A week passed quickly, and I rushed home full of longing for a new life.

That evening, while chatting, we walked to the supermarket next to the hospital, planning to buy some ingredients and reopen the kitchen. That's often the way things are, and when you get carried away, trouble creeps in. Before I got to the north gate of the hospital, my phone rang. I was on guard to connect the WeChat phone, "Hey" The familiar voice on the other end of the phone immediately startled me into a cold sweat, at this moment I remembered the debt I was concealing, and I forgot that the biggest feature of online loans is the "explosive address book" and endless phone harassment, I clearly understand in my heart that if I confess to Zhang Lin about online loans, the harmony and calm of this period of time will fall apart in an instant. So I hung up the phone without hesitation and pretended to be calm and said to Zhang Lin that I had made a mistake.

When I was shopping in the supermarket, I was completely out of shape, and I followed behind Zhang Lin without giving up. She didn't say anything, and after the purchase, we returned it to her office. As soon as she sat down, the phone rang again, and she preemptively answered the phone and asked, "Who?" "Isn't this the WeChat par excellence?" "What are you looking for excellence? Who are you? "I'm so good and good, the loan we have made here is overdue, and the phone call has not been able to get through, do you know where he is?" "Fuck you" I reached out to snatch the phone, trying to hide the truth from it again. Zhang Lin waved his hand and refused to hand over his mobile phone to me while continuing to talk to the other party, listening to the other party's description of my loan with suspicion. On the side, I was extremely tormented in my heart, forcibly pretending to be full of grievances, and kept quibbling in my mouth, trying to get by.

As time passed, Zhang Lin said suspiciously that after listening to the other party's words, he scolded the other party under my strong denial. At the time, I thought I had passed the test, but from this phone call on, it finally came.

In the evening, Zhang Lin kept asking questions, saying that he believed me, and he had doubts about the loan in his heart. I don't know if it was because I was tired from the journey or because I was too nervous after receiving the phone call, and I don't know when I fell asleep.

"I'll go to the provincial capital tomorrow. Do you agree? "Zhang Lin's words were like a blockbuster, and they scared me to sleep in an instant." What are you doing? Neurotic! If someone else farts, you will believe it. "I don't remember what I was like, but I believe it must have been crazy and horrible." Since you said no, why don't you dare to let me verify it? "Okay, go ahead, just don't regret it." I lost my head and lost my words, turned around and fell asleep.

A light rain was pouring outside the window, and a cold wind blew that made me shiver, and my heart fell apart, not knowing how to face the future, let alone what else was waiting for me not far away. Forget it, what should come will come after all, leave it to fate. For the first time since this happened, I had the idea of giving up, including my own life.

A new day has come, and I have been walking on thin ice since I stepped into the hospital, and I am not in the mood to do things at all. A ringing of a bell or a shout would make me cramp all over, and I was afraid that what I feared would come again. "Jingle bell...", my phone rang suddenly, my brain buzzed with it, my hands trembled uncontrollably, and I could barely get it out of my pocket. Finished! Seeing Zhang Lin's name on my phone, I knew that everything could not be concealed. "Hey!" My voice was hoarse. "Excellence, how much are you still hiding from me?" Zhang Lin roared angrily on the other end of the phone. "What's wrong again?" "What's the deal with easyMarkets Loans? What money have you borrowed?" What's easyMarkets? I do not know. "Don't pretend, if you don't borrow it, why do people call me?" "I don't know" In fact, I knew in my heart that everything was going to be revealed, and I didn't dare to think about what would follow. After hanging up the phone, I sat in the hospital smoking area, lit a cigarette and took a deep puff. The thought of giving up came to my heart again, do your own sin, and suffer it yourself! Ten minutes before I left work, I bought four boxes of sleeping pills and prepared myself to press the stop button on my life. also silently said to himself: Instead of living in humiliation, it is better to die with dignity!