It was almost as fast as I finished delivering the last order of takeaway at noon, and I was not hungry at all. Zhang Lin didn't come back because I was angry, and I didn't know what to say to her, and I didn't want to say anything more, so I didn't call her, I sat on the sofa, looking around the room, and I couldn't help but feel a little reluctant. "I don't want to, I'm leaving, goodbye!" I said to the empty room, then poured myself a glass of water and took out all the sleeping pills. Maybe my life should not be extinguished at this time, the piercing ringtone of the mobile phone woke me up again, and Zhang Lin called.

"Teacher Xiaole calls and wants to bring a colleague to the house for dinner at night, do you answer or not?"

"Pick it up." Maybe it's because it's hard to refuse Xiaole's teacher, or maybe I still have illusions about things in my heart, I didn't hesitate to take the order. With the intention of making the last order, I quickly put away the sleeping pills, made a menu for the evening, and went out to shop.

In late autumn, the night came earlier due to the rain. I prepared appetizers in advance and waited for the guests to enter, and to my surprise, Zhang Lin actually came with the guests. She beckoned everyone to take their seats, and I went to the kitchen alone to continue cooking. That night's dish was probably the best I've ever made since the kitchen opened. When I finished cooking the last dish and sending it out, I heard Zhang Lin answering the phone in the bedroom, and I felt a little uneasy. I didn't dare to enter the house, and stood alone waiting for Zhang Lin to come out, guessing her attitude and expression. More than ten minutes later, Zhang Lin came out, didn't say a word to me, and continued to greet guests.

I don't know how I spent my time until the guests left. My mind was blank, and I replied mechanically to everyone's questions, hoping that it would end soon, because I was afraid that my emotions would be out of control and embarrass everyone. Because they had to watch self-study in the evening, the guests were leaving at about eight o'clock. "I'll send them" said hello to Zhang Lin, I went downstairs with everyone, looking at everyone's distant figures, I was reluctant to go upstairs for a long time. After a long time, I returned home reluctantly. Zhang Lin sat at the dining table and looked at me coldly and said, "You said that the easy-trust loan is fake, why do people call me endlessly?" "I don't know." I don't want to explain anymore, and I know I can't quibble. "Don't talk nonsense, if you don't say it again, I'll call your brother......." Zhang Lin kept saying like a machine gun. At this moment, my heart is completely dead, waiting for the opportunity without saying a word, waiting for the opportunity to say goodbye. I don't know how much time has passed, and I can't hear what Zhang Lin said, I kept walking around the house, picked up the kitchen trash can and flew downstairs to throw away the garbage, and ate eighty sleeping pills. On the way home, I looked at the picture of my son on my phone, and tears kept welling up. "I'm sorry, Dad can't wait for you to come back, so I can't say sorry to you in person." When he stepped into the house again, Zhang Lin was still talking. Because of hunger and the power of the medicine, I was dizzy and weak, and I fell to the ground in general. faintly heard "Don't pretend to be dead, I'll call your brother....."

When I woke up again, it was three days later in the morning.

Oh, my God! How come I didn't die? I took 80 sleeping pills! I'm completely blinded! Who saved me? How could I be in her office?

Just when I was puzzled, my father and brother came. My father sat on the edge of the bed, held my hand and said with concern, "Why are you like this?" Have you thought of me? What should I do if you don't wake up? "Looking at my father's old and tired face, I burst into tears." Zhang Lin, I'll take the four sons away, you all calm down, and let him accompany his father in the store. "My brother told Zhang Lin his thoughts. Zhang Lin didn't say anything, at the moment she could only accept it, even if she didn't want to. I got up and got dressed, and left with my father and brother without looking back, without saying a word to Zhang Lin, and I was always stubborn that from the time I took the medicine, I should say goodbye to her. There doesn't seem to be a trace of nostalgia in my heart, and I keep reminding myself: Since I can't die, I will go alone for the rest of my life!