Chapter 21: It's You
After a while, Cher seemed to be more drunk and couldn't speak clearly, so Shizuko helped her to the room they were used to.
After untying Cher's clothes, Shizuko imitates what Cher does when she often takes care of her, carefully adjusting the water temperature and preparing to wash her.
Xue'er, who was lying on her back on the bed, was very drunk, her eyes were closed, and the words that came out of her mouth were no longer coherent, but she could probably hear the meaning clearly.
Just when Shizuko stretched out her hand to take off her clothes so that she could help Xue'er into the bathroom to take a bath, a few words that came out of Xue'er's mouth made Shizuko stunned as if she was struck by lightning.
"Kill...... Chen Chen...... Reclaim ...... You ......" A smug smile appeared at the corner of Xue'er's mouth, and she gritted her teeth and said this sentence hatefully.
Could it be her? Did she kill Chen Chen? Shizuko couldn't believe her ears. She pricked up her ears again, wanting to hear a few more precise words from Xue'er's mouth, but at this time, Xue'er turned over and fell asleep.
What to do? How can I get her to tell the truth? How can I get the truth out of her mouth? Looking at Xue'er sleeping on the bed, Shizuko thought a little helplessly.
She shook Cher tentatively, and screamed twice, and the latter moved and muttered yes. Shizuko turned her heart sideways, sat on the edge of the bed, and began to talk to Xue'er.
"Xue'er, Chen Chen is here, you want me to go with him......" Shizuko couldn't care so much, although she was drunk and understood, looking at Xue'er's appearance, maybe when her mind was relaxed, some words could rush out of her mouth.
Sure enough, although Xue'er was already drunk and dazed, she was still subconsciously answering Shizuko's words and talking to her.
"No way, he's already dead......"
"Honey, do you love me?"
"Of course I love."
"And what if someone wants to snatch me away?"
"I'll kill him (her)!"
"Is it like killing Chen Chen?"
"Yes, I will kill whoever robs you. It doesn't matter who it is! ”
"Xue'er, Chen Chen wants to take me away."
"Shizuko, be sober, Chen Chen won't come, I'll kill him with my own hands......" Xue'er finally roared and yelled at Shizuko.
When she shouted these words, her eyes opened, and the wine was half awake, and she looked at Shizuko viciously, like a she-wolf protecting her cubs, and her eyes flashed with a green and fierce light.
Maybe she knew that sooner or later Shizuko would know about it, so when Shizuko was talking to her, the drunken Cher was like a mirror in her heart, but she still cooperated with Shizuko's words to say what she really thought in her heart.
It's not so much that she's cooperating, but rather that she's confessing to Shizuko through the strength of alcohol, love makes her impulsive, and it makes her honest. Although Chen Chen was an obstacle between her and Shizuko, after all, it was the person Shizuko loved deeply.
She knows the pain of loss, just like when Shizuko left. But she couldn't bear it, so getting rid of Chen Chen in order to save Shizuko was her last resort.
Xue'er knew the consequences of speaking out, and she also knew that murder would be punished by the law, but she had no choice, didn't Mr. Lu Xun say it all: "Silence, silence!" If you don't explode in silence, you perish in silence. ”
Shizuko is destined to be her nemesis, she loves her, and she loves her so much that she can do anything to have her. In the face of Shizuko's betrayal, she can't bear it, let alone hate Shizuko.
Originally, she thought that as long as Shizuko was happy and happy, it didn't matter how she was doing. She even imagined that in the future, Shizuko and Chen Chen would get married, and she would be a godmother when they gave birth to a child.
It's just that she didn't expect that in the year and a half that Shizuko and Chen Chen have been getting along, she has lived more in jealousy and despair.
At the thought that Shizuko would no longer be a dish on her plate from now on, and that Shizuko would throw herself into Chen Chen's arms, accept his intimacy, and respond to his caresses, Xue'er couldn't restrain herself from being jealous.
She has been enduring, trying all kinds of ways to distract herself from thinking about it anymore, but she can't do it. The experience from childhood to adulthood has made her develop a character that will be repaid.
Especially in the three years that she was messing with a rich businessman, because she was tortured in some ways, the rich businessman could only compensate her materially and respond to her needs.
But now, Shizuko fell in love with Chen Chen, and was afraid that Chen Chen would know about her previous affairs with Xue'er, so she threw Xue'er away, and planned not to contact her anymore.
It's okay to let yourself fall out of love, but the person you love so much is still ruthless for a stinky man. Not only did he hurt her severely, but he also stepped on it without caring when her heart had completely fallen to the ground.
What Shizuko did was entirely because she knew Chen Chen, so the culprit of the harm she caused Xue'er to suffer was Chen Chen! This teaches Cher how not to hate? Teach her how to endure?
In Cher's opinion, what is a man? It's just a dog behind her ass that wags her tail when she gives it some benefits, but now, the man she despises and hates has snatched her lover away.
The more she thought about it, the more angry she became, and Cher had lost her mind, especially after she and Ah Zi repeatedly invited Shizuko out to play and were rejected, Xue'er was completely enraged.
Chen Chen was actually killed by Xue'er? The man you love so much was killed by the woman you love? This terrible fact is unacceptable to Shizuko no matter what.
However, when she heard Cher's roar clearly and heard the words that came out of Cher's mouth, Shizuko was stupid and sat on the edge of the bed in a daze, not saying a word.
It's true! In order to regain herself again, Xue'er killed Chen Chen! Why? Why?? Why???
Shizuko's head buzzed, and the news kept swirling in her head like a thunderbolt from the blue. The words that Cher yelled out just now lingered in her ears over and over again.
The room was silent, the eerie atmosphere was suffocating, and Cher was half-lying on the bed, posing as if she didn't care, smoking one cigarette after another.
In fact, she was still a little scared in her heart, especially when she saw Shizuko's pained expression. But there is no regret in this world about the sale of medicine, and the facts that have happened cannot be reversed in any way.
She could only pretend to be indifferent to hide the confusion and fear in her heart, and she gulped and spat out the fog. It's a pity that the slightly trembling hand still exposed her real mental fluctuations at this time.
Cher's eyes have always been on Shizuko, she doesn't know how Shizuko will react when she hears this, and she will denounce herself? Or will they continue to stick to themselves as if nothing happened?
I don't know how long it took, but Shizuko never said a word, just holding her head in her hands, resting her head on her knees, and sitting there motionless.
She didn't speak, and Cher didn't know what to say, so she could only let time flow by second. Except for the bright and dark cigarette butts in Xue'er's hand, there was no movement in this room.
The smoke burned Cher's fingers, and she broke the silence with a low cry. However, Shizuko seemed to have transformed into a fossil, and there was still no reaction.
Cher couldn't stand the torture, so she hugged Shizuko, tears dripping down her bright face. She seems to have come to the confessional room in the church, and Shizuko begins to tell her inner sins as if she were a priest listening to the confession.
"Shizuko, I'm sorry, I just love you too much to lose you......
"After you and Chen Chen have been together for four hundred and fourteen days, I have been in pain for four hundred and fourteen days......
"I thought I could let you go, I thought I would be happy as long as you were happy. I tried to do it, but I failed......
"Missing and jealousy haunt me every day, missing every bit of you, jealous that he can have you......
"Originally, I have been putting up with it, but you actually said that you were afraid that Chen Chen would know about you and me, and you said that we should not contact each other in the future.
"I really can't figure it out, why is that stinky man? Why did I snatch you and make you disappear into my world completely?
"I confess that I killed him, because only then will you come back to me......
"Shizuko, don't do this to me, please, I can't live without you......" Xue'er became more and more excited the more she spoke, holding Shizuko and shaking vigorously.
Unfortunately, no matter what she said, Shizuko still didn't respond, she just closed her eyes tightly, and didn't look, listen or say like a dead person.
Cher was about to go berserk, so she angrily grabbed Shizuko's cheeks with both hands, fixed her face with force, and shouted at her, "You speak!" Chen Chen is dead, are you going to call the police and let the police arrest me to avenge him? Or do we pretend that we don't know what to do, and we find a place to live incognito for the rest of our lives? ”
Maybe it was her words that stimulated Shizuko's sore spot, or maybe Shizuko herself has been conflicting in her heart, and after hearing her say this, Shizuko finally reacted.
Shizuko lifted her hand and forcefully parted Cher's hands that were holding her face, her face already drowning in the tears pouring out.
She let the tears rage, and it took a long time to say: "It's you!" It turned out that you killed Chen Chen! ”
After saying this, Shizuko seemed to spit out a large stone deposited in her chest, and she held her heart, and now it began to ache violently.
She didn't know that a human heart could hurt so much, and the hollow and sharp pain hit one after another, and the tears suddenly dried up completely. All consciousness was focused on the heart, sensing the pain coming from there.
Shizuko's mind was blank, she only knew that it hurt, her heart hurt so much, she opened her mouth and inhaled heavily.
Her consciousness began to drift apart, she felt the ceiling spin, the sky and the earth seemed to switch places, and she felt like she was shouting into the void.
"Oxygen...... I need oxygen...... Cher...... Save me...... I was out of breath...... Chen Chen...... Chen Chen...... You wait for me...... It's so dark here...... Don't leave me ......"
Suddenly it was dark in front of her, and Shizuko fainted.