Chen Xingyun's past

1. First acquaintance

Six years old

"Mom, do you have to go?" Six-year-old Chen Xingyun pulled the corner of Lan Yandan's clothes and asked timidly.

Lan Yandan squatted down and touched Chen Xingyun's head: "Mom doesn't want to leave, after a few years, Mom and Dad will not come back after earning the pension money." ”

"I'm going to get a good job and make a lot of money in the future, so don't go." The big eyes were aggrieved, and Lan Yandan was a little soft-hearted.

"Be good, obedient, Mom and Dad don't need your money in the future, you can take care of yourself."

"It's too late, you have to tell your aunt if there is anything, don't go out at home." Chen Shantao admonished, and then turned around and left.

"Okay." Chen Xingyun lowered his head, looking reluctant.

Lan Yandan was a little relieved to see Chen Xingyun so well-behaved, and reluctantly took one last look, and left behind Chen Shantao.

Twelve years old

"Xingyun, let's go."

"Hmm."

Chen Xingyun looked at their backs in the distance, and stretched her hand forward, as if she wanted to pull Lan Yandan's clothes, but in the end, she still didn't have the courage to pull her clothes, because she knew that no matter how she dissuaded them, they would still leave.

There is only one reason:

The cost of the family is much larger than expected, after all, the price of housing has been increasing over time, and the pension money is far from the figure they planned.

So the promise that used to be a few years has not been fulfilled in the sixth year.

It didn't even work out in the following years.

Fifteen years old

Outside, fireworks rang louder and louder, and bursts of laughter from time to time streamed down the open windows into the house.

Chen Xingyuntuan sat on the sofa, staring at the TV in front of her with dull eyes, that was her only pleasure and the only thing she could do.

Just ten minutes ago, her mother just called, they have to work overtime, and they can't go back for the Chinese New Year, so they can take the card and swipe whatever they want to eat, and the money in it is definitely enough for her.

Suddenly, there was a crackling sound, followed by a burst of joyful laughter, filled with the joy of the New Year, but for Chen Xingyun, it was noise.

That's right, it's noisy.

With a blank face, he closed the window, turned up the sound of the TV again, and sat on the sofa and continued to watch the TV.

A sofa, a blanket, a TV, that's all she has for the Spring Festival every year.

Sixteen years old

"Xingyun, let's go out." Lan Yandan shouted into the room, and only the sound of the TV was playing in the empty room.

Sighing helplessly, "This kid ......"

"Let's go, if you don't leave, you won't be able to catch the plane."

“…… Well. Lan Yandan hesitated, but turned around and left with her luggage.

At the window on the second floor, Chen Xingyun just glanced out of the window indifferently, then withdrew his gaze and focused on the TV.

Seventeen years old

Walking into the classroom, the originally lively classroom was instantly quiet, all looking at this strange person, and after a while, the whispering sound began to spread out of nowhere, gradually filling the entire class, Chen Xingyun couldn't remember how many times he had seen such a scene, anyway, it was many times.

When she got out of class, people kept talking to her, and she responded coldly, and gradually no one talked to her anymore.

It occurred to her that she was leaving soon anyway, and that making friends would only add to the sadness, so it was better not to let it start from the beginning.

She has been running through this principle all these years, but her appearance has changed Chen Xingyun.

That's right, that person is Su Yanjiu, and they were grouped together.

Yang Youqi thought that this decision was the most suitable, because Chen Xingyun usually didn't like to talk much, which was the opposite of Su Yanjiu, so he let them sit together, but he didn't expect it to become his biggest headache later.

On the first day, Su Yanjiu sat honestly in his position, except for sleeping, he didn't do anything to violate classroom discipline, probably because he didn't know Chen Xingyun very well and didn't have anything to say.

But the next day, Su Yanjiu brought a bag of marshmallows, and long after that, Chen Xingyun still remembered every detail that happened at that time.

At that time, Su Yanjiu took out a marshmallow out of nowhere, handed it to Chen Xingyun, and said with a smile, "My name is Su Yanjiu, you see that you just came and sat with me, do you think the two of us are very fateful?" Then you can't say no, right. ”

Chen Xingyun thought for a while and felt that if she didn't accept it, Su Yanjiu would probably continue to pester her, so she simply accepted it.

Su Yanjiu was very happy, she said you eat and eat.

Chen Xingyun hesitated for a moment and put it in his mouth.

She smiled and asked, "How's it going?" ”

Chen Xingyun replied, "It's very sweet." ”

She said, "You see that once we sit down, and you accept the sugar, then we will be good friends." ”

Chen Xingyun was stunned, she didn't expect her to say this, but she couldn't regret it.

Su Yanjiu continued as if he hadn't noticed her strange expression, "You know what? From the first glance, I thought you were a very gentle person. ”

Chen Xingyun was silent, this is the first time someone has said that she is gentle, and it is also the first time that someone has told her that they are good friends, since she separated from those previous friends, she has been very indifferent to people, and almost no one wants to deal with her, and often overheard someone say that she treats people coldly.

Chen Xingyun turned her head to look at Su Yanjiu, she looked at her with a smile, Chen Xingyun was infected by her smile, and responded with a smile to Su Yanjiu.

In the following days, driven by Su Yanjiu, Chen Xingyun gradually became cheerful, because she was not a person who loved to be shy and not like to talk, she quickly got along with the students in the class, of course, Su Yanjiu had the best relationship.

She didn't know if it was right to do this, she would leave soon, but she knew that if she didn't want to do this now, she would definitely regret it in the future, under the leadership of Su Yanjiu, Chen Xingyun was invited into the office by the teacher for the first time.

After coming out of the office, he was depressed for a while, but Su Yanjiu was like a nobody.

Chen Xingyun finally mustered up the courage to ask her, Su Yanjiu scratched her head, and said embarrassedly, "I have to go to the office several times a week, I'm used to it, besides, what can I do if I'm sad, life still has to pass, I don't have enough happy time, why don't I find it unpleasant myself, it's a big deal not to commit it next time, although I often make it...... But you have to believe me, I'm changing, it's just not obvious. ”

Seeing Su Yanjiu hurriedly explain, she was afraid that she would misunderstand and make Chen Xingyun laugh.

Well, I believe in you.

Hehe, Su Yanjiu laughed silly.

In the process of getting along with each other, Chen Xingyun hesitated for a long time and finally told Su Yanjiu the truth.

She thought about it for a long time before she said, "I don't understand why your parents are not by your side, and you have to be so unstable to run around one place after another." ”

Chen Xingyun was stunned, yes, why is this?

When she got home, she called Lan Yandan, and after Chen Xingyun finished saying everything she wanted to say, she was silent on the phone for a long time before Lan Yandan spoke.

"Actually, we don't want to do this, but we can't relax at the thought of leaving you in an unfamiliar environment.

We have also thought about this matter for a long time, and since you asked, then it is up to you to decide, and we will listen to you.

If you want to stay here, we won't stop you, and if you want to follow us, we will definitely take you with us. ”

But Chen Xingyun only hesitated for a moment, and then replied, "I want to stay here." ”

"You have to think about it, so we can only meet once in a few years."

Chen Xingyun smiled, she said, "Even if we are in one area, we can't see each other in a year." ”

There was silence on the phone again, and after a long time, he said, "Okay, then you can stay here in the future, we still have a few months to go, and in the meantime, you can change your attention as long as ......"

As long as you tell me, I will definitely take you away.

Listening to the sound of the phone hanging up, Lan Yandan sighed.

Husband, do you think we did something wrong?

“…… I don't know, but I know that there is no turning back, and now we are at a critical juncture, do you want all our years of hard work to be in vain? ”

"This ...... I...... Of course I don't want to. ”

"Someday, she'll understand our hard work."

"Maybe."

“……”

Chen Xingyun, who put down the phone, was stunned, everything that happened just now was so unreal, she actually agreed?

A certain emotion spread in the bottom of her heart, to the soles of her feet, to her whole body, she was trembling She didn't understand why.

When I looked up, I accidentally saw my face in the mirror, and I had an illusion, this mouth was very open, and even his eyes became like crescent moons, and this person who was smiling happily was himself?

She never knew that she would have such an expression on her face, and she thought that this expression that she only watched on TV would not appear on her face.

If everything that happened just now is not a dream, it means that you don't have to be like that again, right?

"Of course." When Chen Xingyun told Su Yanjiu everything, she replied. "It just so happens that my mother specially made me a special beef jerky today, wait for me to go to your house and let's celebrate together!"

"Okay." Chen Xingyun replied excitedly.

"Then you wait, I'll be there shortly."

Hanging up the phone, Chen Xingyun looked at the empty room, and a long-lost feeling appeared in her heart, and she understood what this feeling was called.

I really envy her......

There is a mother who can cook like that.

There is an older brother who cares about her like that.

There is such a kind father.

Such a lively and harmonious family, she has not experienced it for more than ten years.

That feeling, it's called loneliness.