Every night in the hospital, I wake up at this moment. I got up lightly, walked to the window ghostly, and looked out stupidly, my thoughts wandering around in the dark night. The neon lights of the shop in front of me were flickering, but my eyes didn't know what was being clouded, I couldn't see anything, I couldn't feel anything.

I couldn't help but ask God again, "What's wrong with my eyes?" Why don't you let me see the days ahead? ”

"You still have a future there," I heard a dejected voice in the endless night sky. "Why? It's not fair to me! I just did something wrong, why didn't I even get a chance to make amends? ”

"There's so much fairness out there, you think too much, and you've lost everything since you embarked on this point of no return."

"I know I'm wrong, but sin doesn't lead to death, does it? What do you say I should do? ”

"Stop struggling, accept your fate!" Once again, a cold and unforgiving voice could be heard in the sky.

"yes, I'm done!" The unwillingness and helplessness in my heart made me shiver constantly. I said to myself over and over again, "I lost!" I accept my fate! ”

"Fourth son, you have to hold on. Can't give up," came her mother's voice in the dark night sky. "Mom, where are you? Mom: "No matter how much I shouted, I never saw my mother. In an instant, tears filled my cheeks, and I was overwhelmed by the tangle in my heart.

"Fourth son, grandma still needs two hundred yuan...... "I don't know when grandma came to me quietly." Grandma, why are you here? "I was both surprised and pleasantly surprised, hugging this woman who gave me all her love, and I didn't want to let go for a moment." Grandma, do you know how much I miss you? "Grandma misses you too, grandma doesn't worry about you......" Before the words were finished, grandma choked up. I wiped away tears for my grandmother and said, "Grandma, don't cry, it's me who is not good and makes you worried." "That's when I saw my grandmother's face clearly." Grandma, you are old and thin, but you are still the way I remember it" My heart broke when I saw my grandmother's old face, thin body, and anxious affection, and I was ashamed that my stupidity had brought uneasiness to her spirit in the sky.

I was the youngest child in the family, and from the moment I was born, I was bound to everything about my grandmother, I cried and she cried, and I laughed and she laughed. The good times with my grandmother as a child kept flowing before my eyes, and at the moment I just wanted to grab my grandmother's hand and never let go.

"Grandma, do you remember when I was a child?"

"Why don't you remember? From the time you were fed rice soup when you were born to the time you fell into the ba-oil (asphalt) pot, grandma remembers everything clearly. "Before I mentioned it, my grandmother seemed to be much more relaxed.

"Grandma, was I very skinny when I was a child?"

"Nonsense, you were very sensible when you were a child, and every time my grandmother was sick, you stayed by my side and poured me water and served food. Especially when your grandmother was paralyzed, you were only nine years old at that time, and you poured and urine on your grandmother every day, and you never felt dirty......" Before she finished speaking, her grandmother cried again. "Grandma, don't cry."

"You don't know, when grandma is paralyzed, she is most worried that she will not be able to get better, and she is worried that she will not be able to show you the child, alas! In the end, I still didn't see Xiaole. ”

"Don't be sad, Xiaole is very good and very sensible. Although she has never met you in person, she knows how much you love me and how much you care about him! Now that he is older and has a heavy study task, when he was young, he especially liked to listen to me about what happened with you, and always told me that he especially missed you, a grandmother. "I always have endless words to say when I am with grandma, "Grandma, you see, little Leduo is so handsome." ”

"Yes, yes, even if the fourth son is for Xiaole, you have to be strong, this money was given to me by you before, and grandma can't use it." As she spoke, my grandmother resolutely shoved the money into my pocket.

"Don't, don't" Grandma disappeared as I spoke, "Don't go, Grandma......" "Sizi, you have to be good" Grandma's concerned voice came again in the night sky.

"I'm sorry, grandma, I'm worried about you" I stared intently at filling in the blanks, guessing that the stars were grandma and mother, and suddenly a meteor suddenly crossed the sky, "Second sister, why are you here too?" "At this moment, the second sister came to me. The second sister got diabetes when she was very young, and her personality was very bad because of the pain, but she loved me very much.

"Sister, are you okay? How's the body? "As long as I haven't seen my second sister for a while, I will get used to asking this question, and I can't change my habit for many years.

"I'm fine, Little Four, why are you so confused? You weren't like this before, were you? ”

"I ......" the second sister's question made me speechless for a while.

"You, why are you confused about one thing after another? No matter how difficult it is, shouldn't you think about it? In the future, you can't do that, and Zhang Lin will bring Xiaole up well. Back then, I named him "Le" to hope that he would be happy all his life, if you are really gone, can he still be happy? My sister was a little angry as she spoke.

"I see, sister"

"I have tens of thousands of dollars here, you take it." My sister said as she took out the money from her bag.

"Sister........ "I know that my sister has been diligent and thrifty all her life, and this is all her savings. I broke down again and burst into tears.

"Don't cry, remember to be good," said my sister who disappeared without a trace in front of my eyes.

I looked at the night sky in amazement, and secretly said to my relatives in heaven: "Don't worry, I'll be fine, you take care of yourself." "Yes! There are so many people who care about me, both in heaven and on earth, and there is really no reason to give up. Since life has given me a great test, I will step over and start again, and I believe I can! But can I really do it? Decadence makes the people who love me worry about me, and they seem to be powerless to face me, what should I do? I asked the sky again and again, but there was no answer after all.