Graduation is destined to be an unhappy feast, and Li Munan and Li Qianqian have long separated from me in advance.

Sun Keyi went to study abroad, and Jiang Xiaotang and I went to the same city. I heard that Li Munan was in a northern city far away from me.

For four years, I kept in my dreams of Li Qianqian's hair messy and squatting in the corner holding herself, Li Munan looking at me and smiling and then taking me into her arms, and Jiang Xiaotang, she floated down in the cold lake. I often wake up with wet patches on my face and pillow. Then, unable to sleep.

When I went to college, I decided to abandon my 'plane' and buy a bike. I found that the feeling of riding a bike is not bad, although it is not as majestic as an 'airplane'.

Actually, I miss the 'plane' a lot, it carries a time when Sun Keyi and I went crazy together.

At the beginning of his freshman year, Sun Keyi often came back from long-distance calls abroad, and he said, gentleman, I met a foreign girl in the library today, but she was beautiful. He said, gentleman, I learned how to make pasta. He said gentleman, I was homesick.

After that, I fought occasionally, and then I stopped fighting.

Every time Sun Keyi called, my roommate would tease "my boyfriend called again".

I don't refute, I smile faintly, and it counts as an answer.

I like to go to the library, this habit comes from Li Munan, and I always think of that time with him in the library. Riding my bicycle from the library back to the dormitory, I rode a short section of the sidewalk in order to get a short shortcut, and after a sharp turn, the boy who suddenly appeared in front of me fell to the ground.

Damn, touch porcelain? I didn't think I hit him when I braked suddenly.

I put down my bike and stepped forward, the boy was pale, and his eyelashes rested on his cheeks like wings in his lightly closed eyes.

Hospital.

I sat in the hallway, looking down at my white cloth shoes. A middle-aged man hurriedly walked over, he was wearing a suit, and his neatly combed hair was a little disheveled.

The door to the emergency room opened, and the pale teenager was pushed out in a wheelchair, thin as a blank sheet of paper, with tiny bangs scattered across his forehead.

The middle-aged man stepped forward and pushed the pale boy over, the white lights of the hospital scattered on the pale face of the young man, he looked at me and said "thank you".

I pulled out a laugh and said, "You're welcome."

Maybe after sitting in the chair for a long time, my legs were a little numb, so I struggled to get up and said, "I'll leave if it's okay."

The boy nodded.

The middle-aged man stepped forward and said, "Thank you for saving my young master," and then he handed over a business card and said, "If you have any difficulties, you can come to me."

I took it and nodded.

The second time I saw the thin teenager was in a public elective class, he was sitting not far from me, so pale that I was afraid that he would fall down in the next second, but fortunately the middle-aged man sat next to him and nodded and smiled at me.

On the tree-lined avenues of the campus, I slowed down. The thin boy stood right behind me, his voice as fragile but nice as his person, and he said, "Hello, my name is Song Yuan'an." "Yuan'an," I silently recited these two words.

I turned to him and said, "My name is Xu Qijun."

The smile on the young man's pale face was very good. I said, "You should smile more".

A long-distance relationship in college is a big test of love for many people when they are young.

There is one such girl in our dormitory, she screams every day to miss her boyfriend, her boyfriend fights with her again, and her boyfriend goes out with other girls again.

At first, the other people in the dormitory would comfort her, but then they didn't bother to pay attention to her.

One day, she suddenly pulled me and said, "Qijun, come with me to the train station to pick up someone."

I was washing my hair and said, "Who?" ”

She smiled coquettishly and said "my boyfriend".

The whole dorm began to heckle, "Your boyfriend is finally willing to come to see you?" ”

I was pulled out of the dormitory by her without blowing my hair, and I said, "Lu Meng, slow down, your boyfriend can't run again."

She stuck her tongue out at me, "It's not like you don't know how much I miss him."

I picked up my pace and was ready to go for dog food.

The train station was crowded with people, but Lu Meng saw her boyfriend at a glance. She shouted "Yi Chuan Ji". Shouting and waving hands.

Her boyfriend saw her and squeezed through the crowd and walked towards us, and when I saw her boyfriend, I understood why Lu Meng thought of him so much, he was tall and big, with clear eyebrows and eyes.

Yi Chuanji walked over, and Lu Meng threw himself on him, and tears were about to flow out.

Along the way, I was like a 200-watt light bulb, watching him and me.

That night, Yi Chuan invited all the girls in our dormitory to dinner. The other two girls in the dormitory looked at Yi Chuanji, "I envy you so much, Lu Meng, you have such a handsome boyfriend."

Lu Meng smiled and said to Shen Shuyu next to me, "Your boyfriend is also good."

Bian Zilin and I, who were still single in the whole dormitory, looked at each other and smiled, lowered our heads and continued to eat our own food.

A crisp laugh caught my attention, and my eyes turned red at a glance, and the short-haired girl had long hair.

Jiang Xiaotang, this name has disappeared from my life for two years, but this girl will appear in my dreams countless nights in the past two years.

In fact, I always wanted to ask her why she did this to me back then.

She is still laughing and messing with the people around her as before, heartless.

Bian Zilin looked at my red eyes, and she asked, "What's wrong with you?" ”

I shook my head and buried my head so low that I almost stuck to my meal.

Lu Meng said, "Xu Qijun, why don't you find a boyfriend, I see that there are still a lot of handsome guys chasing you in school."

I was afraid that Jiang Xiaotang, who was sitting at the next table, would see me, but I couldn't avoid those sparkling eyes after all.

That night, everyone went back to the dormitory, only I was still hanging out at the bar, and the person sitting across from me was Jiang Xiaotang.

I seemed to see that winter many years ago, Jiang Xiaotang was like a butterfly with injured wings floating and falling in the cold water. Then I remembered Li Munan, he said Xu Qijun, people like us are different from you, we have to rely on our own efforts.

My thoughts seemed to be connected into a chaotic thread of the day, and those painful memories swallowed my heart like waves in the deep sea.

I asked Jiang Xiaotang, "Have you ever liked Sun Keyi?" "I wanted to ask too much, I didn't know how to ask, but I didn't expect it to be the first thing I said.

Jiang Xiaotang nodded, her face slightly red from the effect of alcohol.

The result was beyond my expectations.

Jiang Xiaotang said, "Sun Keyi is good to me, he is the best to me among the people I know."

I smiled, Sun Keyi's goods were really good to Jiang Xiaotang, and when other boys bullied Jiang Xiaotang, he would be the first to stand up, "This girl is mine, no one can touch it." When Jiang Xiaotang fell into the water, he rushed over like a deer, jumped into the water and picked her up.

I said, "Like him, you don't stay with him".

Jiang Xiaotang smiled, it was more ugly than crying, she said, "Xu Qijun, no matter how good he is to me, is he half as good as you?" ”

I was no longer in the mood to laugh, and I said, "What nonsense are you talking about".

Jiang Xiaotang's hair was already very long, and it was about to reach her waist, she said, "You guys are so disgusting, you can be together if you like each other, why do you want to harm me and Li Munan."

When I heard the name Li Munan, my tears flowed out uncontrollably.

Jiang Xiaotang said, "Xu Qijun, even if I am sorry for you back then." With that, she raised another glass of wine, tilted her head and poured it into her mouth.

Even if I'm sorry for you, Jiang Xiaotang is so easy for you.