Some things happen without warning. But I know that all of this has a cause and effect.

I remember it was a weekend, and the afternoon sun was good, and I wandered around the yard, watering and pruning the flowers and plants. It's a lot of fun. Xu Yanqing didn't go out that day, which was very uncommon. Occasionally, he would wander out into the yard and say strange things to me.

I didn't think about it at first, but then I asked him, "Dad, is something wrong?" ”

He shook his head and said, "It's nothing, don't think about it, anyway, you listen to me and go out and get a job," he paused, "Also, take care of your mother." ”

I said, "Dad, you must have something to hide from me." ”

He sighed, turned around, and entered the house.

My dad had an accident the next day, and I don't know the specific situation, but I only heard from people in their unit that he was suspected of corruption and was arrested.

At that time, I grabbed my dad's special assistant hand and said, "How is it possible, how can my dad be corrupt?" The special assistant was a middle-aged man who was nearly 50 years old, his hands were trembling, and he said, "Miss, I don't know what's going on, and I don't believe that the director will be corrupt, but now that he has been arrested, I can't help it!" ”

I sat on the floor, crying, I had been overusing everything my dad could give me for the past twenty years, I thought he could afford it, and only now did I know that he was also fragile and could collapse at any time. But I didn't reassure him until I fell.

I have the impression that my mother has always been an optimist, and she even has a romantic view of love, which is not to blame her, because my father has always doted on her. When I was a child, I couldn't get used to her squeamishness in front of my dad, but when I grew up, I realized that this is the gesture of love. After my dad's accident, my mom collapsed on the spot, and I stayed at the door of the hospital's emergency room that day until 2 a.m. to get the news from the doctor that she was temporarily out of danger.

That day, in the hospital, I looked at my mother's pale face, and my heart was filled with bitterness. Her breath was weak, and I didn't dare approach her because I was afraid to see her suffering. My mom has a slight heart condition, so I didn't dare to get angry with her since I was a kid because I was afraid that one day she would suddenly leave me. Like now, I'm so scared that she'll leave me.

My mom didn't wake up for a few days, her willowy eyebrows were full of worry, and I didn't know what else to do except stay in the hospital. I went to visit my father, but he has not yet been sentenced, and he is not allowed to visit him in prison.

During my mother's hospitalization, Sun Hengmin came to visit several times. Every time his eyes were full of worry. One day, before Sun Hengmin left, I asked him if there was any way to help my father. He shook his head, sighed, and asked the secretary to hand me a paper. The above content is probably that the company that my father embezzled was Sun's, and Sun's also suffered heavy losses because of this incident, and the compensation totaled 60 million yuan. Sun Hengmin said to me, "Qijun, uncle can't help it. ”

During that time, I started to frantically look for a job, even if it was just a temporary part-time job. For the first time, I felt the helplessness of not having money. Xu Yanqing saved a lot of money in the early years, but due to suspected corruption, all the money was handed over to the public. And my mother's medical expenses and hospitalization fees had to be paid. At the urging of the hospital again and again, I sold the house, and I thought that the money would at least last a while.

I did this thing secretly from my mother to sell the house. I wasn't there for her when she woke up, and it was the nurse at the hospital who called me to tell me. After hanging up the phone, I held back my tears again and again and continued to do the work at hand. That day, it wasn't until dusk that I rushed to the hospital.

In the hospital, my mother looked at me with her eyes open, and her breath was still very weak. I sat on the stool in front of her bed, not knowing what to say for a moment.

My mom slowly reached out and there were a lot of cyan needles on the back of her hand, all of which were left by drips. All of a sudden, I felt that she was getting older, and the corners of her eyes began to wrinkle, and her hands were very thin. She put her hand on the back of my hand and said, "Qijun, these days, it's hard for you." ”

I shook my head desperately, and I said, "Mom, no, it's not difficult at all, as long as you're good, you're good." "I almost choked up, but I didn't want to cry in front of her. I remember that the day before my dad's accident, the only thing I told me was to take care of my mom, and that's all I could do.

I work as a salesperson in an unknown company, and the salary is actually determined by performance, so I work hard to earn not too little for a month, at least to cover the cost of the hospital. Life just barely goes on.

I kept asking myself if the outcome would have been different if I hadn't been in the hospital that day, if I hadn't listened outside the door a little more out of curiosity. That day, the only people in the ward were my mother and Sun Hengmin, and I heard Sun Hengmin say, "Wei Yan, I said that one day I will make you regret it." He said it as calmly as if he had said an inconsequential greeting, and my mother was so calm. She said, "Sun Hengmin, why don't you let me and Yanqing go?" Do you have to make our family ruined to be happy? ”

Sun Hengmin said: "Why are you so sure that I did this? ”

My mother said, "It's not who else you are, Yanqing won't be stupid enough to do such a thing as corruption, it's clear that you framed him." ”

Sun Hengmin smiled, and he said, "If I say I don't have it, do you believe it?" ”

I didn't hear my mom again, and she was gasping for breath as I pushed the door open and entered.

When Sun Hengmin saw me coming in, he immediately changed his face, and he said, "Qijun is here." ”

I nodded politely to him and said, "Uncle Sun, my mother doesn't seem to be very willing to see you now, please go out." ”

His face darkened, as if he had guessed what I was supposed to hear.

I made a gesture of please to him, emphasizing "Uncle, please go out." ”

After Sun Hengmin left, I asked my mother, "Mom, what's going on, why did you say that Uncle Sun framed Dad." "In my impression, the Sun family and my family have always had a very good relationship, even to the extent of marriage. Could it be that these are just superficial phenomena, and if this is the case, how could my parents agree to me marrying Sun Keyi? My mom didn't speak, and I saw tears streaming from the corners of her eyes, and I couldn't bear to ask again.

My father's case was heard in court in July, and I sold all the remaining property, and I hope that this will turn around. I ran a lot of law firms, but everyone knew that now the Xu family was in tatters, and even if I could get an honorarium, no one would want to take over.

In the southern cities, there is a lot of rain and little sunshine in the summer. In those days, hazy weather enveloped the city almost every day.

In the small room I rented, the smell of tobacco and alcohol was permeated. The girl I shared with fell out of love a few days ago, coupled with the continuous rain in the past few days, she almost never went out, smoking and drinking in the room every day, and even the living room smelled of tobacco and alcohol.

I suddenly felt that it was not easy for everyone, just like us now, no matter how frivolous and proud we used to be, there will be a day of frustration, and there will be a day when we want to cry but have no shoulders to rely on.

When Li Munan came to me, I was sitting down in the posture of that girl, lit a cigarette, and smoked. My thought at the time was to relax for a while, wait for the rain to stop, and then move on to a lawyer who was willing to take on the case.

The girl I shared with was named Xue Qian, and when I first met her, she smiled sweetly every day, and she was still very happy at that time. Her boyfriend treats her very well, and she is very willful in front of her boyfriend, at first, I think it is just a little pride of a girl in front of love, but slowly, I think this kind of love will not last long, because it is an unequal relationship, no one will always endure the willfulness of another person, and that willfulness is sometimes unreasonable. So I wasn't surprised that they broke up.

That day, Xue Qian handed me a cigarette, and I hadn't smoked it for a long time. I remembered when I was younger, when I hung out with Sun Keyi, our favorite thing was to hide in the corner and smoke a cigarette secretly.

Hearing a knock on the door, Xue Qian stood up to open the door, she said, "Maybe the takeaway has arrived." ”

I didn't expect Li Munan to come here, I was still in a trance until he entered the door, maybe I was smoking and hallucinating. He said, "Xu Qijun, I thought you were so pitiful, but I didn't expect your life to be quite nourishing." He took the cigarette from my hand and snuffed out the butt. I didn't dare to look up at him, I was afraid that in the next second my tears would burst out of my eyes.

Xue Qian said, "Qijun, who is this handsome guy?" Your boyfriend? I've never seen it before. ”

I didn't speak. Quietly looking at the floor covered with snack wrappers. Xue Qian felt bored, got up and went back to her room.

Li Munan looked at me condescendingly, I didn't speak, and he didn't say either. The clock just ticked by. When I was in high school, we could get along so quietly in the library, but at that time, we were very close.

It was a long time before I spoke, and I said, "Do you think I'm pathetic and ridiculous right now?" Li Munan, I don't need your sympathy, you can go. ”

He said, "I have not come to sympathize with you, but I am willing to take your father's case." ”

I was stunned for a second, I should have thought that he would sympathize with me in this way, and I said, "No." ”

He handed me a business card and said, "Come to me when you figure it out." Then he turned away without giving me a chance to speak.

I looked at the business card for a long time. Li Munan's three words are still so good-looking, just like his good-looking eyebrows and eyes, lingering in front of my eyes for a long time.