Chapter 12: Disillusionment
If it weren't for Zhao Xiaoyu's unexpected pregnancy, maybe Ling Yunyan's face hadn't been exposed so quickly.
In fact, this pregnancy can be regarded as Zhao Xiaoyu's intention, she has been with Ling Yunyan for three or four years, and Ling Yunyan has never said anything about marrying her.
Although Ling Yunyan treats her very well in terms of material things, and often gives her large sums of money, she doesn't know what she can do when she gets the money, so she goes back to the welfare home again and again to visit those lovely children, and also donates some money to the home from time to time.
Every time he returned to the welfare home and played with the children, only then could Zhao Xiaoyu smile from the bottom of his heart and temporarily forget his troubles and nightmares that kept appearing.
The dean and the teacher asked her about her personal situation with concern, and she always said that it was still early, but in fact, she was becoming more and more unsure about Ling Yunyan and didn't know how to tell others.
She was with Ling Yunyan, and Ling Yunyan always took layer after layer of security measures, in the name of protecting her and not hurting her, but now it seems that Ling Yunyan has put herself out of the matter early in the morning.
She hadn't been to where Ling Yunyan lived, because he said that it was only rented temporarily, and it was not popular, and she felt at home here.
She never looked at anything from Ling Yunyan, so she didn't know that in Ling Yunyan's wallet, there were intimate photos of him and other women.
She never thought that in order not to let others know about her existence, Ling Yunyan would use a separate mobile phone number to contact her.
She knew Ling Yunyan's unit, but because he didn't agree with her going, she obediently didn't go.
She didn't know Ling Yunyan's commuting situation, when she went to work, when she was on duty, when she was on vacation, she had deliberately paid attention, but she still didn't figure it out.
Ling Yunyan is becoming more and more like a fan to her, she just passively accepts his arrangement, coming as she says, and leaving as she says.
Even if she was as simple as her, she began to feel that there seemed to be an invisible barrier between Ling Yunyan and her.
Only when he came to her cabin, only the two of them lingered on the bed, and when Ling Yunyan asked her to provide dead people's organs, she felt that Ling Yunyan was real, and more often, she seemed to be still alone, living alone.
Perhaps because she was too obedient and didn't need to spend extra time and energy to control, Ling Yunyan had less and less time to come to her.
Because of the guilt she had been feeling for a long time, she began to sleep unsteadily, and repeated the same nightmares, in which the dead people whose organs had been cut off by her lined up to make her pay.
For several late nights, she struggled to wake up from a nightmare, and her surroundings were all deserted, without Ling Yunyan's arms and comfort, she felt that the feeling of lovers between them was getting weaker and weaker, and the distance between them was getting farther and farther away.
Zhao Xiaoyu was afraid of such feelings, because Ling Yunyan was all she had, and without him, she didn't know where her future was; Without him, she didn't know where else to go in this long life.
But Ling Yunyan made her feel more and more unpredictable, she was afraid of losing, afraid that one day, Ling Yunyan would disappear from her life with a wave of her hand.
Therefore, in addition to being more docile and accepting Ling Yunyan's mercy and obeying his arrangement, she also wants to change the status quo, at least, she has to use some tricks to live with him completely, and marriage is obviously the ultimate goal of all her hopes.
How can I marry him? The first thing Zhao Xiaoyu can think of is those episodes in TV novels, such as an unexpected pregnancy and getting married.
In order to achieve the purpose of pregnancy, Xiaoyu punctured all the condoms at home with needles, read a lot of books, and learned some ways to promote pregnancy.
Of course, she knew subconsciously that these things could not be known to Ling Yunyan, and finally, with her continuous efforts, she became pregnant.
She had fantasized more than once that knowing that she was pregnant, Ling Yunyan would laugh happily and would take out the ring that she had already prepared to propose to her.
But the fact is that when she carefully prepared a table of sumptuous meals, and when Ling Yunyan ate with relish, she slightly shyly announced to him that the flesh and bones in her stomach had been more than three months, and when he was about to become a father, Ling Yunyan's face changed greatly, and the dishes and chopsticks in her hand were unconsciously put down.
And her full hope also came to naught after Ling Yunyan's words.
Ling Yunyan said that he couldn't get married yet, and now was the time to be promoted, and he wasn't ready to be a father, besides, he never told anyone that he had a girlfriend who worked as a groomer in a funeral home.
In the end, he just said lightly, knock him out.
Zhao Xiaoyu was poured a basin of cold water on her head, cold from her head to her feet, and at that moment, she even saw contempt and indifference in Ling Yunyan's eyes.
Maybe it was because she couldn't help it, Ling Yunyan hugged her again and began to talk nicely.
It's just that this time Zhao Xiaoyu clearly felt his perfunctory and absent-mindedness, she said obediently, beat him, and then said that there was only one request, to do this operation in the hospital where Ling Yunyan worked.
Hearing that she was willing to kill the child, Ling Yunyan was overjoyed and agreed to her request, saying that he would arrange it.
It was within a few days that Zhao Xiaoyu knew about Ni Xiaomei's existence in the First People's Hospital of S City, and also knew that Ling Yunyan and Ni Xiaomei were already going to talk about marriage.
When she was admitted to the hospital as Ling Yunyan's acquaintance, in her spare time waiting and receiving labor induction surgery, she deliberately pretended to be very three-eight, and when she chatted with the nurse, she casually mentioned Ling Yunyan and inquired about his situation.
Without her having to think about it, the nurses who had a good impression of Ling Yunyan told her the facts that Ling Yunyan had never told her, one by one.
The more she listened, the more uncomfortable she became, the more she listened, the more disheartened she became, and then thinking of what Ling Yunyan asked her to do, Zhao Xiaoyu finally woke up to it, Ling Yunyan approached her and laid a gentle trap in the name of love, but it was just for a terrible conspiracy.
He just pretended to be in love with her, and spent a little time and energy on her, but in fact it was only for the great benefit that her work convenience could bring him.
Sure enough, how willing she was to cooperate and take the bait, she easily swallowed the bait in Ling Yunyan's hand, and was repeatedly coaxed by him by the nose.
She finally understood that from beginning to end, she was just a tool used by Ling Yunyan to obtain dead people's organs, and those so-called love and love were nothing but successful deception and play.
Poor Zhao Xiaoyu, she was lying on the delivery bed so quietly, when the doctor was inducing labor for her, she just raised her hands in front of her eyes to take a closer look.
These white hands had been stained with the blood of many dead people, and she seemed to smell the blood and copper stench coming from her own hands, which made her can't help but feel nausea and pain.
At the moment when the doctor removed the remains of the child from her abdominal cavity and told her that the operation was successful, Zhao Xiaoyu stared at the ceiling with wide eyes like a dead fish, her child was gone, and her heart was dead.