"When did the person who added you to WeChat start? You tell me carefully, "At this time, my brother has already begun to help me prepare for the police."

"Yes, your mind is not clear now, you say, let's analyze and analyze together." Zhang Lin is also trying his best to grasp and bring back reality.

"When the hospital was just relocated, one day a person I didn't know added to my WeChat, claiming to be a stock analyst, although I didn't believe him, but I still left that person's WeChat, and then he sent stocks to me for five consecutive days, I remember that it was three up, one flat and one down. Maybe I thought he was good, so I let my guard down and talked to him. On the weekend, he asked me if I had ever done futures, and posted pictures of their company's related policies, and I was moved to see the profits that far exceeded the stock returns. ”

"This is clearly a liar, how can you believe it?" My brother couldn't help but ask me.

"What? That's when you did? Zhang Lin asked me with a puzzled face.

"Listen to me. At first, I transferred 50,000 according to the man's words, followed him to make three transactions, and ended up losing 38,000. I told him on WeChat that I wouldn't do it, and asked him to make up for the loss to me as agreed. Although the man did not refuse, he delayed for various reasons, because I could always be contacted, so I did not feel cheated. Before 2018, because he said that if I didn't do futures, I wouldn't be able to enjoy the company's policy of compensating loss-making customers, so I used the remaining more than 10,000 to continue to do it, with profits and losses, so I never thought there was a problem. For a long time after that, the person probably gave me very little information because I didn't continue to invest more, and I barely did it because my stock was going well. ”

"Since you didn't do it, how did you continue later?" Listening to what I said, my brother was even more puzzled.

"It's because of the car accident, I continue to give money, so that my stock speculation funds appear bigger and bigger loopholes, the stock market was not good at that time, so the ghost sent a god to contact him again, under his recommendation, I have been doing it on the current platform, who knows that the more you lose, the more you lose, I can't contact this person, I don't dare to say things, I can only simply think that I can make money back sooner or later with my ability to speculate in stocks and watch the market."

"How much money did you borrow? Is there 300,000? ”

"Almost." I replied mechanically to Zhang Lin's words. As I spoke, I took out my bookkeeping slip and handed it to Zhang Lin.

"Oh my God! Your brain, this has more than a million, haven't you counted it again? At this moment, Zhang Lin was speechless again, she couldn't believe that I was so crazy in front of her.

Looking at everyone's astonished gaze, I made another puzzling decision. I talked about borrowing money from private individuals, borrowing money from banks and financial institutions in secret. To this day, I still can't find the reason why I chose to say everything at that time, but I still hid a lot of reasons, is it because Zhang Lin's attitude moved me? Or don't you want Zhang Lin to collapse even more? Or for some other reason, I can't tell!

"How much do you calculate? Get the transfer records out, and provide them when you call the police, I'll go back and think about it first, and write it to you. After speaking, the elder brother left with his father.

The empty room, the deathly silence, was filled with Zhang Lin's sighing voice from time to time. I stared blankly at the transfer record on Alipay, my mind was blank, and I didn't know what to say? Do what? There was no sense of openness and leniency, and there was no sense of relief in getting rid of my inner secrets, perhaps it was my ridiculous decision to hide my debts to keep the nightmare going!

Late at night, Zhang Lin and I lay in bed for a long time and couldn't sleep. It's too big for the day! Too suddenly! Although Zhang Lin had many doubts in her heart a long time ago, the truth of the matter still surprised her. Every sigh is filled with worry and confusion about the future. I looked at the ceiling light on the roof at a loss, and I couldn't sleep or sit.

"Let's talk." Zhang Lin suddenly broke the calm.

"Okay, what do you want to know? I'll tell you the truth, just don't get angry, okay? ”

"I can't figure out how you'd do that, I just want to figure it out. You told me every day that you made money by trading stocks, is it true? If it's true, then how would you do futures? ”

"It's true to make money by trading stocks, but it's all lost on futures."

"Since you make so much money by trading stocks, why do you do that? I put aside the fact that futures are illegal in China, you obviously don't understand this, how can you do it? Don't tell me because of a car accident, I don't believe it. Excellence, I choose to face it with you, but I also ask to know the truth of the matter, isn't that too much? ”

"Just ask."

"How did you even borrow from a loan shark, how do you know these people?"

"Cheng Song, who asked me to press the car, his company used to be outside the West Gate, and my car was parked in the hospital and they advertised for loans, and I knew them when I tried to consult about the loan, and I knew about their private loans, but I didn't know it was a loan shark at the time."

"What about Wu Chuanxi and Zhang Lei?"

"Wu Chuanxi was introduced to me by Yang Kun, and I told him about the family yesterday that I couldn't pay it back for the time being, he was not a loan shark and had no interest. Zhang Lei was originally in the pharmaceutical business and met him in the hospital, and I also told him yesterday that because of family affairs, the money could not be paid back for the time being, but the two money could not be delayed for too long. "I carefully made up the story of two good people, for fear of being found out again.

"Let's sell the house, otherwise how will these two people pay back?" Zhang Lin asked me lightly.

"I can't sell it, if I sell it, what should I do when Xiaole comes back?" In fact, I didn't know what to do in my heart, and the pressure brought to me by the two good people in my mouth made my mind confused. I was just worried that my son would hate me when he came back from vacation and knew the reason for selling the house, so he denied Zhang Lin's plan to sell the house.

"So what do you say?"

"We'll go to the bank tomorrow and ask if we can get a loan, and if not, we will sell the car, or sell the old house in the city, or get a mortgage. Ask tomorrow and then you can sleep. ”

The night was longer than usual, and we didn't say a word, nor did we feel the slightest sleep. Stay up quietly, both longing for the dawn and fearing the dawn. I don't know how long it took for the mobile phone alarm to ring, Zhang Lin and I turned over and got up, and then went to the department to ask for leave, putting all our hopes on today. The idea and solution at that time were very similar to the original time when I demolished the east wall and repaired the west wall, which seemed to solve the problem, but in fact, nothing changed. As the saying goes: the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment. The road to the bank was completely blocked by my previous behavior. The idea of asking relatives to help with the loan was also shattered. When I walked out of the Chengtou Building, I was like a helpless child, crying loudly in front of the crowd of people regardless of my image. At that moment, I regretted and blamed myself, but it was too late. Zhang Lin pulled me up and comforted me while walking, "It's really not good, I'm going to borrow it from a colleague...."On the way home, I was very scared, knowing that after the arrears I concealed came out, everything would be even more unmanageable. What to do? I kept asking myself.