Chapter 25: Emotional Rifts
With the slow advancement of time, Lin Shanghan's daily life is like a clockwork gear, slowly meshing one grid at a time, in accordance with the regulations stipulated by the school and teachers. Every day, I repeat classes and exercises, strive to improve in countless problems, and strive to explore in the endless unknown.
At this time, the learning was still in the foundation stage, and the teacher was tirelessly repeating this knowledge point every day, and he only talked about this example problem once, carefully filtering every small place.
The countdown to the college entrance examination on the big electronic screen in the garden is still stuck at more than two hundred days, and the decay day by day does not seem to feel anything. The head of the grade not only counted down the days, but also made a countdown by the second, and the passage of each second seemed insignificant in the huge more than 20 million seconds, and everyone was still in the stage of getting by.
One of Lin Shanghan's daily pleasures is to inquire about Li Linxi's recent developments from Deng Ziyi.
For example, Li Linxi posted a selfie during the break in military training today, secretly pretended to be sick and escaped military training to post a dynamic, went out to play with his roommates at night and took a group photo, started to learn dagger exercises today, joined a new club today, and so on. Li Linxi, like every girl who has just entered college, has an endless sense of freshness in her new life, has the most exciting passion at the beginning, and can't wait to share every new thing with her friends in the circle of friends, and every happy moment is worth remembering.
It's just that since Li Linxi went to college, she has never seen Lin Shanghan in her circle of friends, and even the people who like it below have not Lin Shanghan. Lin Shanghan seems to have become a person from the past, and he should have disappeared into his circle of friends.
And Lin Shanghan, who repeats his studies every day, is what he misses most every day is Li Linxi on the other side.
Although the Si people are far away, the sound is still there.
Lin Shanghan helped Deng Ziyi bring dinner every day when he had dinner, so that Deng Ziyi could tell him a little bit of Li Linxi's dynamics every day. Deng Ziyi is also willing to help Lin Shanghan, on the one hand, his good girlfriend Li Linxi, and on the other hand, his good classmate Lin Shanghan.
After the third class of the day, Lin Shanghan walked up to Deng Ziyi as usual and asked her what she wanted to eat today.
The difference is that Deng Ziyi is not in a hurry to talk about what he wants to eat today. Deng Ziyi blinked her eyes and showed an inexplicable smile, "Today I found that Li Linxi's dynamics are a little different." ”
When Lin Shanghan heard this, he thought that Deng Ziyi was hanging his appetite, "What can be different, don't think about hanging me." ”
Deng Ziyi hesitated, "I'm afraid you won't be able to accept it, so I'd better wait for you to come back and tell you after eating." ”
Lin Shanghan didn't take it seriously, "Yo yo yo, I won't bring it to you in the future if you lie to me, it's still the same today?" ”
Deng Ziyi nodded with a smile and did not speak.
After eating, Lin Shanghan carried the rice balls brought to Deng Ziyi and Zhu Zhishuang chatted all the way back to the classroom.
Lin Shanghan put the rice ball on Deng Ziyi's table, and then sat in front of Deng Ziyi, facing Deng Ziyi, "Say, what's special." ”
Deng Ziyi's expression suddenly became a little serious, and she said while nibbling on the rice balls: "You have to be mentally prepared, I didn't plan to tell you." ”
Lin Shanghan was a little impatient, "Say, don't ink." ”
"Li Linxi posted a selfie of her and a boy yesterday."
"Just the two of them?" Lin Shanghan was a little anxious when he heard this.
"yes, that boy is pretty handsome."
"Damn, what else?" Lin Shanghan became more and more anxious.
Deng Ziyi thought for a while, "Her accompanying text said that I met the handsome president today." ”
Lin Shanghan was completely angry at this time, although he was worried that Li Linxi would have a new love after he went to college, but based on his understanding of Li Linxi for so many years, she was not like that kind of random person. Maybe I misunderstood, right?
Deng Ziyi hurriedly explained: "Hey, don't worry, just take a selfie, it's not a big deal." ”
Lin Shanghan nodded, "Post it in QQ Space or WeChat Moments?" ”
"WeChat Moments."
Lin Shanghan was a little flustered in his heart. For the post-00s, QQ is still the majority, because QQ is visible to friends for everyone's likes, comments, and browsing, while the circle of friends is relatively private, and the different positions of the post indicate that the meaning of this dynamic is also different, so why Li Linxi posted it in the circle of friends is a question mark.
But Lin Shanghan still chose to believe Li Linxi. I have been with Li Linxi for so long, even if I want to divide it, it will take time. A dynamic really doesn't mean anything, probably because I'm thinking too much.
The real situation is that Lin Shanghan is still a college entrance examination candidate who wants to take the college entrance examination, and he can only study every day on the closed campus. On the other side, Li Linxi is a college student at a 985 university, and she comes into contact with different people on the open campus every day, not to mention that she is still a simple and beautiful freshman girl, and she will be coveted by many wolf-like senior single seniors. These are still unthinkable for Lin Shanghan, who has not yet gone to college.
In the evening of the third self-study, Lin Shanghan has been thinking about Li Linxi.
During the break, Lin Shanghan asked Li Yixuan: "What are the circumstances under which you girls usually post a photo of yourself and another boy to the circle of friends?" ”
Li Yixuan didn't quite understand why Lin Shanghan asked her this, but she still gave her own answer: "It depends on the situation, for example, if I say it, I may just think he is very handsome, I will post it when I take a photo." ”
Lin Shanghan was just about to breathe a sigh of relief, but Li Yixuan added: "But if I had a boyfriend, I would never post it." ”
This sentence tensed Lin Shanghan's nerves again. Lin Shanghan couldn't help but confess to Li Yixuan: "Eh, it's my girlfriend who sent a photo with her president." ”
Li Yixuan pursed her lips after listening, looked at the ceiling with her eyes, and thought seriously for a while, "Then you have to be careful, my classmate fell in love with the president of their club just after he went to college." ”
Lin Shanghan's heart was half cold when he heard this, "Okay, I'll go back and ask, it shouldn't be like this." “
Li Yixuan didn't say anything more, looked at Lin Shanghan with a smile as usual, turned her head and walked back to her position gently, leaving Lin Shanghan who was holding his head with one hand and falling into thought.
Lin Shanghan still decided to see the news for himself. But WeChat is different from QQ, if you don't get your own mobile phone, you can't log in at all, and there is no way to sneak to the Internet café, but what excuse do you have to find so that your mother can let you get your mobile phone?
Lin Shanghan returned home anxious, and simply didn't make any excuses, "Mom, bring me my phone." ”
Mom asked suspiciously, "What are you doing?" ”
"I'm useful."
"I'm sorry for you, hurry up and go to bed."
"I'll just use it for a while."
"If you don't say what's going on, I won't give it to you."
"What about Li Linxi." Lin Shanghan was a little angry, and his face turned red.
Mother Lin didn't ask any more when she saw Lin Shanghan like this, turned around and went to the room to find Lin Shanghan's mobile phone, and turned around to wash herself.
Lin Shanghan couldn't wait to open WeChat, find her star friend Li Linxi in the front, and click on her circle of friends.
There was nothing below but a black line, a blank slate.
"Could it be that Deng Ziyi lied to herself? Or did Li Linxi delete that news? ”
Lin Shanghan sent a message to Deng Ziyi, "Li Linxi deleted that news?" ”
Deng Ziyi on the other side was also playing with her mobile phone, "No, I saw it just now." ”
"Then why can't I see anything?"
"How is it possible, she just posted a post this afternoon." And attached a screenshot of Li Linxi's selfie dynamics of military training in the afternoon.
Lin Shanghan instantly became dazed.
Obviously, Li Linxi has set up the permission of the circle of friends for himself.
She didn't want to let herself see it.
Why? Why? Why?
Lin Shanghan trembled and sent Li Linxi a "Yes".
Li Linxi on the other side did not reply immediately.
Mother Lin in the bathroom also finished washing, and came out to urge Lin Shanghan to hand over her mobile phone quickly.
Lin Shanghan had no choice but to send a message to Deng Ziyi and ask Deng Ziyi to help him ask Li Linxi why he couldn't see Li Linxi's circle of friends.
From this moment on, this question completely occupied Lin Shanghan's mind.
Lin Shanghan didn't do any practice tonight as usual, and he was not in the mood to listen to MP3s, so he threw his schoolbag on the chair and lay on the bed with a blank mind.
After thinking about it for a long time, Lin Shanghan got tired and didn't think about it anymore.
This night, Lin Shanghan, who never dreamed, had a dream, and Li Linxi in the dream said to himself categorically: "Let's break up." And he kept begging like a licking dog, and finally helplessly watched Li Linxi leave without looking back.
The Li Linxi who has been chasing him for a long time, the Li Linxi who he misses every day, the Li Linxi who said that he wants to be with him all the time, the Li Linxi who smiles at himself, the Li Linxi who is flawless in his heart, the Li Linxi who has always supported him, will he really leave him?
Lin Shanghan didn't dare to think about it, and he didn't want to think about it. Lin Shanghan's liking for Li Linxi has gradually risen to the level of "love" over time.
The next day, Lin Shanghan's eyes were swollen because he didn't sleep well last night, and Lin's mother suspected him of secretly playing with his mobile phone last night.
Lin Shanghan was anxious to meet Deng Ziyi, and then know the result.
However, he walked a little slowly, and when he arrived at school, he was on the verge of being late, Deng Ziyi arrived very early every day, and Deng Ziyi had already started reading when he arrived.
finally stayed up until the end of class in the morning, Lin Shanghan swept away his fatigue and walked over to wake up Deng Ziyi, who had just fallen down.
"Hey, what did Li Linxi say?"
Deng Ziyi rubbed her eyes, "Ah, that, Li Linxi said that she was afraid that you would see it and affect your study, so she banned you and asked you not to think about it, she just sent a photo." ”
It's such a simple reason, so simple that it's a little false.
However, Lin Shanghan simply believed it, "Oh, that's it." ”
Deng Ziyi added, "I don't know if I should say a sentence or not." ”
"You say."
"Eh, I said don't be angry, don't tell Li Linxi, I'll tell you."
Lin Shanghan nodded.
"I think your boyfriend is in danger."
Lin Shanghan's heart trembled suddenly, but on the surface, he still pretended to be calm, "How is it possible, this is impossible"
Deng Ziyi spread out her hands and didn't want to say more, "I'm just saying it, who knows, we don't know what she's like anyway." ”
Lin Shanghan tried hard to control himself from thinking about Deng Ziyi's words, but "Your boyfriend is in danger" has always been in his ears and lingers.
Although Lin Shanghan really wanted to do something, and even wanted to go to her university to ask her face-to-face, but in the end he could only be helpless. I can only choose to believe in Li Linxi, and believe in the simple relationship they once had like a blank sheet of paper.
When there is a crisis of trust between two people, no matter who does it wrong, the relationship between two people will be tested.