I walked casually, while secretly thinking, if what Prince Ning said is true, then these past events are really known is better than not knowing, I can't help but laugh at myself, probably people are like this, when everything has not happened, even if there are thousands of people who warn you that this road is not easy to walk, you should not go, but you will always want to break through, and run forward without hesitation, and when everything develops to the point of no return, you will realize that everyone is right, but you just insist on going your own way, Until the end, it was too late to regret it.

Now that's how I am.

Isn't it good to have a calm and flowing life, my father and mother love me, Luo Xi loves me, why do you have to find such trouble for yourself, such troubles, let yourself be at a loss, I don't know where the road ahead is.

However, people will always be curious, right, no normal person can understand how a person with a blank brain lives, that can no longer be called life, can only be said...... It's "dissipation", that kind of emptiness in my heart, it's like falling into an infinite black hole, the kind of fear and helplessness that strikes, no one can dissolve, not even Luo Xi, it will always wrap me, until I get old, until I die.

The road to the imperial study seems to be very close, a few steps away, I stood outside the door, quietly looking up at the jasper glazed cornices carved with gilt, shining golden light in the sunlight, extremely beautiful, the two dragons hovering above, golden scales and golden armor, vivid, as if to fly into the air.

I smiled and stepped up the steps, "Is there anyone else in there besides Your Majesty?" ”

The father-in-law saluted, bowed his head and replied, "No one," respectfully obeyed, "Niangniang, please." ”

I said "um", instructed my father-in-law to guard the door, and let Qiu Si wait outside, and went in alone, Qiu Si looked at my appearance, his face was tight, and he grabbed my arm, and he was very unruly in front of outsiders, with a scared look, "Niangniang......"

I glanced at her and whispered, "It's okay, I'll be out in a while, you can wait outside." ”

Qiu Si frowned and whispered: "The slave remembers that last time, Niangniang also said so. ”

I was a little puzzled, "Last time?" ”

Qiu Si hurriedly restrained his expression and said with a smile: "It's nothing, let's go quickly, the slave is waiting outside." ”

I nodded, turned around and entered the depths of the hall, Luo Xi was sitting on the desk to review the folds, frowning from time to time, slender but not too dense eyelashes with the fluttering eyes gently trembling, like a breeze blowing the wings of a dragonfly, bright lips seemed to be muttering some key words on the fold, from a distance, a sentence with red vermilion pen annotations densely occupied the already small blank space, I don't know which adult this book is on, Luo Xi is afraid that he is very dissatisfied, in a day or two, When the fold returned to the adult, Zhu Pi probably said that he would not sleep well for a few days and nights.

I couldn't help but let out a chuckle.

Luo Xi raised his head in a voice, his eyes fell lightly on my face, got up and walked in front of me, took my hand and said, "You are here, why don't you let people report it first?" ”

I joked, "What? Could it be that Your Majesty has a secret? His eyes deliberately searched left and right, "Jinwu Zangjiao?" Copper Sparrow Spring Deep? ”

A smile appeared on his lips, but his hand took me and said, "Is it necessary for me?" ”

I didn't quite understand what Luo Xi meant.

He put his arm around my shoulder, "The beauty in my heart is now in my arms, what more can I ask for?" ”

I listened to his words, and I felt very strange in my heart, some sad, some scared, and some happy, "Your Majesty, do you know that 'getting married is a husband and wife, and there is no doubt about love. Even if Miao Miao does not have this qualification, the queen is His Majesty's married couple, but Your Majesty, you must know that after Miao Miao enters the palace, in Miao Miao's heart, she treats Her Majesty as her husband. ”

He took me into his arms, "I know, and my heart is like my heart." ”

I whispered, "Your Majesty, then, do you know that husband and wife are one, and there can be no lies and deception between husband and wife." ”

Luo Xi slowly let go of me, held my shoulders with both hands, and said in a low voice, "That's an ordinary couple, the royal family is different." ”

I asked, "What's the difference?" ”

"There are some things that you can't know because they're too dangerous," he said. ”

I looked him in the eye, "So, you chose to lie to me?" ”

A look of pity suddenly appeared in his eyes, "Sometimes it's a helpless move." ”

I asked in a low voice, "Is it helpless to let me know who I am and be in danger?" ”

He looked at me with a slight horror, "Who are you listening to?" ”

I lowered my eyes and didn't answer.

He asked, "Who are you listening to?" ”

I still don't answer.

Luo Xi let go of his hand, turned around and paced two steps to the front of the case, and swept the tea cup on the case to the ground with a wave of his sleeve.

I quietly looked at the crumbling scum of ceramics on the ground and sighed, "Your Majesty is angry. ”

Luo Xi's face was dark, he could barely contain his anger, and shouted: "How do you tell me to calm my anger?!" ”

I am neither humble nor arrogant, and when I think about it, I feel that my heart is like a knife, "Your Majesty, it's not my fault." ”

He was furious, "Whose fault is it?" Whose fault is it?! Could it be my fault?! ”

I said with a cold face: "Your Majesty, you have woven a net for me, which is full of lies. ”

He was even more angry, looking at me with pain and confusion in his eyes, "When you were on the verge of death, I saved you!" When you feel the despair of time is cold, it is I who is by your side! I also bothered to choose a home for you! I let you into the palace! Make you the most favored concubine! Let you be the most envied one of the women in the world! And you slandered all this, and slandered my feelings for you! ”

I frowned, sour and tearful, "Really?!" This is just an excuse for His Majesty! Everyone knows who I am, only myself is kept in the dark! I'm the last person to know who I really am! Isn't that a big joke to me?! After a pause, "If Your Majesty really loves me, you should tell me early in the morning what kind of person I am, instead of deceiving me with lies and letting me find out for myself!" ”

He grabbed me by the shoulder and asked, "Who told you all this you should know?" Who is it?! Seeing that I didn't answer, he said again: "Qiu Si? Winter snow? Jianning?! Jinyue?! ”

I shook my head, "Don't ask, I won't tell you," chuckled, "What if you know?" Make a clean sweep of? You can kill one, two, but can you kill a hundred, a thousand? ”

His eyes were dark as if there was an abyss as if there was no end in sight, "How much do you know?" ”

I asked, "Your Majesty, do you know what I am most sad about?" ”

He stared at me and asked, "What?" ”

My eyes were full of tears, and my eyes were blurry, "When I know that all this is not providential, you will not understand my despair and heartache." I can't wait to kill you! But I can't do it! If it's providence, I can accept it, but, it's not! It's you, it's you who ruined me! ”

He laughed sarcastically and asked, "I? The eyebrows are furrowed, and there are deep eyes hidden underneath, "I'm saving you!" ”

I shook my head, "You know that I was heartbroken at that time, and I would rather die than save me, do you know how hard it is for a person with a blank brain to live?" You see my hard work but still hide everything from me, even at the expense of weaving a false identity to make me believe that I am another person," paused, "No, it's not another person, but a person who never existed." A person who never existed, no matter how real you weave the whole world, it will only be fake! ”

Luo Xi's hand was trembling with anger, and at this moment he touched my cheek, as cold as a thousand years of ice, "You don't know, knowing that those gloomy past is not good for you." ”

I sneered, "Is it not good for me, or is it not good for Your Majesty?" ”

He raised an eyebrow, "What do you mean by that?" ”

I sighed, "Your Majesty knows, if you let me know some things before, you will never get me." ”

He said angrily: "Nonsense!? ”

The corners of my mouth hooked slightly, and I asked rhetorically, "Am I talking nonsense?" ”

He stared at me, his tone resolutely unsparing, "I got you a long time ago!" When you're dying, I'm just helping you make a decision! ”

I smiled weakly, "Decided? ”

He hurriedly said, "A decision to choose to be with me!" After a while, his eyes gradually lowered slightly, and he calmed down a lot, "It's not that I haven't let go of the two of you to give you a chance, it's that you yourself haven't grasped this opportunity," the anger that had just calmed down was ignited again, "It's that he can't fight for himself!" Who is to blame?! Besides, what kind of situation did he push you in?! Forcing you to commit suicide by jumping off a cliff! ”

I struggled with my eyes, not knowing what to say or discern, just listening, taking, and figuring.

His hand shook me excitedly, "You almost died when I rescued you, do you know?!" You didn't have the consciousness of life in the first place, and I forced you back! Now that I have saved you, I will never let you follow him in pain and despair again! I want to find a new identity for you, let you start your life again, and I want to give you the best! I want you to be the one that all women in the world envy the most! Don't you understand my good intentions?! ”

I really don't know what to say, and I really don't know who to blame, I just feel that things are getting more and more chaotic, more and more out of control, he has his good intentions, and I have my helplessness, "Your Majesty, then, can you tell me everything now?" ”

He took a deep breath, pressed his fingers, stared at me and asked, "What do you want to know?" ”

I asked, "Why did I take my own life?" ”

Luo Xi slowed down, turned his head and smiled contemptuously, "Why?" The corners of his mouth became sharp, "Of course it's because of him!" ”

I tempted, "What's the matter?" ”

His body was slightly stunned, and his expression was a little puzzled, "You know him?" Then he shook his head, "You know a lot of things, so you know him," his eyes were wrapped around my face again, and his voice was low, "who else but him?" ”

I wondered, "Why?" ”

"Because you don't know what kind of person you used to be, and you can't understand the pain you suffered before, you used to be you, from childhood to adulthood, from body to heart, you have always relied on a belief to live by, you think that it was the vicissitudes of life that saved you, it was he who reshaped you, and gave you another possibility in life, so you have always chosen him instead of me, but when you know that the trust and belief you enshrine in your heart are wrong, very wrong, your world will naturally collapse."

Luo Xi said.

I said calmly: "It seems that Your Majesty, you really know me from before. ”

There was affection in his eyes, "I have always known you very well, better than he did, but sometimes I look at you and don't want to hurt you." ”

I asked, "But why did my world suddenly collapse?" ”

He was silent for a long time before he said in a deep voice: "Because of me." ”

My heart throbbed, "Your Majesty? ”

He nodded, "I let you go free, but God told me to meet you again, I have already said that if I see you again, I don't know if I can control myself, in fact, I can't control it at all, you treat me because of him, I am really ruthless, I am not convinced, so I told you everything that I have hidden for many years." ”

He was so honest with me, I always felt that something was wrong, but I couldn't say it, "Your Majesty, promise me that you won't lie to me about many things in the future, okay?" ”

He sighed, his eyes shining as tender, "Miao, you remember, no matter what I do or say, it's because I love you too much." ”

Including my surname, feelings, experiences, and even the risk of risking my life?

My heart can't help but sink, can I bear Luo Xi's love?

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