() A ray of clear daylight shines in through the window, and the purple fishtail hair curtain shimmers with gray-gold grace and luxury, and rolls up a room of sparkling waves like water patterns. The clarity and vigor of the dawn does not bring me a glimmer of life, the lonely empty court locks the autumn, and the time is silent and cold after all, just like my heart. Summoned Ju Xiang in, cleaned up briefly, put on a snow-colored brocade cloak, and sneaked out of the house alone. No one can be discovered, especially Luo Xi, otherwise my plan will not be carried out. Naturally, I remember that today was the day of the great day, and it was time for me to make a decision.

My heart was sour, from the Yunnan palace to the halfway waist of Xunshan Mountain, with my riding skills galloping a fast horse or so a cup of tea. But I feel that the distance today seems surprisingly far, as if I have passed half a lifetime of lingering and sad time. The scenes in my mind kept going on like this, I didn't feel that my palms were already covered with beads of sweat, holding the reins and a sticky and greasy tide made me uncomfortable, my body leaned back slightly, the horse let out a crisp neigh, the moment I stepped off the horse's back, my eyes swept over the back of Cang Yang who was standing not far away and waiting, his heels were weak, and he was about to fall, but fortunately I pulled the saddle next to the hand and stabilized it.

I walked over step by step, the cold mountain wind touching my cheeks, and the chill made me tingle, "You came early." ”

Only the two of us looked at each other quietly, and his voice was as clear as the green grass and trees around him, the fresh morning breeze, "You have something to say to me." ”

His tone didn't sound like a question to me, but an assertion that had long been affirmed in his mind. I glanced behind him, and the mist in front of the cliff made the turbid world seem to be a fairyland, and I whispered, "Yes, I have something to say to you." ”

Under the cliff of Mount Xun is a spring, although it is not a rough wave on weekdays, but it is not calm without a trace of ripples, no matter how soft, it can drown people. And this mist was steaming up from below, and in the vast expanse, I had already made up my mind.

He looked at me intently, smiled peacefully, and said, "You look good in red." ”

Yao remembered that during the Lantern Festival that year, I was also wearing a red cloud-gathering shirt. That night, whether it was the colorful lights on the street or the vivid lion and dragon lanterns, a piece of flowers, brilliant lights, and laughter seemed to be yesterday. The joy of that time was real happiness. But now that I think about it, the irony that rolls in my heart is indeed a real irony.

A smile tugged at the corner of my mouth, and I suddenly thought, "Actually, the princess had already told me the answer unintentionally at that time, but I didn't realize it at that time." ”

He raised an eyebrow, "What?" ”

I chuckled and sighed, "There is no coincidence in the world, just like the princess I thought I met by chance on the road that night during the Lantern Festival, but in fact, the princess came to me so coincidentally," I muttered, "Where is it so coincidental," and slowly lowered his eyes, "as if it was not an accident when you and I first met, it was all intentional." ”

His eyebrows were calm, and his tone was light, "You finally know." ”

My gaze was like a wisp of cold frost condensed on him, "Yes, I finally know, you lied to me for four whole years, if it wasn't for Your Majesty telling me, I'm afraid you wouldn't have told me for the rest of your life, right?" ”

His eyes were still as clear, like ripples of streamers, and his lips and teeth moved slightly, "Yes." ”

I said: "I should have realized that although the eldest lady has always dealt with me, she has never thought of harming my life, even if she wants to kill me, why did she let me die so inthoroughly, and I can still wake up?" My lord has never taken care of me, let me live and die, why did he suddenly change sex and treat me with blue eyes? I bit my lip and my eyebrows twitched, "All of this is so unreal and unreasonable when I think about it now, but I have never doubted it at all, and I have always been stupid to think that you saved me, that it was you who saved me by accident." ”

His face was as usual as usual, as if the clear blue sky was as soft as not hanging a trace of clouds, "What you said is my arrangement, and I went to find Mrs. Li, because I heard that there is a second lady in the palace who is not very favored, she is more than smart, but she is well-behaved but insufficient, and she is still a concubine, and I just need such a woman to arrange for her to enter the palace and stabilize my trust in the heart of the emperor." Of course, Mrs. Li also has his measurements. So we joined forces. ”

Although I knew, my heart was still painful to hear him say it, and I felt like I was about to suffocate, and I asked sadly, "Why?" ”

He said: "Because I want to be free, I will only have a chance if the first emperor trusts me and relaxes me." ”

I asked, "Why me?" There was a condemnation of God's injustice to me.

He paused for a while, and said in a deep voice: "Being well-behaved can be taught the day after tomorrow, but if you want to find someone who looks beautiful and agrees with your heart, it is one in a million," looking at me, "You just happen to be the one who looks right." ”

I laughed, "Is it because I look like a concubine?" ”

He replied, "I found out about it later." I chose you at the beginning because the first emperor liked delicate and agile women. ”

I stared into his eyes and asked, "Why don't you lie to me anymore?" Taking a deep breath, "Why don't you say you don't know?" "If you say, I must believe it, and even if I don't believe it, I can lie to myself for the rest of my life." ”

He looked at me, shook his head and said, "You won't, you can't deceive yourself for the rest of your life, you're not that kind of woman, if you were, you wouldn't have come to me today." ”

I smiled and said, "Yes, you're right." I simply can't lie to myself for the rest of my life, there's no way to ......"

He smiled lightly, "Can we go back in time?" ”

Endless softness and pain fell on my heart like raindrops, "I can't go back," a few words popped out of my mouth, clear and clear, sad and resolute, clearly there are still a lot of things I want to say, but at this moment facing him, I don't know what to say, let alone where to start, I just said, "I believe in you so much, pay a sincere heart to you, but you have been lying to me and using me." Even if I could go back, I wouldn't want to go back, because it was a lie, a lie made up by all the people I cared about, like the poppies outside the city of Yaqi, beautiful but poisonous, hurting and killing people in the midst of ignorance. ”

His body trembled slightly, and the pain on his face was like being unintentionally thrown into a hard stone on the calm water, "I hid it from you, but I swear that there is only one thing." ”

His clear voice was so kind, so familiar, so gentle. I said poignantly, "Isn't this one thing enough?" ”

He looked at me silently, silently.

I went on to say, "This alone has negated our beginning, and without the original beginning, there would be no end as it should be." Our relationship was not what I thought it was from the beginning, and it was actually deeply involved in the power struggle from the beginning. You still planned it. I really don't know what I've been holding on to all these years," he asked him, smiling, "Have you ever tasted the feeling that everything you've always believed in crumbles in an instant?" ”

He said softly, "No." ”

I said coldly: "You know, I feel it, it's a kind of despair, it's a kind of doubt, it's a doubt about myself, it's a doubt about the world, it's a doubt about you, and I don't have the ability to trust anyone anymore because of you." ”

He bowed his head, his eyes already full of self-blame and guilt, "It's my fault." ”

I sneered, "It's not your fault, it's my fault, my fault is that I shouldn't be sincere, I think, even if you do it again, you will still choose to do it." However, if I had to do it again, I would definitely not choose to like you. ”

"Really?" he asked. His expression was dark and misty, without a trace of morning light.

I smiled wryly, "But time has passed, and I will never do it again." I can't escape after all. ”

He said eagerly, "Can't you forget this?" ”

I looked at him weakly, took a deep breath, and tried my best to restrain the fire in my heart, "Forgetting, it's not easy to say." ”

He continued: "Actually, there is no need for us to give up on each other because of this one thing. ”

I kept breathing, my eyes ached, and I finally knew what a painful feeling it was to cry, and I looked at his face, and I really didn't want to restrain myself, and said loudly, "You let me go." Do you want me to remember the past things that I have been used by you and deceived by you when I face you in the future? ”

The warm color in his eyes gradually dimmed, and he whispered, "I only lied to you this once," and then stared at me again and asked, "So, you want to leave me and follow him into the palace as a concubine?" ”

I firmly, "Yes, I will leave you, forever." ”

The corners of his eyes were cold, and he was silent for a while, and sighed, "It's okay." ”

The sadness in my heart is even deeper, did he want to get rid of me a long time ago? Did I say this to him? He chuckled and said, "Your Majesty is right, there is no man in this world who doesn't care about his woman's innocence, unless, that man doesn't love that woman at all," I asked, "You didn't love me at all, did you?" With that, I stepped over to the edge of the cliff, and everything worked together as if it had been rehearsed, when the mountain wind suddenly blew and the clouds drifted overhead, obscuring the sunshine, which was still bright and warm. I have no way out, carefully glanced behind me, the height of the bottom is not at all, so that my body can't help but tremble, today's clothes and skirts are quite thin, blown by the cold wind in the cliff behind the hanging place is swinging left and right, the only remaining heat on the body slowly dissipated, a cold hit, the body gradually stiffened, the feet are really unstable, obviously uncontrollable shaking, as if about to fall.

His face changed slightly, and he couldn't help but take a step towards me, but I shrank my foot to the edge of the cliff, raised my arm and pointed at him and yelled, "Don't come!" ”

He was startled, waved his hand again and again, and said, "Okay, okay, I won't go over, I won't go over," stretched out his arms, and the smile on his face looked extremely unnatural because of fear, "Miao Miao, it's too dangerous, you come first, okay?" ”

I asked him again, "Did you really love me?" ”

He frowned, still not answering. He's probably wondering how to get me through, but I'm not going to let him get his way. The mountain wind stirred in my ears, making a whirring roar, I looked at his complicated and embarrassing expression, and suddenly I didn't want to know the answer, anyway, I was going to die, and what answer actually didn't mean anything to me, but it was just an obsession of mine. In this case, even if he said he loved me, he was only trying to soothe my emotions. If love, shouldn't it be blurted out in an instant?

I took a step back slightly, and my whole body had already fallen. He reacted quickly, took a leap, fell on the side of the big rock on the cliff, grabbed my sleeve, and shouted, "No! No! I love you! I've always loved you! ”

His voice was obviously trembling, his expression was panicked to the extreme, his brows were already frowning together, two deep furrows were embedded in the center of his eyebrows, and his eyes, which were originally as clear as moonlight, became anxious and eager at the moment, and his head seemed to be burning with a fire in them. The anxious roaring voice, almost hoarse, "Miao Miao! Come on! Punish me however you want! Hurry up! As long as you come up! ”

The sleeves of my shirt were torn so loudly that they were "clack", and the thin gauze brocade was tearing little by little due to the overwhelm. I didn't have a trace of wanting to go up, or there was no trace of raw **, I quietly looked at him for the last time, and finally chose to believe what he said just now, that he said that he loved me.

That's enough.

The last bit of involvement in the cuffs finally broke off, and I fell down rapidly with the wind and the sound of the spring, and my eyes seemed to see him holding the piece of yarn brocade tightly as red as fire, waving his arms on the cliff, and the roaring voice was terrifying, and kept shouting: "Miao Miao! ”

Yes, calling my name.

The red grew smaller and smaller until it became a small red dot.

His crumbling voice drifted like smoke in the wind.

Finally, it's finally over.

It seemed that all the troubles and sorrows had dissipated like smoke, and only the desolate sky, the white clouds drifted away, and I saw a bright beam of sunshine, so dazzling, I could not help but raise my hand to block it, the cliff was so high, and the wind on my cheeks was like a sharp dagger that cut my flesh and skin. I waited for the moment when I touched the water.

The heart sank to the bottom like a swimming fish, and there was no longer a trace of consciousness.

I was relieved because I had already planned it, and I was afraid of pain, so I chose Kaoru Mountain, only there is a spring under the cliff here, which doesn't hurt when I land, but it's enough to stun me, and I can't swim...... After a long time, all that was left was the "buzzing" sound all around, I could barely breathe, my eyes hurt, my cheeks hurt, my nose hurt...... Before I landed, I had closed my eyes and lost most of my consciousness, and my body felt like I had fallen into an abyss, "I never thought it would be like this." ”

It was the last word that came to mind with the last shred of consciousness I had left.