Shu Xin continued to shake on the road until he was dizzy and had to find a place to rest, looking forward and the words "don't miss home" came into view, Shu Xin walked in quickly and found a place to sit. There are only three or two customers in Mo Xiangli, and judging by their clothing, they should be workers in the vicinity, after all, the main traffic of Mo Xiang's house is from the ordinary people, and the best business is in the morning, and there are relatively few customers at noon and evening.

The proprietress walked up to Shu Xin and asked, "What do you need?"

Shu Xin said: "Vinegar and dumplings."

The hot, fragrant dumplings made Shu Xin realize that she hadn't eaten all day today, and when she ate the first dumpling, Shu Xin thought of home, and thought of the scene of watching her grandmother make dumplings when she was a child, and tears came out of her eyes again, crying while eating, until she was left with her last guest.

The boss and the proprietress of Mo Xiangjia were talking in a whisper, and the boss said, "Is this girl the granddaughter of the old lady before?"

The proprietress said, "The old lady?"

The boss said: "It's the one I told you, our fellow villagers in Suizhou."

The proprietress said, "Oh, I think about it, it looks a bit like it."

The boss said, "What's wrong with this girl?"

The proprietress said: "I don't know, I drank a lot of wine, maybe I fell out of love."

The boss said, "Our girl has also cried like this."

The proprietress said: "They are all children, and I don't know what else to do except cry when I encounter emotional problems."

The boss said with a hippie smile: "Did you cry for me back then?"

The proprietress said, "Hey, you are not serious, who will cry for you."

The two of them continued to say this, but Shu Xin had already fallen asleep on the table, and the proprietress slapped a few times in the past and there was no response, and the proprietress said to the boss: "What should I do?"

The boss said: "She is a student at Westlake College, and she will see it later, maybe someone will call her and ask her friend to come and pick her up."

The proprietress said, "That's all there is to it."

An hour later, it was nine o'clock in the evening, and the proprietress said, "Close the door, there are no more guests."

The boss pointed at him and asked, "Then what should she do?"

The proprietress said helplessly: "What else can I do, I can't wake up after drinking so much wine, can I throw it outside when I'm drunk like this, let her go to Yuxin's room to rest for one night, and the girl won't come back at night."

The boss did not raise any objections, the two of them helped Shu Xin to Liu Yuxin's room, and after settling down, they began to pack up their things and close the door, Mo Xiang suddenly had a cold rain outside the house, and the boss said to the boss: "You call the girl and ask her if she is cold at school?"

The proprietress said, "How can the school be cold and have air conditioning."

When the boss heard this, he said angrily: "I've been to her school, it's very rotten, and it's air-conditioned, I don't know when it's air-conditioned, I really don't understand what kind of health school this girl has to go to."

The proprietress said, "The girl wants to be a nurse, and you don't know it."

The boss said: "What's so good about a nurse, the work is tiring, the treatment is not very good, and she is scolded at every turn, maybe she will be beaten."

The proprietress said, "You didn't object to the girl saying that she wanted to go to the health school."

The boss said: "Don't let him go, she cries against me again, it's all your habit."

The proprietress said, "Who made her father love her so much?" Okay, I'll call you and ask, you pack your things first. ”

When Shu Xin woke up, it was already eight o'clock the next day, and it was the bustling noise downstairs that woke her up, and her head still hurt a little after getting up, which was the sequelae of drunkenness. She found herself lying on a gentle bed with a large chinchilla and a few small chinchillas next to the pillows, and when she put on her shoes, she saw the shoes neatly arranged from high to bottom under the bed. The room was small, only about eight square meters, and across from the bed was a desk, on which were neatly arranged with books, and those neatly arranged books were all about medical care and love. A small pink table lamp was placed in the inner corner of the table, and there were several photos on the table, which was comfortably recognized as Liu Yuxin, the daughter of the boss of Mo Xiangjia. The walls are adorned with cute patterns, and behind the door hangs a calendar for December 2008 with a date circled in red pen and a gaze on the side, "Work hard, keep up!" Then he walked out comfortably.

After thanking the boss and the proprietress Shuxin, he ate a bowl of clear soup noodles, and paid for the dumplings last night, during which the busy boss suddenly asked Shu Xinyi: "How is your grandma?"

After a pause, Shu Xin said, "It's good."

Before leaving, the proprietress said to Shu Xin: "Girls don't drink so much alcohol outside, let alone get drunk, it's not safe outside, you have to know how to take care of yourself."

Shu Xin's heart is sour, I really want to have such a mother, seeing the boss and the boss lady busy in and out, Shu Xin feels that their family must be very happy.

On the way, Shu Xin took out his mobile phone and turned it on, the mobile phone showed that there were more than a dozen missed calls, most of which were made by Li Sisi, and a few were unfamiliar numbers, Li Sisi called for different time periods, basically every ten minutes, and the last call was at two o'clock in the morning, and the unfamiliar phone number was concentrated after two o'clock when it came in. And last night, Shu Xin put his phone on silent because of irritability, in addition to the missed call, there was a text message in the mobile phone, Shu Xin clicked on it, and the text message was only six words: Sister Xinxin, I'm sorry.

Then Shu Xin's phone rang again, it was the unfamiliar phone number, and the other party who picked up the phone was Li Sisi's attending doctor, he told Shu Xin Li Sisi committed suicide by cutting his wrists in the toilet last night, Shu Xin felt his brain bang, he was at a loss, hung up the phone and rushed to the hospital, on the way, he kept looking at the time when Li Sisi called him and began to blame himself: what if...... If I answer the phone, Sisi may not die, why should I put my phone on silent, Sisi must have a lot of things to say to me, she has no friends, and she was "skinned" by her boyfriend yesterday, she must be very sad, why should she commit suicide when she is already a dying person? How much Sisi hates this world, she must have regretted it before committing suicide, regretting why she left her parents so willfully, let her parents work hard to find herself, and lied to them that she was dead, Sisi must feel very sorry for her parents. I definitely want to see my parents again. Say "I'm sorry" to them in person.

Shu Xin imagined Li Sisi hiding in the toilet, frantically rummaging through her parents' phone with her mobile phone, she wanted to talk to her parents. But Li Sisi, who had told his parents that he was already a dead man, could find his parents' phone numbers in his mobile phone. Life is painful for me, I am not a good child, I am not a good woman, I am just a superfluous person, a person who will only hurt others, I will leave before I have time to enjoy the love of my parents, I will leave before I have time to repay my parents, I hope that my death will not be told to my parents, not to hurt them once.

The doctor gave Shu Xin the tens of thousands of yuan that had not been used, and looked at Li Sisi's cold and pale corpse in the morgue, she thought that Li Sisi had no pain or trouble at the moment, otherwise she would not have "slept" so peacefully and calmly.

The man in the suit walked into the morgue, he actually cried, maybe he was regretting, regretting why he took Li Sisi out of the mountain, Shu Xin took out an envelope from his bag with a blank face, which contained Li Sisi's last inheritance, Shu Xin put down the envelope and said: "Please do some personnel and transfer the money to Sisi's parents." With that, he left the morgue.

The face of this world is hateful, and this world is ugly.

Shu Xin returned to the rented room, this room has been "defiled" by the man in the suit and Li Sisi, why is the last clean place not left for me, she lay down on the sofa, she does not eat or drink, the temperature outside is getting lower and lower, and it snowed in Wuhan at the end of December 2008.

The "red child" came out of nowhere, got up comfortably and held it in his arms, and said in a trance: "You are the one who accompanies me to the end."

When I fell asleep and woke up again, the red boy was long gone, and I thought to myself: Have you even abandoned me, yes, you are not human after all.

Comfortably looking through the window at the snow that was falling thicker and thicker, the snow was so good, it covered all the filth, I should live under the snow. Shu Xin went downstairs and danced a yoga dance in the snow, and passers-by whispered to her, thinking that she was a psychopath, while Shu Xin continued to dance in her own world without distraction.

In his dreams, Shu Xin seemed to dream of Xiao Wei in the village, his eyes were full of brightness and clarity, making the world more peaceful.

On December 31, 2008, a student jumped off a building at Westlake College and committed suicide, and after a police investigation, he was ruled out as a homicide.