"Today's wind and rain, reading at home, my heart is touched, I want to record it, maybe I can have a deeper feeling when I watch it again in the future. Dream with you

We used to yearn for the waves of fate so much, and in the end we found that the most beautiful scenery in life is actually the calmness and calmness of our hearts. We have been so anxious for recognition from the outside world, only to find out in the end that the world is our own, and we have nothing to do with others. ”

No matter how fatal it is, no matter how precious it is in our hands, no matter how much it becomes a different person and only a layer of skin remains, we can pass our lives in obscurity, reaching out and dragging it past the allotted time to send it behind us—as a daily repetitive task, sometimes very quickly. Thinking like this, a huge hole appeared in my heart.

Isn't it life with a fluttering leaf between extreme happiness and pain? ”

"Liu Shiyu and I had a conflict, and he left in a rage. But in the end, he still hasn't grown up, maybe it's nature. Qi comes and goes quickly. It took less than half an hour to be back again. He watched the three of us playing cards and didn't speak. I asked him why he came back. He said that it takes four people to play bridge, and that you are missing one, and that I will come back and make up the numbers for you. I said that we were fighting the landlord, and Chen Tong also dropped two cards and shouted a pair of two, reporting two.

Now that I think about it, it seems that the time in Hanchuan in the past two days has been much happier than before. Maybe Xiao Zhenghong is no longer an iceberg, or maybe they and I are slowly growing. There's always a very special feeling. ”

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"Today I saw that person again. It really surprised me to meet in Hanchuan. For many years, I didn't even remember what she looked like. But just by looking at it, you know it's her. I never threw away those unbearable and painful things. They've always been in my bag, giving me weight invisibly.

She saw me too, but she pretended not to know me, cold as if there was only hatred between us. I'm crazy, maybe really crazy. I couldn't think of anything in my head, I didn't want to think about anything. I put on my women's clothes and went to the bar, but someone else was molesting. What's even more outrageous is that Xiao Zhenghong actually appeared.

It was as if my life had become a mess since that person left. It's like a curse, nothing goes your way. Even if the mess that I managed smoothly was only superficial, it looked smooth on the surface, and as soon as my hand was released, it was restored like a spring.

After the indulgence, I realized that the thread I had been holding on to was broken today.

I didn't tell Xiao Zhenghong anything, but with his cleverness, I may have guessed it, but I didn't say it. After making a fuss, my heart seems to be much happier. But this kind of thing in women's clothing, I won't do it a second time. ”

"Today I would like to write down the date to record this special day. But after thinking about it, I gave up again. There are days when instead of recording it to prevent yourself from forgetting, it is better to just keep it in your head. This will remind me not to forget this man, because there are not many people in this world who can remember him.

Whether it is for Liu Shiyu or him, I have the same feelings. Although they are not as good as Xiao Zhenghong, the two of them are also my younger brothers in my heart. If I make a mistake, I will give him a cover-up and pretend to be a parent to sign for him.

Since failing the college entrance examination, Xiao Zhenghong has locked himself in his room or in the study, as if he has to rely on books to fill his shortcomings.

Xiao Zhenghong stepped out of the house for the first time in 20 days. Except for being a little thinner, there seems to be no change, and the mental state is good. But when he got to the hospital and heard the sad news, his string broke. In an instant, all camouflage was washed away. He slumped on a hospital bench and buried his head in his arms.

I couldn't see the look on his face, but I could feel his sadness. When Chen Tong was pushed out, Xiao Zhenghong raised his head.

At that moment, I saw his tears. Growing up, I never saw him shed a single tear. He was never a god and had his own joys, sorrows, and sorrows. But I'd rather he never shed a tear in his life.

There were no heart-rending cries, no helpless actions, he just stared at the car. I know it's the pain that makes it so calm. It's too calm to bear. The aura around him changed, with an aura of destruction. Even I didn't dare get too close. ”

"Today is his funeral, obviously we were playing together in the bar a few days ago, why are we going to go into the earth in a blink of an eye?

When I was at the crematorium, Xiao Zhenghong was standing next to the fire, and I didn't know what he was thinking. Sometimes I was really worried that he would lift the lid and rush in. Liu Shiyu is also worried, the two of us are on the left and the right, ready to hold Xiao Zhenghong whenever something is wrong.

But he was calm, the whole time. When the flowers were laid, he touched the tombstone and whispered something that I didn't hear clearly.

The dead are gone, but the living should be encouraged. I engraved the name in my head. At least I won't forget until I go down to be with him. When forgotten by the living, it is death again. At least let him live in our memory. ”

Zhou Yu's fingers stopped and didn't flip again.

"Do you know that as soon as you left like this, Xiao Zhenghong made himself autistic, and almost returned to the way he was before." Zhou Yu took out a photo from his phone and whispered.

The photo shows a group photo of four people. He, Xiao Zhenghong, Liu Shiyu, Chen Tong.

"The world is often very unfair, and it is clear that so much suffering has been inflicted, and in the end people are taken away with them. We are powerless to resist, we can only keep struggling. Zhou Yu muttered to himself, "Maybe I'm going to accompany you." Maybe I'll stay here. Leave it all to fate. ”

Zhou Yu took one last look at the photo, then exited the album and flipped through his diary again.

Maybe thinking of Liu Tong, he suddenly felt that there was nothing to be afraid of. No matter where you are, you have someone to accompany you.

Since then, Xiao Zhenghong has no longer closed his door. The days seem to be back to what they used to be. Liu Shiyu is also not in Hanchuan. The few times I came to Hanchuan, I felt a little empty. It was as if the pieces of the puzzle that had been complete had suddenly become fragmented, with many pieces missing.

The more ordinary Xiao Zhenghong is, the more abnormal he is. I don't know what he's thinking, living the same life every day. It's not like him, what he's most tired of is not changing.

Once when I went to his house in the early hours of the morning, I looked outside, but I saw Xiao Zhenghong sitting alone on the balcony, holding a wine bottle in his hand, and the fire of cigarette butts flickering on and off. ”

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