Chapter 19: Tangled into a knot
Thinking back to everything in the past again, Cher reached out and held Shizuko's hand, and in her heart, the result at this time was exactly what she expected.
It was in this bar that twenty-one-year-old Cher met nineteen-year-old Shizuko for the first time, unbeknownst to her, Shizuko was destined to be so entangled with her.
She remembered very well that when Shizuko walked through the door of Scarlet Marie alone, her innocent and confused expression like a lamb attracted the attention of many people waiting for the food.
Scarlet Marie is a bar for gay women, and Cher, one of the shareholders, and the owner, Ah Zi, have always been very good friends.
When they were studying together, they inadvertently discovered that each other had the same sexual orientation as themselves, and they were both attacking that role, so their friendship was like buddies.
In order to have a suitable scene, they are carrying out their self-proclaimed kimchi activity in the open, and as soon as they graduate from school, they partner up to open this bar.
Ah Zi has some management skills, so she took on the responsibility of the owner of this shop, and Xue'er's diplomatic skills are outstanding, so she is responsible for external liaison or something, and this store is run by the two of them together, and the business is not bad.
When she first met Shizuko, Xue'er was moved at first sight, and even Ah Zi could see that Xue'er was sincere, knowing that she had been here for a few years, and she had seen a lot of things, and no one had made her feel this way.
At that time, Ah Zi had a new dish she was teasing and was about to get started, so she helped Xue'er create some opportunities for her and Shizuko to get acquainted smoothly.
Scarlet Marie has made a name for herself in S City lately, the city's first female-only bar closed to men, and rumored to be a place for gay and lesbian fun.
The day Shizuko came to Scarlet Marie was the day her father married the bride, and her father's actions made her completely and completely disappointed in the man, so she wanted to indulge.
When she heard Scarlet Marie's name from a friend, her fresh curiosity and a few hatreds for men made her walk into Scarlet Marie's steps with such determination.
Of course, her appearance makes her stand out from the crowd, and her figure, appearance, words and deeds can be regarded as one in a hundred.
So it's not uncommon for such a Shizuko to be taken by Xue'er at a glance.
One is intentionally depraved, the other is deliberately flirtatious, plus Cher herself is also very sweet, like a living Barbie doll that has been magnified several times, the only difference is that she has long black wavy hair.
Between eroticism, wine is a good medium. Cher takes Shizuko to the private room she has occupied in the bar for a long time, and calls a few of her friends to drink and chat together.
At that time, Shizuko didn't have much alcohol, so after Xue'er deliberately poured her a few glasses of wine, she was already dizzy and couldn't tell the difference between east and west, north and south.
In the room of the bar, they have their first time, and the experienced Cher discovers that Shizuko has never been through this, and she is still a chick.
After waking up, Shizuko seemed to be both ignorant and fearless about these, including the first time Xue'er took her, she didn't have the slightest surprise and blame, but made Xue'er feel a little guilty.
Since then, it has been out of control, and the two women are like fake husbands and real wives, out of a pair and a pair, except for Shizuko to go to class, basically stuck together.
Cher loves Shizuko, she sees her as her sky, her earth, her world, her all. Although she occupies an offensive position in the relationship between the two, emotionally speaking, she is more like a recipient.
Everything Shizuko likes, is what she likes, Shizuko says when she opens and closes, Shizuko talks......
Originally, she liked smoky makeup, poison perfumes, and black clothes; But Shizuko likes peach makeup, Chanel No. 5, and red dresses. So Cher has changed everything......
She spoiled her as a husband spoiled his wife; She loves her like a husband loves his wife; She loves her, just like a husband loves his wife......
Shizuko, who has never been in love, also thinks that this is love, and there is a person, not to mention a man or a woman, who clings to each other and complains to each other.
She naively thought that such a long time, even if she was not recognized, as long as she was happy, there was nothing wrong with it.
Shizuko didn't feel anything about Xue'er having that kind of relationship with herself by getting drunk, but because under the influence of alcohol, she avoided possible embarrassment when she was sober.
Now it's better like this, waking up with a hangover, ending the empty and lonely days before, there is a person who truly loves himself, and two people hold hands to watch the flowers bloom and fall.
"Shizuko, do you remember the time we laughed at Zi together?" Xue'er narrowed her eyes with some drunkenness, and asked Shizuko in a hoarse throat.
Shizuko raised her hand and stroked Cher's somewhat disheveled hair, and gently patted her face. "Of course I remember. At that time, her food was robbed by a man...... Quack ...... said that she seemed to think it was very funny, and laughed.
After raising the wine glass in front of her eyes and looking at it for a long time before raising her hand to drink it, Xue'er suddenly became silent, Ah Zi's dish was robbed by a man, which made her and Shizuko laugh for a long time.
But what about Shizuko, who was also snatched away by Chen Chen, if he hadn't made up his mind, how could there still be a scene of you and me being in love with me today, drinking and chatting?
Thinking of this, she poured another glass of wine and drank it silently. Her sudden silence was finally noticed by Shizuko. Shizuko is a sharp-minded girl, and she immediately guessed that Xue'er was thinking of herself and Chen Chen.
Although this incident brought happiness and sweetness to herself, from Xue'er's point of view, it was a betrayal and hurt. Shizuko, who is kind-natured, has always felt sorry for Cher because of this incident.
Especially in the past relationship, the will of Shizuko was completely the premise for the two to get along. Cher often said that Shizuko was a spirit sent from heaven to indulge and succumb to herself, and to completely abandon all self-esteem and pride.
Shizuko silently grabbed Cher's shoulder and patted her gently, and Cher turned her head sideways to look at her, and the two smiled knowingly.
Everything has passed, Chen Chen is already in the past tense, lost or betrayed, those are all memories of yesterday with the passing of Chen Chen's life.
The hand of time is the most effective healing medicine, it will wipe out everything sooner or later, even if it is deep love, even if it is once difficult to turn the sea into water, except for Wushan is not a cloud.
But when time passes, a year, five years, ten or twenty years, except for a midnight dream that can still be remembered, in the end everything is nothing more than that.
No one knows, at this time, Xue'er's heart breathed a long sigh of relief, the obstacle that appeared on the road of love between her and Shizuko has been removed. Now, nothing can hinder their happiness, and their happiness will last forever.
As if she couldn't bear to lose anymore, she looked at Shizuko who was firmly held by her with greedy eyes, yes, she couldn't lose it anymore, this lost treasure.
She belongs to me alone, she is mine, and she is what I have to have and cherish all my life; No one can snatch her away, and whoever wants to get their hands on her, I will do whatever it takes to destroy her.
Even if I give my life, I just want her, I want her to be by my side, I want her to spend this life with me. I want her to have everything in the future only with me, only me, and only me.
Hold the hand of the son, and carry the old with the son. At this moment, I am holding her little hand, a real and warm hand, will it be like this for the rest of my life?
How far can we go? How much time is left? There are some things that have been done, and we have to bear them. It's just that I really hope that day will never come.
I just want to be with her, but unfortunately, such a wish will probably soon be shattered by reality, alas, I don't want to, there is wine today and drunk today, tomorrow is sad, tomorrow is sad.
Xue'er suddenly felt as if she had returned to the sentimental little girl many years ago, looking at the raindrops falling outside the window, secretly sad in her heart, for the unknown longing.
How blue the sky was, how white the clouds were, and how easily the ignorant girl believed the lie.
On that day, the man he didn't know saw her at the school gate, his eyes radiated a terrifying gaze, and he followed her all the way and accosted her.
When Cher is forced to speak, the man claims to be a teacher at the art school and can escort her to the art school, as long as he has his body checked.
Xue'er, who is not deeply involved in the world, believed it, and was half coerced and half coaxed by him to take her to a house under construction not far from the school.
The panicked Cher vaguely realized something, but in the eyes of the man who was carried away by lust, her little lamb was already meat on a plate, and he could swallow it just by opening his mouth.
Cher was asked not to speak, tears blurred her eyes when the pain hit, and she could only feel what the man was doing behind her after she was forced to bend her upper body.
Perhaps afraid that Cher would scream, the man quickly told her that the medical examination was over and that Cher was in good health.
Cher, who was still ignorant, naively thought that the door of luck would be open to her, so she didn't ask what the man's surname was, let alone what art school she could accept herself.
She just held back the pain and allowed the man to leave a sentence in a hurry, you wait at school, the admission letter will be delivered to you.
Walking back to the street blankly with her schoolbag on her back, remembering the cold and empty house at home, Xue'er didn't know where to go, and she was only in her second year of junior high school, and suddenly lost her purpose in life.
If she hadn't met the old man who gave her everything and ruined everything, would her life be different from today? Will she be like Shizuko, meet a man who loves and pampers herself?
Will she entrust her tired body and mind to that man and let him shield her from the wind and rain? Will she no longer be the same as she is today, sitting next to the woman she loves, but she is terrified all day long, always worrying about the upcoming verdict?