Now I truly understand that peace is a blessing. From the moment I got acquainted with the criminal who added me to WeChat, the road behind me became unknown.

Every day, I have to pretend that nothing happened in front of my family, and I have to bear the pressure of huge losses, and at the same time, I borrow money everywhere in a vain attempt to turn over.

Such an unknown situation intensified after the thunderstorm, which made me physically and mentally exhausted, and Zhang Lin's emotions were always on the verge of collapse.

All debt collectors did everything they could to force them. The most funny president of the N bank, deliberately pretending to be empathetic before selling the house, negotiated with me.

Immediately after selling the house, tear off the disguise? Give me the only way to pay everything back by August 10th. And the attitude is extremely resolute, the previous family and his negotiation with him is extremely sarcastic, at which moment I understand that no matter how verbose it is, it is futile, can only be more humiliated, I hung up the phone categorically, and I was prepared for the worst.

Zhang Lin suddenly became irritable because of his phone call, and kept muttering inexplicable words, and my originally quiet mood was no longer good.

In fact, the current calm has never been able to withstand any wind and waves, and a little unsatisfactory will set off a slight wave, and even unimaginable results will occur.

I can't imagine what it would be like when everybody came to ask for debt. Quarrels or something else I would completely unavoidable.

Really, I don't want to face such a situation one day, but I can't control it, I just continue to wonder about the future.

I'm tired of living like this, but I still have to face it. The hateful president of the N bank actually expressed a completely different meaning in front of my brother, which made my brother and father misunderstand us, maybe out of worry, maybe puzzled, they now trust him far more than me, and it really makes me depressed to death.

Maybe it's a personality problem, but what I've been most afraid of since I was a child is that I don't know everything. Now because of my fault, I am confused about all the unknown.

Is it worth it to be stuck in a hospital like a prison day and save money without making any difference?

I've always wondered why I can't just be in the moment when everything is unknown. If you don't even treat yourself well, who will feel sorry for yourself?

Sunday's night has fallen, and I'm going to be tormented in an endless cycle of death! Hopeless waiting in the unknown future!

When the dawn comes, the case, CNPC, Yixin, and N lines ........ What else will I bring?

I don't dare to think and can't think about it, continue to live a long life? Or do you choose to escape? For a moment I didn't have an answer.

I regret my impulsiveness every moment, but if I am calm, I will not have today's dead end. It is said that as long as people are in the past, can they really pass?

No one can give me a definite answer, but I don't believe it! It will be nine months since the report was made tomorrow, and it seems unlikely that there will be a happy outcome at present.

The messy life still has to go on, the future is still out of sight, and I still have to continue the nightmare journey on the unknown sheep intestine path.

This should be the impulsive retribution of the past, harming others and oneself. My nightmare is not that I don't want to wake up, but that I can't wake up at all, because once I get on the wrong path, I may not be able to turn back.