My name is Zhuo Zhuo, and I am the deputy chief of the medical records department of the county hospital in S County, a famous historical and cultural city in China, and I have always been a timid, honest, responsible, and good-tempered ordinary person in the eyes of everyone since I was a child. Over the years, I have indeed lived a quiet life of the unit and the family, which is a good interpretation of the ordinary life of an ordinary person. But the desire in the heart may never be extinguished, just waiting for an opportunity, a matchstick to ignite the fire of desire. But I never dreamed that at the same time that the fire of desire was ignited, I also opened the door to a nightmare journey.

On October 9, 2019, I went home from work with my wife Zhang Lin and my father Lao Zhuo cooking, eating, and taking a lunch break. Life that seems to be normal has reached the tipping point of an explosion and can be fissioned at any time.

Lying in bed, my mind kept thinking about calling my eldest sister in the morning and asking my eldest brother to meet in the hospital in the afternoon, and I completely ignored the existence of my wife Zhang Lin next to me.

"Did you really lend the money you borrowed with mobile banking to Lao Wang?" Zhang Lin suddenly woke me up with a sentence that was in my fugue.

"What do you mean? Who said anything to you today? ”

"I'm so busy at work today, no one says anything to me. I just want to know what you did with the money, so I'll go to work in the afternoon to ask Lao Wang. ”

"What the hell are you trying to do?" I bounced off the bed as if I had been electrocuted, and yelled at Zhang Lin hysterically.

"Do you want the whole community to hear it? Do you want to hear it? ”

"I don't want to quarrel, you act like something is wrong every day, I can't do anything, you have to take care of everything, have you been like this all these years?"

"You speak with your conscience, what do I care to you? Are you in charge of all the money at home? I don't even have the right to know? Besides, you borrowed the money in my name. Excellence, don't you feel like you've changed? I don't even know what you're doing every day? What do you think? ”

"What did I do? What did I think? What can I do at home except for work all these years? I know you don't just want to control me in your hands, I can only do what you think you can, what you think can't be done, even if it's right, I can't do it, you look down on me for a day or two, if you don't want to talk about it."

"You look like a human? After so many years of marriage, can you still say this? But that's it, who's afraid of whom! ”

"Let's go, let's go now" I rolled over and got up to look for the marriage license.

"I'll call Lao Wang now, I have to see what you did with the money?" Zhang Lin picked up his phone as he spoke.

"Don't you fight, the money wasn't lent to Lao Wang, I used it" I threw the marriage certificate on the bed while surprisingly calm in the face of the exposed lie, "I got into trouble, do you remember last year before Xiaole went to college, you quarreled with me for no reason, I think it's because because his grandfather started to say that they would go together and then didn't go, you sent your resentment to me." That night, the more I thought about it in the office, the more angry I became, so I drank the wine I had put in the office last time, and then I drove out of the car and hit a person on a small road in Kowloon. ”

"Where did you hit it? Will you take me to see it? How about the man? ”

"At that time, he was sent to H City Hospital, and finally paralyzed, last month his wife came to me and said that he was going to be hospitalized in the provincial hospital, and a few days ago he came again and said that someone died, and I read the death certificate"

"Do you think I'll believe what you say? I didn't even see it when something was so big," Zhang Lin said with a suspicious face as he looked at me.

"Believe it or not, I don't want to bother you, I'm fed up with your temper, let's get a divorce" I felt that it was difficult to complete the lie, and quickly said the final choice.

"Leave and leave!" Zhang Lin was completely angry, she quickly changed her clothes and walked out of the bedroom, and the flowers on the TV cabinet in the living room became a tool for venting. Looking at Zhang Lin, who had lost his mind, I didn't have the slightest intention of persuading, wishing that the storm would come more violently.

"Brother, you come to my house to pick up my father, I want to divorce Zhang Lin" I said calmly to my brother through my mobile phone.

"What are you doing, what are you arguing about? I'll go over now," Brother said eagerly on the other end of the phone.

Putting down the phone, my mind went blank, and I walked downstairs to sit in the open space, like a criminal waiting to be sentenced. "Where's Dad? What about Zhang Lin? What are you guys***? My brother arrived on a tricycle, and I asked angrily when I looked at my disheveled clothes.

"Upstairs" I didn't dare to look into my brother's eyes, for fear of being seen suspicious. At this time, I just want to get a divorce as soon as possible through lies, so as to escape the nightmare that plagues me every day, in my opinion, divorce is also the greatest protection for my family, and the secrets buried in my heart in the past few years have been completely beyond my ability to bear, and it is only a matter of time before a thunderstorm occurs.