This "farce" lasted until 11 o'clock in the evening. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info and as a punishment, Chen Lele did not have dinner at night, she covered her gurgling stomach and fell on her bed. There is a quilt on the bed, and it will not be cold, but Chen Lele feels that his heart is extremely cold, as if he has been soaked in ice water.

The monsters in the house don't diminish with age. But just like Chen Lele when she was a child, they won't take care of Chen Lele, nor will they hurt her. The little flying men in mid-air were still flying according to their own trajectory, and the monsters in the closet had been sitting there for ten years, and the monsters under the bed had never climbed up............

Lonely, Chen Lele felt that he was once again surrounded by loneliness. They were like the finest droplets of water, burrowing through every pore in her body, suffocating her............

Chen Lele suddenly wished that someone could talk to her, even if it was just the most boring thing, but - no.

In this dark night, Chen Lele had the idea of suicide for the first time.

Her family lives on the fifteenth floor, which is considered a relatively high height. Outside her room was a balcony, protected by a railing, but she was thin enough to get through the cracks......

As long as she jumps from there, it's all over............

- No loneliness, no doubt, no slander, no harm............

It's an irresistible thought.

Unconsciously, Chen Lele had already gotten out of bed, barefoot, and walked towards Chaoyang Platform step by step.

The view here is very open, and the vehicles and pedestrians on the road below are like fast-moving ants. And this height is enough to make people dizzy, and if you jump, you will definitely die............

Let's jump... Let's jump... Just jump and you'll be free—a voice in her heart has always said to her.

Chen Lele's eyes gradually became trance-like, she stood in front of the guardrail, felt the oncoming wind with a hint of coolness, and stretched out a hand from the gap to go out............

Just jump......

"Wow! Wow wow! The rapid cry of the baby recalled Chen Lele's senses, she opened her eyes suddenly, and when she saw her current situation, she was shocked-she, how could she have such a thought?! If she dies, how sad her parents will be! She still has to support them in the future, how can she be so irresponsible to seek death?

Chen Lele didn't even find out - for her, the reason why she couldn't die was not that she wanted to live, but that she still had responsibilities for her parents.

She went back to bed, clutching her stomach,7 forcing herself to fall asleep.

***

When I came to school the next day, the attitude of the classmates towards Chen Lele did not change much, after all, everyone is very busy now, and it is just a relationship, which is really not a big deal.

And perhaps out of embarrassment, the boy never said hello to Chen Lele again.

Chen Lele breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that the days would be the same as before. But in the days that followed, she realized that this was not the case - although the attitude of her classmates towards her had not changed, her teachers' impression of her seemed to have deteriorated. They would frequently ask Chen Lele to get up and answer questions, and when the head teacher mentioned the school's ban on love in a meeting, he would mention Chen Lele intentionally or unintentionally, using her and the boy as negative teaching materials.

Chen Lele really couldn't stand the teacher's attitude, but he didn't understand what the reason was. After secretly inquiring with her classmates who were closer, she realized that the teachers had a bad impression of her, not only because she was in love, but also because she thought that Chen Lele was in a coma at that time and pretended to be unconscious, after all, this is not in the novel, the delicate girl fainted because of a little big thing, this is a problem of character. No teacher likes a student with a character problem.

After Chen Lele knew the truth, she only felt very wronged, she really fainted at the time, she was not pretending at all, why did these people refuse to believe her. It's not that she didn't think about explaining it to the teacher, but when a person looks at another person with colored glasses, he thinks that there is something wrong with what this person does - I mean, these teachers don't listen to Chen Lele's explanation at all.

Chen Lele was so aggrieved that he had to give up in the end. She wrapped herself up like a timid little beast, and no longer had the courage to explore the outside world.

The blows again and again made Chen Lele lose the courage to contact outsiders, and in the second year of high school, she gradually drifted away from her original friend, because Chen Lele's personality was "unpleasant". She is too silent, she is not active in anything, and she does not participate in any activities, which has no sense of existence at all in a class full of talents, and it is inevitable that she will be forgotten.

And Chen Lele's own situation is getting more and more serious - she sees more and more monsters turned from people, like the teacher who always squints at her, like the classmate who always likes to give small reports to the teacher, and the big boy who always bullies others......

The fear of the world has never been clearer than it has been.

Maybe it's for these reasons, maybe not. Chen Lele felt that his attention was becoming more and more difficult to concentrate, which was reflected in all aspects. Sometimes she looks at the blackboard carefully and listens carefully to the teacher's lectures, but somehow, her brain suddenly goes blank and she can't listen to anything. And the frequency of this phenomenon is becoming more and more frequent, and correspondingly, Chen Lele's performance began to decline.

At first, she tried many methods, but there was no way to overcome this problem, and the teacher told her to talk to her in the office a few times, but the situation did not improve. She just couldn't concentrate, and even her memory became worse and worse.

In the end, the teacher probably felt that Chen Lele was unrepentant and didn't bother to care about her anymore. This attitude of indifference was like the last straw that killed the camel, and Chen Lele was disheartened and gave up on himself. She simply let herself go, and her grades slipped sharply.

The parent-teacher meeting once a semester was held as scheduled, and Chen Lele stood outside the classroom, watching his mother sit in her seat with her younger brother in her arms, listening carefully to what their homeroom teacher said. Watching the head teacher call her mother to talk, her face became ugly......

Chen Lele only felt that his heart had no fluctuations, as if all this had nothing to do with her.