"Actually, I really don't want to say how Mina died, that's why I said so many unrelated things. But with that said, I still want to finish the story. Kan Wenyuan said again.

"Speaking out, it will feel better." Wu Dao said.

"Yes. Mina's unexpected pregnancy left me in a dilemma. Mina and I actually want to have a child, but Mina's physical condition is not suitable for pregnancy, pregnancy may increase the burden on the heart, and it is not good for both adults and children. I told Mina to get rid of the baby. ”

"In that case, it's right to knock out the child. Did Mina agree? ”

She didn't agree. Mina said to me, since this child is here, it is a life, and we can't just give up on him. She also said that she herself is studying medicine and feels that there is no problem with her body and that she can give birth to this child.

Seeing that Mina was so determined, I also had the mentality of giving it a try, maybe Mina could really give birth to this child smoothly, so I told her to observe for a few months first, and if there is a problem, I will quickly go to the abortion. ”

"It's not a way to do that."

"When I found out that Mina was pregnant, I asked her to quit her job from school, return home to focus on the baby, and go to the health center for regular check-ups. At that time, the class I taught was already in the second semester of the third year of junior high school, and the students were about to take the high school entrance examination, and I was still the class teacher, so I put most of the experience in my own class.

Each teacher in the graduating class prepared a large number of test questions for the students to do, and the students were miserable. I also suffered from it in my third year of junior high school and senior high school, and I once thought that if I became a teacher in the future, I would never let my students float in the sea of questions again, because that is not the life that a teenager should have, but when I really became a teacher, I had to push my students into the sea of questions with my own hands. ”

"The reform of examination-oriented education is a very difficult and long thing."

"Yes, although there are many drawbacks in the high school entrance examination and college entrance examination, they are very fair after all. The day before the high school entrance examination, I asked every student in the class to talk about their dreams and where they wanted to go in the future. Many students said that they would like to leave their hometown in the future and go to metropolises such as Beijing, Shanghai and Shenzhen, and they yearn for life there.

At that time, I suddenly understood that the distance in everyone's heart is different, for these children living in the vast land under the blue sky and white clouds, the bustling city they have never been to is the distance, and one day when they find that the distance is no longer far away, they may think of the forgotten land. ”

"For most people, the distance is always a foreign country."

"My establishment is in the high school in the county, and I will go back after the high school entrance examination. Many students in my class will go to that school to continue their studies after the high school entrance examination. I told the students that many of them will also come to high school to start a new life.

Everyone's ideals are different, and everyone's path is also different, some students want to go to high school, and some students don't. No matter what kind of life path we will take in the future, I hope that every student can live a wonderful life. ”

Wu Dao wanted to push Mina's death back as much as possible, so he said:

"That's a very good point. How did the students in your class do in their exams? ”

"After the results of the high school entrance examination were announced. Eight of my classmates called me and told me that they had been accepted into high school. I am very happy to be able to renew my relationship with these students. ”

"The happiest thing for a teacher is for his students to get good grades."

"During the summer vacation, Mina and I went back to town. Before that, the principal of the school where I worked was transferred to the high school where Wen Jing and I worked as the director of instruction. He was very satisfied with my work and Wen Jing's work, not only let me go back smoothly, but also let Wen Jing go back to high school early.

The three of us rented a van and went to town with all our luggage before finding a nice little yard near the school. We all thought that we were about to start a new and beautiful life, but misfortune struck suddenly. ”

"What the hell is going on?"

"High school teachers have to train every summer, Wen Jing and I go to the school every day to participate in the training, go back to the residence at noon and night, and during the day, Mina is at home by herself.

At that time, Mina was more than six months pregnant, and although her belly was not very large, there were no obvious problems with her body, and the fetus was developing normally.

On the afternoon of the penultimate day of the training, Wen Jing and I were attending the training as usual. Suddenly, a colleague came running in from outside and said that our neighbor's house was on fire and that the fire had come to our house, and that we should go back and have a look.

When we heard that our house was on fire, Wen Jing and I were very worried that something would happen to Mina. We left the school in a hurry and ran back to the rented yard. At this time, there were many people in the courtyard and on the roof who were involved in extinguishing the fire, and I saw that Mina was also joining in with a bucket, so I hurriedly ran over and took the bucket from Mina. ”

"Mina is pregnant, why do you participate in the firefighting?"

"Mina is a very kind and warm-hearted person, and when she sees something happening to someone, she will definitely help. I asked Mina what was going on, and she said that she was out in the shade, saw smoke coming from her neighbor's house, and thought it might be on fire, so she went to her neighbor's house to have a look.

There was no one in the neighbor's house, so she shouted outside that there was a fire, and when the people around heard it, they all came out to see what was going on. Some people went to get the neighbors, and everyone started to put out the fire, and by this time the fire had already ignited in our yard. She was fine, so she also helped to put out the fire, and said she was fine.

I thought Mina was really fine, but before she could finish speaking, she suddenly fell to the ground. I hugged her and called her name, her eyes kept closed. It dawned on me that my worst fears might be about to happen.

Wen Jing dialed the 120 emergency number. While waiting for the ambulance, I told Wen Jing about Mina's congenital heart disease. Ten minutes later, the ambulance arrived, and the doctor lifted Mina into the ambulance. I also got in the car, but the fire was not extinguished, so Wen Jing stayed to watch the house.

After arriving at the county hospital, the doctor asked me about Mina's course and medical history. I told the doctor truthfully, and after the doctor examined Mina, he told me that the county hospital could not cure Mina's illness, so we should quickly transfer to the hospital and take Mina to Ningyuan City Hospital.

He also told me that Mina suffers from congenital heart disease and cannot get pregnant at all, in the early stages of pregnancy, the fetus is still small, and it has little effect on the mother, and in the later stage, the fetus grows bigger and bigger, which will cause a serious burden on the mother.

I regret it so much that I should have let Mina get rid of her as soon as I found out she was pregnant, and I regret even more that I didn't do a good job of contraception and let Mina get pregnant unexpectedly. ”

Speaking of this, Kan Wenyuan couldn't help choking, and after a while, he said:

"The county hospital sent a car to take me and Mina to Ningyuan City Hospital, although the car drove fast, but the distance between the two places was too far, and when we arrived at Ningyuan City Hospital, it was already late at night. Mina was wheeled into the operating room, and I told the doctor that as long as I could save the adult's life, the child could do without it.

I didn't believe in ghosts and gods, but at that time I prayed to Heaven that my wife would be safe and that Mina's surgery would be successful. As long as Mina is alive, let me pay whatever it takes.

However, an hour later, the doctor came out and told me that Mina's operation had failed, that the child had not been saved, and that the adult had died. I couldn't believe my ears, and the doctor repeated what he had just said, told me to change my clothes, and took me to the operating room to see Mina for the last time. ”

"If you can't come back to life after death, you still have to mourn."

"I sat in the hallway all night, thinking about the days I lived with Mina, and what a sacrifice she had made to be with me! However, I failed to take care of her and let her die at the age of twenty-five.

I really regret why I went to the Northwest, if I didn't go to the Northwest, I wouldn't have met Mina, and she wouldn't have abandoned her family and eloped with me and passed away at such a young age. All this, all the sins are mine alone, why should Mina bear it! ”

"Don't blame yourself too much, no one would have thought it would be like this."

Kan Wenyuan was very excited, choked up and couldn't speak, and after a while he continued:

The next day, Mina's body was taken to the funeral home. Wen Jing came to the funeral home in the earliest ordinary car, and Mina's parents also came in the afternoon. Mina's body was to be cremated, and at my request, the ashes were divided into two parts.

Mina's parents didn't blame me, and I went back to Gaochang County with them to bury a piece of ashes. The other ashes, I carry with me. Wen Jing returned to Yingyuan County.

I stayed in Mina's hometown for three days, went to the health center where Mina and I first met, the path where we walked often, the mountains we climbed together, the river we saw together, the school where I used to teach, where Mina also studied elementary and junior high school, and finally I went to the health school where Mina used to study. After that, I returned to Yingyuan County. ”

"Why did you leave the northwest again and return to Qicheng?"

"Actually, on the night of Mina's death, I decided to leave the northwest and return to the east. After returning to Yingyuan County, Wen Jing took care of me carefully. Three days later, I told Wen Jing that I was leaving Yingyuan County.

Wen Jing asked me where I was going, said that school was about to start, and asked me if I didn't even want a job. I told her that I left my hometown and went to the northwest to pursue my dreams. At that time, I felt that my dream was far away, in the grassland. In the distance, I will gain peace of mind and find my love.

When I first saw Mina, I was sure that she was the one who had led me to the Northwest, the light I was looking for. Now that Mina is dead, my dreams are shattered, and the light is gone.

There is nothing I miss in the distance, I want to go back, to my hometown, to my parents. Wen Jing said that she wanted to stay with me, and if I had to go back to the east, she could come back with me.

I told her that Mina's departure made me understand that she is the only one and no one can replace her, and the reason why I divided Mina's ashes into two parts is to bury one in her hometown and bring the other back to Qicheng, where I want to guard her.

Wen Jing stopped talking. I left Yingyuan County without going through the resignation procedures, taking Mina's ashes and her relics with me. That's it for me. ”