On the first day of the Lunar New Year, every household put up their lights, and it began, walking the streets and visiting the doors, and with such a lively atmosphere, Zhang's mother's nephews also came.

Zhang Youyi saw that so many people came to the house, and began to "wait for cut", but this year is different from the past is that Zhang Youyi is back.

and Zhang Youyi's fiancé also came back, and today Zhang Youyi's family is a little small, many people came, and Zhang Youyi's nephew also came.

Chi Hanyu obviously didn't expect that Zhang Youyi's nephews were so old that they could call people, Zhang Youyi was already working, and she was an elder, so she naturally wanted to give a red envelope to the junior.

When Zhang's mother introduced it to everyone, she also said that Chi Hanyu was Zhang Youyi's fiancé, so everyone thought that she was also coming to visit relatives.

Zhang Youyi looked at her two cousins, who were much older than herself, and they were already married when Zhang Youyi was in high school.

Zhang Youyi has just graduated from college and just worked, and his nephews are only in junior high school, and Chi Hanyu smiled and listened to the children call him uncle.

The house is very lively, Zhang Youyi and Zhang's mother are cooking in the kitchen, and their two sisters-in-law also come to help, which is very lively.

Ji Hanyu felt the feeling of quiet years at this moment, he didn't have to think about anything, he lived his life ordinarily, year after year.

Zhang Youyi saw that she was almost busy, and saw Chi Hanyu standing on the balcony alone, it was very cold in winter, and no one went to stand on the balcony.

Zhang Youyi walked over and asked Chi Hanyu, "What's wrong?" Chi Hanyu looked at Zhang Youyi with a smile and said to him: "In this small city, living the same life every day is calm and simple, year after year, and it feels good. ”

Zhang Youyi shook her head at Chi Hanyu with a smile and said: "Actually, it's not, living in such a small city, worrying about firewood, rice, oil and salt every day, and having countless troubles every day. ”

"I've lived like this for the past ten years, in fact, you're just tired and don't want to live such a life of intrigue, so you envy such a peaceful life."

"If you look at me again, it's the opposite of you, once you go out, you never want to come back, in fact, you can't say you don't want to come back, right? It's just that there were too many ups and downs in the past days. ”

"I cry too much, and I don't want to recall, the more I remember, the more heartache I feel, and the longer I remember, the more I hate myself at that time."

Ji Hanyu was a little strange, he didn't understand why Zhang Youyi hated his former self, so he couldn't help but ask, "Why?" ”

Zhang Youyi pulled out a wry smile, looked at Chi Hanyu, and said: "Because I will always hate myself who was incompetent at that time, and I will live like that in the future." ”

"You know what? In the past, my family was not very wealthy, and the house was not as big as it is now, and the family was crammed into a small house. ”

"There was only one air conditioner, in my parents' room, and the family was so poor at that time that they had to calculate every meal."

"Do you remember the first time we met? It's all suburbs, it's a construction site, and my family lives near there, so the environment is very poor. ”

"Can you imagine the life of the poor? Even if you are not so poor that you jingle, you are not rich, and every meal must be carefully calculated. ”

"At that time, I was squeamish, I was a young lady's habit since I was a child, but I didn't have the life of being a big lady, I wasn't a very squeamish person, so my parents hated me at that time."

"Because he is too squeamish and his family is poor, how can he really be poor and raise a son and a rich daughter? That's why my mom always told me to do a lot at that time. ”

Zhang Youyi looked at Chi Hanyu with a smile, Chi Hanyu frowned, a little distressed by Zhang Youyi, and couldn't help but say to him: "And then?" ”

Zhang Youyi smiled reluctantly and took out a cigarette, Chi Hanyu didn't stop it, Zhang Youyi sighed, took a puff of cigarette and said to Chi Hanyu: "Actually, I'm very grateful to my parents, because at least he didn't let me live too undignified." ”

"Life is like this, people without money will always be at the bottom of this world, and the poor always yearn for a well-off life, so they work hard to make money."

"My parents are not highly educated, so they can think of very few ways to make money, they are not like us, they have a high degree of education, vision, and resources in their hands."

"They earn every penny, save money, want to change a car, want to change a house, save money, and provide for their children to study."

"Actually, I can't say it, I'm not happy, but I don't know why I'm hurting, maybe it's really hurting, right?"

"In fact, with the passage of time, the phenomenon of preference for sons over women will become less and less, but it does not mean that there is none, this is the continuation of bad habits."

"Actually, I've been running away all the time, and it's only been because I've been running away for many years, so I don't have to go home, you know? I've always been a very family person. ”

"Every time I go to an unfamiliar place, I can't sleep all night, no matter how expensive the bed is, no matter how soft the pillow is."

"I can't sleep all the time, but even so, I want to escape." Zhang Youyi looked at Chi Hanyu with a sigh, and Chi Hanyu hugged Zhang Youyi.

Zhang Youyi pressed the cigarette in her hand into the flower pot, Zhang Youyi was obviously smiling, but in Chi Hanyu's eyes, she was so sad.

Chi Hanyu smiled and said to Zhang Youyi: "What about you and your brother?" ”

When Zhang Youyi heard Chi Hanyu's words, she smiled and said to Chi Hanyu: "I told you that I heard that it is the temper of an eldest lady, but there is no life of an eldest lady. ”

"So I was a very stinky and hard-tempered person since I was a child, and the old saying often says that if you don't hit the south wall, you won't look back, and I was such a person at that time."

"Can you imagine? A little girl has such a temper, but his mother has a temper very similar to his, so the contradictions between them become more and more and deeper, and in the end they are irreconcilable. ”

"However, Zhang Lixuan is not like this, he is a very sleek person, he wants to please his mother very much, at that time my father worked outside all the year round and rarely came home."

"I was a premature baby, but my IQ didn't seem to be high at that time, I couldn't listen to lectures very intensively, I studied poorly, and I always called my parents."

"I was probably a stupid kid back then! Children whose parents can't teach them no matter how they teach, but Zhang Lixuan is a smart child. ”

"It's very smart, it's very smart, as long as you teach it, you can understand it with just a little tap."

Zhang Youyi sighed, tears fell at once, and Chi Hanyu was a little distressed in an instant.