If you can, please think that I have never been here, find someone you like, and accompany him to see the sea and the cherry blossoms.

- Chunyang

Outside the window, the cherry blossoms are falling, and the warm spring sun is still shining.

……

Looking at the test results in my hand, I crumpled it into a ball, threw it to the trash can next to me, looked around, and walked straight out of the hospital, but it didn't take long for a voice to stop me.

"Chunyang-san, wait for me."

Hearing this slightly unfamiliar voice, I turned around and frowned slightly, but did not speak, but stood quietly in place, watching her trot all the way.

We were less than twenty meters apart, and soon she was in front of me, and she shoved the slightly crumpled but neatly folded paper in her pocket in her hand.

"Chunyang-san, I finally caught up with you, I'm tired to death." She gasped for air as she spoke.

"Uh, excuse me, do you have anything to do with me?" I replied lightly, after all, I really couldn't think of why she would catch up with me, and our relationship was limited to ordinary friends.

"No, nothing, I just wanted to ask where are you going? If we drop by, we can be together. ”

I distinctly remember that she was in the same neighborhood as me, so if I'm not mistaken, she should be lost, or just trying to find someone she knows to go home with.

"I'll go home, Sunshine Community."

"I'm too, alas, so let's go together."

I nodded my head nondeniably, fully affirming what I was thinking.

At this time, I was facing the beginning of my high school, and although the weather was not as hot as in the middle of summer, it was not cool, so she and I walked down the street without saying a word, and the sun reflected on us through the shadows of the trees.

It wasn't long before a drink shop caught my eye.

She stopped suddenly.

"Chunyang, the juices in this drink shop are super delicious, do you want to try them?"

"Me?" I was a little surprised, after all, it was the first time I had been invited by the opposite sex.

"Who else but you, let's go, just take it as a thank you gift for accompanying me this way."

Without saying a word, she took my hand and pulled me in.

The air conditioner was turned on in the store, and the refreshing atmosphere instantly enveloped me, and the layout was rustic and natural, with many potted plants, and cherry blossoms slowly falling on the walls.

But my attention was all on her holding my hand, and I was a little embarrassed to break free.

She looked at me as if sensing something.

"Chunyang-san, is there any problem?"

"Well, it's not appropriate for us to do this." I took the opportunity to retract my hand.

She was a little surprised, and then laughed.

"Chunyang-san, so cute."

Although I didn't want to have anything to do with her, I have to admit that she was very attractive and a suitor for many of the boys in our class.

I don't know if I'm overly sensitive to this kind of thing, or if she's not caring about this kind of thing anymore.

I think it should be the latter, after all, there are so many people who pursue her, there should be boyfriends, and things like holding hands, so I don't care about it.

I shrugged my shoulders, stopped thinking about it, and walked over to the waiter.

"A glass of orange juice, thank you."

"What do you want?" I looked at her and cast an inquiring look.

"I'm going to have a glass of iced orange juice too."

"Okay, a total of twelve dollars." The waitress handed me two glasses of orange juice and looked at her at the same time, "What, Sakuraku has a boyfriend?" Why haven't you seen him before, let's say, this is your first love for how long has you been hiding? ”

"No, I don't have to think about how to get a partner like my brother all day long."

She looked at the waiter angrily, and snatched the twenty dollars she had just taken out while I was not looking.

And now my mind is full of the word "first love", how can I pay attention to this.

"I guess I'm thinking too much." That's all I can do to comfort myself.

"Boy, have a future, I'm optimistic about you, you're the first boy to let Sakuraku treat him like this." The waiter gave me a thumbs up.

"Brother, he's just a classmate of mine who has a good relationship, but he just happened to meet him, so he came back together."

"That's right, we're just classmates, even if it's friends, it's just ordinary friends, I happened to meet in the hospital, because we live in the same community, so we came back together, and now that we have you, I shouldn't be needed anymore, so I won't bother anymore."

I really didn't want to waste my time in such a place, so I put down her glass of orange juice, walked out of the store, and walked home alone, as for what happened in the store after that, I didn't know, and I didn't want to know, after all, I didn't care about this kind of thing.

When I got home, I lay down on the bed, a huge room, but I was the only one, I went to the kitchen, cooked a bucket of instant noodles, pressed it with a book, and wrote a diary while cooking noodles.

"I met Sakuraku in the hospital today, she should be afraid of being alone, or a guy who can't tell the difference between east and west, but I actually agreed to go home with her, I think maybe it's because when I saw the results... She slipped a piece of paper into her pocket, and it was surprising that I would pay attention to such details."

My hand, which was writing, suddenly stopped.

"That piece of paper, is it the result of a test test? Is it mine or hers? ”

"Knock-knock-knock." There was a sharp knock at the door, and without thinking too much, I closed the journal and hurried to open the door.

As I expected, it was her standing outside the door.

"Why?" I asked inwardly and opened the door.

Her eyes were a little red and swollen, which surprised me, and if she had picked up my lab results, it would have made sense, she was grieving over a life that was about to be lost.

But how can you be embarrassed to ask about this kind of thing, do you have to ask, "Do you know that I am going to die?" "That sounds really incredible.

"It's all said, I'm in for a treat, oh, your twenty yuan, and these juices."

She handed me a few glasses of juice in a bag she was carrying, and the previous twenty dollars were also in the bag.

I wanted to refuse, but she then poked her head into the room and whispered, "Can I go in and sit?" ”

Naturally, I can't refuse.

"Isn't there anyone else in your house?" When she entered the house, she naturally stood aside.

I went to the kitchen and grabbed the instant noodle book.

"Yes, aren't you?"

"Oh, too."

"Do you want to read? I have quite a few in my study, so if you want to see it, you can pick it up yourself. ”

"Well, thank you."

She took out the book from her study, "I Want to Eat Your Pancreas", which I had read many times and written by Surinoya.

We each looked at the book, and after about half an hour, I couldn't help but want to ask.

"Sakuraku-san, you're very strange today, is something going on?"

Actually, I guess it's me, but even if it's me, it's impossible to say, "Do you know I'm going to die?" Something like that.

"No, nothing."

I could clearly hear a bit of panic in her voice, but so did I.

"That, school will start the day after tomorrow, I heard that there will be exams at the beginning of school, you review well, goodbye."

She put the book on the table and ran out of my house.

"Uh, goodbye."

It seems that she can't hear it either.

I could see that she was overwhelmed, but even more overwhelmed was me, afraid of breaking such a peaceful life. My situation is no different from the heroine Sakura Yamauchi in "I Want to Eat Your Pancreas", both of whom are facing death at any time, but my personality is similar to that of Shiga Haruki, and I may not even have tomorrow, so I naturally don't want to have anything to do with anyone.

I hurriedly wrote a journal and looked out the window, the leaves were still slightly green.

"I'm not like Sakura Yamauchi who can face everything with a smile, and I can't get salvation like Haruki Shiga."

—August 30