Chapter 104: Essay Finding a home in nature

The light was still very dim, and in the dim light, I lifted the pen, my mind was blank, and I wanted to express my boredom by writing an article, and every time I was in a dull mood, I used writing to temporarily relieve my inner pain, and now I also need to use the pen to express my feelings and find my home in nature.

Nature for the people living in this strange world there are more mysteries, there are more ethereal, everyone has their own place in this world, have adapted to their own living environment, that is, home, but today I feel very empty, because I did not find my own home, yesterday, I empty strolling on the street, today I helplessly walked in the square, looking at the moon in the sky, seeing the endless flow of people, I really feel inferior, whenever this time, I wondered about nature, whether nature arranged everyone's home, why I was drifting alone on the street, I was really annoyed with the work I was engaged in, because my ideal was too far away from reality, I often carried dreams, with a sense of loss of ideals, running around in the beautiful scenery of nature, accepting the blowing of the wind, sorting out the boring emotions, and pursuing my own destiny in nature.

In fact, I am a person who is a very failure in anything, everything I do is almost a failure, at least far from what I ask for, but I can't let it be completed successfully, sometimes I have a lot of doubts about myself, I am not myself, because the self I pursue is not like myself in reality, the reason why I love nature is because only in nature can I see myself clearly, I can see my ideal self, everything I will become strong, It seems that he has realized his ideals, or at least he has gained the courage to realize his ideals, which is probably the same as the spiritual victory method of Ah Q in "The True Biography of Ah Q" written by Mr. Lu Xun.

Nature is a brave warrior full of courage, can arouse people's countless true feelings, firm confidence and infinite strength, just like the night and the morning, in the dark night people's spirit is extremely tired, and in the early morning, people are full of confidence, the reason why I love nature, just like all people who cherish the day, just for me in the nature to continue to find their own home, looking for their own land, looking for the way to achieve their ideals.

I hope I can better understand nature, and I hope I can find myself and find everything that belongs to me, and I am grateful for nature.