I took my father to my mother's tombstone.

That night, after I told my father, the stone of deception in my heart finally fell. But now I have the worry about my father in my heart, and I am always watching over him, and I am afraid that he will do something to hurt himself.

Sun Keyi looked at me like that day and night, and she was also worried. After some discussion, we decided to take my father to visit my mother at my mother's tombstone, and maybe he would want to open it a little later.

It was a day when the weather had been sunny for the past few days, and it was suddenly overcast. I asked Sun Keyi, is the weather suitable for today? Or another day. Sun Keyi said that he had promised my father, so let's go, if he doesn't go, it will have a greater impact on him.

I agreed.

But it didn't rain until we returned, despite the dark clouds.

When I walked into the cemetery, my father's eyes were red, and he trembled with every step he took. I was worried, and stepped forward to help him, but he gently pushed him away.

My mother's tombstone has a picture of her when she was younger, and she is smiling, and that smile is so bright that it stings my eyes and makes my eye sockets red. The bouquet of white daisies in my father's arms trembled gently with his arms.

I saw the tiredness in my father's eyes, and finally he couldn't help but drop it in a big drip. He slowly bent his legs and knelt down. Sun Keyi and I also knelt down with him. He placed the flowers in front of the tombstone.

The cold wind blew unscrupulously, and no one spoke, only the bleak sound of the wind blowing and the grass moving. It was about ten minutes before I heard my father say slowly, "You guys go out first, I want to be alone with your mother for a while." ”

I said, "Okay." ”

I tried to stand up, but my legs were too numb, and the cold on my body made me shiver all the time. I couldn't stand up for a long time, so Sun Keyi stepped forward to help me.

After standing up, Sun Keyi still supported me, and he said, "Uncle Xu, then let's go out first." ”

I stood still and suddenly I was afraid of something, Sun Keyi saw my feelings, he shook his head at me, and said, "No." ”

I looked at my father, who knelt on his knees and didn't move. I took a closer look at him and checked him carefully before going out, and there should be nothing dangerous.

Sun Keyi helped me out, but we didn't go far, stopping where I could see my father.

From afar, I looked at that back, and an inexplicable distress and sadness surged into my heart. He used to be such a majestic man in my eyes, and no matter what trouble I had caused outside, I was never afraid in my heart, because I knew that there was such a person who would bear it for me. But now he had nothing left, not even the wife he carefully held in the palm of his hand had left him. Such a life is so sad and unfortunate for him.

Sun Keyi's eyes never looked at my father, I looked at him with his eyebrows lowered, as if he was preoccupied. But I only glanced at Sun Keyi, and soon I turned my attention to my father again.

Time passed minute by minute, and by the time we came out of the cemetery, it was already dark. My father didn't say a word after he got in the car. I sat next to him, and I was quiet. Sun Keyi turned his head to look at us and started the car.

Autumn has quietly passed, and the winter in the south is not very cold, but for me this winter is exceptionally cold. My father immersed himself in the pain of losing his mother, and for a long time he was not in a normal manner. Sun Keyi said, similar to me at that time, what we need is time, and it will slowly get better. I believe what Sun Keyi said, but he has never experienced that kind of pain, so I always feel that what he said is a little too easy, he doesn't know what kind of mental journey people like me and my father have gone through to get out of the pain of losing a loved one, and that kind of pain can sometimes destroy a person. So, I spent most of my energy on my father, and Sun Keyi understood and supported me with his actions.

Fortunately, after that winter, my father's demeanor recovered little by little, and he even sometimes took the initiative to talk to me about something other than my mother.

When the new year came, the atmosphere of saying goodbye to the old and welcoming the new year was very grand, probably because it was affected, and from the beginning of the new year my father resumed his previous habit of getting up early and exercising in the morning, and I also accompanied him.

Until that day, my father looked at me, and I knew that he had come out of that emotion at the moment, and there was a faint light in his eyes, which I hadn't seen in his eyes for a long time. Of course, the emotion in his eyes was more contemplative, and he said, "Qijun, you go up and pack up your things, and we will go back to Huanzhou." ”

Huanzhou is my mother's hometown.

I looked at my father stupidly, and I asked him, "Why do you suddenly want to go back to Huanzhou?" ”

My father said, "Do you want to stay here for the rest of your life?" ”

I didn't think about how long I was going to stay here and how long I was going to stay with Sun Keyi, but I didn't think about leaving Sun Keyi like this.

I said, "Dad, what do you mean?" ”

My father said, "I don't agree with you and Sun Keyi. ”

I didn't know what to say, I thought he didn't care, but I forgot that he was just too lazy to mind my business because he was so caught up in the grief of my mother's departure that he still had to take care of it.

My father then said, "You go up and pack your things now, and we'll leave for Huanzhou early tomorrow morning." ”

I am indifferent, I should not refute my father at this moment, I am afraid that I will knock him back with a word, and I should look for everything that pleases him. I nodded and said, "I'll clean up now." ”

I went through the boxes and cabinets in my room, and I shed tears as I cleaned up. When I packed my suitcase, Sun Keyi came back, looking a little tired, and at the same time showing a look of surprise when he saw me packing my suitcase. He said, "What are you doing here?" ”

I looked at him, and he didn't speak for a long time.

Sun Keyi seemed to be a little panicked when he saw the tears on my face, he walked up to me, grabbed my hand, and asked me, "Gentleman, what happened?" ”

The moment his hand grabbed mine, the back of my hand was warm. The warmth rushed into my heart all at once. In an instant, my tears fell again. I said, "Keyi, let's be apart for a while." ”

The strength I was holding my hand suddenly increased, and he said, "What did you say?" ”

I said, "Let's be apart for a while." ”

He said, "How long is a period of time?" ”

I looked at him and shook my head.

He looked at me for a long time, not understanding why I was leaving suddenly, and he said, "Can you not go?" ”

I put my other hand on his hand and held it tightly, and I said, "Keyi, I'll leave for a while, and I promise to be back." ”

That night, there were joyful fireworks outside the window, and in the window, Sun Keyi and I looked at each other for a long time, and finally, he said, "You promise to come back?" ”

I nodded.