In the dream-like night, I saw the beauty I longed for the most when I was young, and there is always a glimmer of hope in this world, which is replaced by our motivation in our tired life, guiding us forward little by little.

The appearance of some people is always unexpected, such as Qin Qianjing, who is blatantly standing in front of me at the moment, I have a feeling of suddenly dreaming when I see her again, but she is not like her before, now she does not have that impetuous and delicate feeling, and even makes people feel that she is very quiet, I don't know how her quiet illusion came about, I only know that at this time she stood beside Zhao Tian and got along with Zhao Tian very happily. For a moment I didn't know how to react, just looked at them blankly.

Zhao Tian said, "Be quiet, don't be restrained, sit quickly." She pulled Qin Qian to sit down, and then said to the aunt at home, "Make a cup of coffee." ”

My aunt looked at me, sighed, and turned to make coffee. I stood where I was, regretting that I shouldn't have gone downstairs, I knew that I should have been paralyzed to death in bed, and I had to come down to find it uncomfortable, but Sun Keyi was not there, this is Zhao Tian's home field, not to mention that she brought Qin Qianjing here today, she just pulled her luggage and moved in, and I shouldn't have a word.

Qin Qianjing smiled sweetly, "Auntie, don't be so polite. ”

Zhao Tian sat down and took her hand, looked her from head to toe, and said with a smile, "You said that you are a girl, why are you so good, the more Auntie looks at it, the more she likes it." ”

Qin Qianjing smiled shyly.

This product is still shy!

Just when I was amazed and shocked by Qin Qianjing, Zhao Tian's words changed: "It's not like some women at all, they have dead skin." ”

I listened silently, neither advancing nor retreating, just standing without embarrassment. But fortunately, Zhao Tian didn't continue the topic, she glanced at me, "Are you standing there as a zombie?" She seemed to be more and more unpleasant to the eye, so she simply turned away and put on a face that didn't care about me. I sat down when I heard this, and I didn't turn my face, and sighed at my humility, it was this family, they made me homeless, and my mother was separated forever, but I was so uncompromising, I didn't know how to survive without Sun Keyi.

I felt harsh when Zhao Tian said this, but I had to agree with her statement, for Sun Keyi, I may have responded to her sentence of 'dead skin and face'.

Qin Qianjing glanced at me, I couldn't tell whether her gaze was good or evil, I didn't know her at all at this moment, her arrival seemed to be just a stranger's visit, she disguised herself too well. I thought that was already the limit of Qin Qianjing's disguise, after all, she was such a free and easy person, I remember that she had always had one thing to say before, but I didn't expect her disguise to continue, and she came as soon as she opened her mouth, "Auntie, Ke Yi must have liked Miss Xu very much to keep her by her side, how can it be said that Miss Xu has a dead face." ”

Does this sound like a justification for me and a manifestation of her kindness? In short, I feel uncomfortable looking at her coquettish appearance, it's not as good as Qin Qianjing, who cried and shouted for love, and looked at death as home, it turns out that people can grow.

Zhao Tian said, "Like it? He was ignorant before, and he is not sensible now. Rest assured, he will one day understand who he should like. ”

Auntie came over with coffee, there were three cups of coffee on the plate, she first brought it to Zhao Tian, and then to Qin Qianjing, Qin Qianjing showed a sweet smile to her aunt when she took it, and whispered "Thank you." Auntie turned to me and handed me the last cup of coffee, Zhao Tian stood up, and she said, "Mom Zhang, when will I let you make it for her." "Auntie looked at me, she was such an honest person in this situation, she didn't know what to do for a moment, the hand holding the plate shook and even the coffee spilled out.

I looked at the white plate spilling a brown liquid in the shape of a splash, and I felt very uncomfortable in my heart, and I said, "Mom Zhang, I don't want it, you can serve it." ”

Mama Zhang looked at me for a long time, as if she couldn't react, I got up and took her hand and walked into the kitchen with her.

I closed the kitchen door and shut off the people in the living room, and for a moment I even thought how nice it would be if I wasn't in this world.

Zhang's mother put down the plate in her hand, poured the cup of coffee, rinsed the dishes and cups in the sink, and said, "You shouldn't be wronged like this." ”

I smiled, then shook my head, "Since I decided to live here, I should have thought that I would face such a thing, but it's nothing, it's just a few cold words, I can still stand it." ”

Zhang's mother said, "But Mr. Sun, he spent so much effort to keep you here, he should cherish you." ”

I said, "He doesn't want to." ”

Zhang's mother asked, "Miss Xu, are you sure you won't leave this time?" ”

I said, "No, unless it's Sun Keyi, he doesn't want me." ”

Zhang's mother said, "I'm really afraid, I'm afraid that you won't be able to stand the grievances and leave, Mr. Sun doesn't know how painful and remorseful he will be." ”

I can imagine how unwilling Sun Keyi was during the time I left, but I can't imagine how painful he was, in my memory he has always been the heartless person, but I remember that he has no heart and no lungs, maybe it's just that I don't pay enough attention to him, how can he become a heartless person in my memory. I didn't answer Mom's words because I couldn't guarantee that I would not leave someday in the future.

I stayed in the kitchen for a long time, and as always, ran away. It wasn't until the people left and Zhang's mother came in and told me that I went out like a rat on the street and ran upstairs. I think with Qin Qianjing's character, she must laugh at me again, how arrogant I was in front of Qin Qianjing before, and she was just dangling in front of me as a junior Sun Keyi, but now she has Zhao Tian's escort, how arrogant and arrogant she is.

When Sun Keyi came back, Zhang's mother probably told him about Zhao Tian's visit today, and he looked at me apologetically from the beginning of entering the room, and even looked at me cautiously, during which I looked at him a few times and didn't say a word to him, he was probably also conscious, cautiously leaned into me, and then asked, "What did my mother say?" ”

I know that in fact, it is obvious that I have nowhere to sprinkle my anger but to him, in fact, many times I am trying my best to restrain my emotions, but there are many times like this, and there are times when people who are restrained can't stand it. And Sun Keyi, his attitude towards this matter is cautious, the more he is like this, the more uncomfortable I feel, as if we are together to cause unnecessary burdens to each other.

I still didn't answer his question, and as for what Zhao Tian said, I don't think there is any need to get into his ears. Seeing that I didn't speak, he consciously closed his mouth, such an atmosphere is good for everyone to shut up, in fact, there is no need to communicate with the existing problems, he and I both know it, and when it is broken, it is embarrassing the other party.

I said to Sun Keyi, "You better go back to your room and sleep, I don't really want to see you now." ”

It's not that I don't know what kind of damage I will cause to him when I say such things, but sometimes people often want to say the words that touch the other party's heart the most and let the other party be bruised all over the body before they are willing, Sun Keyi and I seem to like this very much, and we will never stop if we don't hurt each other to the point of exhaustion.

He froze for a few seconds to look at my eyes from bright to dim, and he didn't seem to realize what I was saying. I avoided his gaze, didn't want to repeat what I had just said, and waited for him to leave. Sun Keyi stood still behind me for two minutes, and went out with his things silently, and when he left, he gently closed the door so as not to cause me a little trouble, when did he even get angry and became so gentle.

After Sun Keyi left, I put down the things in my hand, for a moment my whole body had no strength, my whole heart was trembling, I complained about his indifference, resented my own incompetence, the more I complained, the more resentful I became. I feel like I've lost everything I once had, and I'm afraid of losing the people I know again, especially Sun Keyi, I grew up with him, I did a lot of wrong things together, and I firmly believed in each other together, so I'm afraid of losing him.