Volume 1 Chapter 238 Her life is longer than mine
Seeing that she had always been so resolute, Chu Yingrou lowered her eyes slightly, took the lead in taking a step back, and stopped talking.
Now that he had reached this point, seeing that Mu Zixiao had fallen all the attacks on Chu Yingrou, Chen Yuan simply spread out the matter and told her.
Chen Yuan is a very straightforward person, even his voice is dull and serious, his face is blank, and his emotions are well hidden, "Actually, when you were first injured at the airport, the master's condition was already very bad. On the day you were hospitalized, he learned of your injury, got emotional, and suddenly fainted, so he couldn't get to the hospital to see you. ”
Mu Zixiao's pupils were constricted, her vision was dilated, and the position of her heart was aching. There was some emptiness in her mind, and she remembered what Chen Yuan said.
That day, she was hospitalized with a gunshot wound, and it was because Mu Zhennan did not go to the hospital that she stubbornly wanted to cut off the relationship with Mu Zhennan and the Mu family.
She thought that Mu Zhennan was disappointed in her, and thought that Mu Zhennan was angry because she was unwilling to get engaged to Shangguan Rui, didn't want to care about her, and didn't want to pay attention to her anymore, but she didn't expect that there was this reason behind it.
"Because of that fainting, the old man needed a heart transplant as soon as possible. Fortunately, I found the right heart in advance, so two days later, the operation was performed. Originally, the operation was very successful, and the old man recovered well, but this situation did not last for a few days, and the transplanted heart showed rejection. ”
Heart transplantation is a complex procedure, and post-operative rejection is unavoidable. Even if a heart transplant is successful, there is no guarantee that there will be no other side effects after the surgery.
Chen Yuan told her, "Actually, the lord wants you to get engaged to Shangguan Rui just to give you a future to rely on." He knew that his health was not good, so he tried his best to make arrangements for you. The prestige of the above official family in Pingchuan, and the marriage of the Shangguan family is a very powerful support for your future. However, you resolutely objected that day, and the lord was finally willing to agree with your opinion, but he didn't have time to say it. ”
Listening to Chen Yuan's words, her heart seemed to suddenly crack a crack, and more and more cold wind poured into it, making her heart become colder and more hollow.
Every word, every sentence, connected in series, is like a needle piercing her heart. This sharp pain spreads from the heart, to every inch of skin, to every trace of flesh.
When she was most hesitant, she was directly and mercilessly giving her this blow.
Holding the corners of her lips ironically, her lips were a little pale, she always thought that Mu Zhennan was greedy for the power of the Shangguan family, so she insisted on getting her engaged to Shangguan Rui, but she didn't expect that there was such a reason behind it.
Why didn't Mu Zhennan say it, so that she could misunderstand it so much?
Raising her eyes and looking at the closed door of the ward, it was only a door, but she and Mu Zhennan were in two distinct situations.
The kindness behind all this, after time and speculation, has turned into a very bad appearance.
And now she knows the so-called truth.
But what's the use? She didn't even have time to apologize.
Mu Zixiao listened to his words, leaned against the wall of the corridor, and suddenly laughed, her eyes flashed with tears but turned over with cold light, and she took a breath slowly, "So, you have been hiding it from me?" ”
Chen Yuan's gaze at her deeply was very complicated, and after a long time, he spoke stiffly, "...... It's the meaning of the lord. ”
In an instant, she forgot to breathe, and her whole body froze in place.
Hearing this sentence from Chen Yuan's mouth really made her irrefutable.
Does Mu Zhennan think she is irrelevant? Even major events like life and death have to be hidden from her. Or, Mu Zhennan thinks that she is a person who can't withstand setbacks?
forced away the tears in his eyes, and his difficult voice revealed an incomprehensible calmness, "I didn't tell the truth at the beginning, but now that I have found this place, you have come to tell me these things." Does he think that if all this happens silently without me knowing, even if I know the truth one day in the future, I won't be sad? Won't you worry? Won't feel guilty? Or do you think that you should be the ones who accompany him at a critical juncture in his life? ”
Chen Yuan was silent this time and did not speak.
Mu Zixiao then asked him, "Do you think what you just said to me is what you said about kindness?" And I, should I be grateful to you? Thank you for your loyalty to him? ”
Chu Yingrou, who was standing on the side, looked at Mu Zixiao with tender eyes, and finally spoke, "Zixiao, don't doubt Zhennan's concern for you. Zhennam: He just doesn't want you to worry. At the beginning, the attending doctor said that the success rate of the operation was relatively high, and he wanted to gamble. ”
Mu Zixiao took a breath, the smell of this hospital made her feel cold, and she closed her eyes a little tiredly, unwilling to go to see Chu Yingrou. "I don't want to quarrel with you right now, and I don't want to see you."
Chu Yingrou looked at her, opened her lips, and originally wanted to say something, but when the words came to her mouth, everything disappeared. Seeing Mu Zixiao's evasive eyes, she lowered her eyes, softened for a moment, and said, "I'll go find a doctor to take a look at the situation." ”
There will be doctors on duty in the hospital at night, and the doctor in charge of Mu Zhennan has set up a targeted treatment team to take turns to check the situation for Mu Zhennan.
Chu Yingrou knew the reason why Mu Zixiao treated her like this, and the words that were originally in her mouth turned into silence in the end. Now, I am afraid that Mu Zixiao will have more negative emotions because of her presence, so it is better for her to leave temporarily.
Walking in front of her, Chu Yingrou's figure always looked delicate, like a puff of light smoke, which could disappear with the wind at any time.
Chen Yuan looked at Mu Zixiao and stopped talking.
Mu Zixiao clearly noticed the gaze that fell on her body, and spoke, "If you are not at ease, you can go with her." ”
Chen Yuan heard her words and really followed.
She didn't bother to lift her eyelids to look at them again, and after a while, she was the only one left in the hallway.
There was no one present, and the hard armor on her body quickly collapsed at this moment.
Suddenly, her nose was sore, and she didn't have the confidence to cry.
Seeing Chu Yingrou here, she felt that the fact of everything that happened was very ironic, Mu Zhennan was reluctant to tell her about her illness, but let Chu Yingrou stay by her side all the time.
Is it because Mu Zhennan values Chu Yingrou too much, or has he always treated her as an irrelevant person? In the face of such a big matter as life and death, Mu Zhennan made the choice to exclude her!
However, after she found out, she couldn't help herself not to care.
Especially, when she saw Chu Yingrou, she would think of Qin Wan's death.
She can't be at peace with a man who killed her mother's murderer.
In the elevator room, Chen Yuan looked at the person beside him, with a complicated expression, and said, "We...... Do you want to keep it from her? ”
Chu Yingrou knew what he meant, and after a long time, she replied to him, "Since it's already in the past, let's stay in the past!" Don't tell her. ”
Chen Yuan breathed heavily and looked at her seriously, "However, she will resent you." ”
This is a fact, Mu Zixiao has always had a deep prejudice against her.
Chu Yingrou pulled the corners of her lips, with a shallow smile, her eyes looked ahead, and she seemed to see a more distant past through time. In her eyes as gentle as autumn water, there were rippling waves, sad and desolate, and she spoke softly, almost with a sigh, "Her life is longer than mine." ”
“……”
The gentle smile on the corner of her lips brought three points of firmness, "I hope that she can live a happier life than me." ”
If some 'secrets' are chosen to be hidden from the beginning, it will inevitably cause unspeakable suffering.
Chen Yuan retracted his gaze, "I know." ”
"I'm sorry." Chu Yingrou looked at him, "I know it's very unfair to you. ”
Shaking his head, "No." Chen Yuan retracted his gaze, hid the emotions in his eyes, and returned to his previous formidity, "I think everything is fine now." ”
The sound of the elevator door opening is especially clear at night.
Footsteps suddenly appeared in the otherwise quiet hallway.
Mu Zixiao sat on the ground, her head buried in her knees, ignoring it, and she didn't want to look at who it was.
A pair of delicate men's leather shoes appeared in front of her first, and then the trouser leg of the suit, and her gaze slowly moved up, and she saw Shangguan Jingyu's handsome face appear in her sight.
His hurry was a little embarrassed in his unfazed life, his eyes ached, and he choked up and said, "Why are you here!" ”
Shangguan Jingyu pulled her up from the cold ground with a heavy face, and looked at her carefully from top to bottom, and then breathed a sigh of relief, "You suddenly went out in the middle of the night, Aunt Mei is worried, and I am not at ease." Furrowing his eyebrows, he looked at her, "How do you turn off your phone?" ”
Thinking of the mobile phone that was still on the co-pilot in the car, Mu Zixiao replied truthfully, "The mobile phone is out of battery." ”
Shangguan Jingyu's frowning brows still hadn't let go, if it weren't for Lin Mo's display, the positioning on her car was in the process of moving, he would have thought that something had happened to her. The nervous heart hidden in his chest can only be really relieved at the moment when he sees her appear intact in front of him.
Stretched out his hand and locked her firmly in his arms, and said solemnly, "Mu Zixiao, do you know that you scared me?" ”
I don't know why, hearing him say this at this time, when he expressed his concern for her, her tears suddenly fell again.
Leaning on his arms, when the tears flowed, his body trembled uncontrollably, "Lao Mu has an accident, it's dangerous, I'm worried about him." ”
Shangguan Jingyu didn't speak again, and hugged her silently, her choked voice made him feel distressed to hear.
The emotions that were still holding on dissipated in front of him, leaning on his shoulder, and she sobbed, "Why didn't he tell me!" Why are you hiding it from me? He had such a serious surgery and I was really worried about him. ”
In front of others, she will not be exposed to several vulnerabilities. However, in front of him, she suddenly felt very sad.
Shangguan Jingyu suddenly understood, when he saw Chen Yuan before, he saw the desire on the other party's face and stopped, and vaguely felt that something had happened to the Mu family, but he didn't expect that something had happened to Mu Zhennan.