I remember that Jiang Xiaotang once sank to the bottom like a beautiful fluttering white butterfly.

Sun Keyi picked Jiang Xiaotang into the car and rushed to the hospital. In the back seat, I hugged Jiang Xiaotang tightly, and she grabbed my hand with the hand that had half of her middle finger missing. Her breath was so weak that I was afraid she would stop breathing in the next second.

I kept talking in her ear, and I said, "Jiang Xiaotang, hold on, I'll be in the hospital soon." ”

"Jiang Xiaotang, open your eyes and look at me, look at me."

"Jiang Xiaotang, you haven't paid off what you owe me, you must wake up, return Li Munan to me, and Sun Keyi to me, do you hear it?"

"Jiang Xiaotang, you wake me up, wake up, don't close your eyes, don't ......" I choked up and couldn't speak.

She closed her eyes slightly, her long, dense eyelashes trembling slightly.

Sun Keyi drove the car to the fastest speed, and he kept looking back at me and Jiang Xiaotang. I saw that his eyes were bloodshot.

Jiang Xiaotang finally left, and was pronounced dead before he even entered the operating table.

For a long time, I didn't dare to disturb Sun Keyi. Our meeting will only uncover the scars left by Jiang Xiaotang on our hearts.

I went to Jiang Xiaotang's flower shop a few times, but Sun Keyi didn't sell it.

The flower shop suddenly became very bleak. It is now starting to rust in addition to being broken. The door is locked, and the small world closed inside it is like the estrangement between me and Sun Keyi that has been carved out by Jiang Xiaotang with his life. I don't think this door will be opened for a long time.

After Jiang Xiaotang left, I also started to plant some flowers and plants. So now my yard is full of all kinds of small potted plants. I took care of them like Jiang Xiaotang. When Jiang Xiaotang was still there, he gave me a lot of small potted plants, there were stars with small white flowers, and all kinds of succulents, the most special thing was a ginger flower, it never bloomed, until one day when I came to the courtyard to water the flowers, I saw that the green plant suddenly bloomed a few off-white butterfly-like flowers.

That's the ginger flower.

I deliberately searched on the Internet, Jiang Huahuayu: Leave the memory forever in the summer.

When Jiang Xiaotang left, summer had not yet arrived.

Those ginger flowers, one bud bloomed five or six white and yellowish flowers, each with three petals, like a fluttering white butterfly.

I remember that Jiang Xiaotang once sank to the bottom like a beautiful fluttering white butterfly.

The ginger flower blooms for only one day, and it blooms silently. The next day, I watched the fallen petals shed tears, and even they left, as poignant and decisive as Jiang Xiaotang's departure.

I gave the ginger flower to Sun Keyi, and I think the most important memory of Jiang Xiaotang should be him.

Of course, I didn't see him, so I left the ginger flower at the door of his apartment and hurried away.

That ginger flower, it will bloom again next year.

Obviously, I did not complete the task given to me by the editor-in-chief. That day, the editor-in-chief called me to his office and said to me with a disappointed face, "Xu Qijun, I didn't expect you to even have this ability, I really don't know what use I have to keep you." ”

In fact, from the day he gave me the assignment, I was ready to leave. When I was young, I would never have imagined that one day it would be so difficult to get a contract from Sun Keyi. So, I resigned myself to my fate. I said, "Editor-in-chief, I am willing to leave voluntarily if I have not completed the task you have given me." ”

The editor-in-chief touched his fat belly and said helplessly, "Who wants you to leave, you are not allowed to leave until this matter is completed." ”

I said, "I'm sorry, I can't do it." ”

The editor-in-chief obviously didn't expect me to answer like this, he looked at me in surprise, and he said, "Xu Qijun, what do you mean, don't you want to do it?" ”

I said, "Yes." ”

The editor-in-chief's eyes widened at him, and I knew that in his eyes, it was only right for me to go to Sun Keyi to talk about the contract with Sun.

However, I don't want to face Sun Keyi. Even if it's just about work.

I submitted my resignation after leaving the editor-in-chief's office, and I felt that it was time to take a vacation for myself, and during this time I became more and more depressed, and I wanted to go out and relax.

After I left my job, I wanted to go out for a walk, but when I got home, I didn't want to move, and I was paralyzed at home for a month.

That month, the only person who came to me was Yu Ting, she was very sorry, she said, "Gentleman, in fact, you don't need to resign, the editor-in-chief just wants to give you a little pressure, I can't imagine that you really just left." ”

That day, I sat in a rocking chair, leaned my head on Yu Ting's shoulder, and said, "Yu Ting, I'm tired, and the editor-in-chief just gave me an excuse to leave." ”

Yu Ting touched my head, and she said, "I heard about Jiang Xiaotang, gentleman, you don't have to blame yourself." ”

I always felt that if I hadn't called Sun Keyi that day, if Sun Keyi and I hadn't arrived at the scene and hadn't caused a new round of war, Jiang Xiaotang's final outcome would have been a broken finger, and those were just some people who wanted to pay for it, but they just wanted to give Jiang Xiaotang a little color. They just wanted money, but in the end they took Jiang Xiaotang's life. I probably said these things to Yu Ting after I got drunk.

When I was young, I thought that the pain caused by those mistakes would slowly heal over time, but in the end, those injuries slowly fermented and could no longer heal. And Li Qianqian and Jiang Xiaotang are the most memorable of those mistakes, it not only hurt them, but also ate me and Sun Keyi.

Our youthful years have been let down by our stupidity and selfishness.

My youth also failed another person, the person I thought I would never forget in my life, Li Munan, it turns out that I really can't forget him. Sometimes when I walk on the road and happen to see a person who looks like his back, my heart will tighten, and then a bleak pain spreads in my heart. It wasn't until I caught up and saw the man's face clearly, not him, that my heart was relieved.

Some people say that this is just thinking about it.

Summer came quietly, and it wasn't until I felt a burst of heat that I realized it was coming.

And what keeps lingering in my head is the phrase: leave the memory forever in the summer.

It turns out that Jiang Xiaotang has been gone for less than a season, but I always feel that she has left me for a long, long time.

That summer, I was also away for a short time and I went to Australia. There, I took the postcard that Sun Keyi sent me back and followed his footsteps. I even took his pose to pose for photos by the sea, went to the restaurants he went to and enjoyed a delicious lunch and watched the starry sky he saw.

After I came back, I got darker and thinner.

Yu Ting said: "Is this the end between you and Sun Keyi?" ”

I didn't expect Yu Ting to ask this, and I didn't think about this question seriously, but I knew that there would always be a Jiang Xiaotang between us, whether she was standing in front of us alive or had left this world. I said to Yu Ting, "You know, we were already impossible when Jiang Xiaotang was here, and now that she is gone, it is even more impossible between us." ”

Yu Ting said, "The three of you are really a bad fate." ”

Bad fate, Yu Ting summed up our relationship well with these two words. Sun Keyi and I are, and Jiang Xiaotang is even more. But this is the kind of evil fate that has trapped my whole life.