for a few days." ”

Jian Ning took my hand and whispered with a smile, "I'm happy for you." ”

I immediately lifted my spirits and said carefully, "Could it be ......?"

Jian Ning nodded, his smile as if he was about to overflow.

I shook Jianning's hand back and asked with tears in my eyes, "Really?" "I couldn't believe it for a while.

Jian Ning pressed my slightly trembling shoulders, strong and firm, "Grandmother sent someone to pretend to be someone from the rivers and lakes outside to rescue the monk from prison. ”

I hurriedly said, "What about Your Majesty?" What about him? Angry? Can you send someone to arrest the great monk? ”

I asked a few questions in a row, and Jian Ning hurriedly stopped me, "Oh, Miao Miao, you ask slowly, like this, how do you want me to answer?" ”

I smiled flatteringly, "Okay, speak slowly." ”

Jian Ning thought for a while and said, "Grandmother said that the third brother must know about this, but she didn't stop it, she opened one eye and closed one eye," looked at me, and said, "Grandmother said that if the third brother stopped her, she couldn't be saved." ”

I reassured, "That's fine." ”

He asked Jian Ning again, "Where is the great monk now?" ”

Jian Ning shook his head, "I don't know about this, anyway, there should be no such person as Master Yichen in the future." ”

I nodded, "That's fine," I sighed, "I don't know how Your Majesty is going to end this matter?" ”

Jian Ning said: "I'm afraid it will be a few days, I have to find an excuse." ”

Jianning's words, how I don't understand, but since entering the palace, how many nights have I ever had a good night, many late nights, I almost looked at the sky with my eyes open, counting the louder times, from the twilight shrouded in the window to the glimmer of the morning light outside the window, Luo Xi's mind often changes, elusive, how many times, I curled up and shivered in the black that seemed to never see the end, crying silently, tears wet the pillow towel, nails sunk in the flesh, and the unwillingness and humiliation in my heart gnawed back and forth at my already broken heart.

As long as the dust does not completely settle for a day, I can't let go of my worries for a day, but I dare not show it, even in front of Jianning.

Jian Ning stared at me, "Miao Miao, why is your face like this?" ”

I came back to my senses and asked, "What?" ”

Jian Ning was puzzled: "Not as happy as I imagined, I thought you would be very happy." ”

I smiled and said, "I'm happy, I've been looking forward to it for so long, and I finally got my wish." ”

Jian Ning smiled, "I'm scared to death, just looking at your face, I thought you weren't happy at all!" ”

I sighed, "It's strange that there are some things that you have been looking forward to for a long time, and in the end you don't feel how happy you are, but a very peaceful feeling." This is a disguise, but it is also true.

Jian Ning curled his hair with his fingers, "Will this be the case?" I don't understand. ”

I smiled and said, "Yes, of course the princess doesn't understand, the princess hasn't had this kind of experience, maybe one day the princess will understand, but I hope the princess never understands." ”

Jian Ning unintentionally broke my hand, and those nanmu beads spilled on the ground, Jian Ning looked at it, frowned and said to me: "Miao Miao, I advised you a few days ago, have you listened to it?" ”

I wanted to bend over to pick it up, but Jian Ning hurriedly stopped him and called Qiu Si in.

I had no choice but to forget it, leaned back on the wooden chair, was silent for a long time, and said in a low voice: "I listened and thought about it, but I just ...... It just can't be done yet. ”

Jianning questioned me and said, "What's wrong with my third brother?" Why do you look down on you so much? ”

I shook my head, "It's not that Your Majesty is bad, it's that I don't feel that way." ”

Jianning asked, "What do you feel?" ”

I replied, "That feeling you have for Lord Rong." ”

Jianning paused.

I looked at Jian Ning, "Princess, I also know that Your Majesty is very good, but I can't forget the great monk in my heart, even if I know that I may not be able to communicate with him." ”

Jian Ning nodded and asked with a sad brow: "Is this feeling really only for one person?" ”

I looked down and smiled, "Maybe." ”

Jian Ning sighed: "Isn't this going to be very bitter? ”

I replied: "Bitter." Get used to it. ”

Jian Ning's voice trembled a little, "Then what should I do if that's the case?" "She didn't know that I also knew that Jian Ning was worried about herself and Lord Rong, and she was afraid that she would encounter something similar to me, and she might be worse than me.

At least, I have no choice but to accept that the man I have to accept is Your Majesty, the king of the present day.

And Jianning, who will it be?

Marrying a vassal king? Or something else?

I looked at Jianning, and I really couldn't bear to say that most of the people in reality are powerless to resist, and we can only learn to bear it.