When I returned to the hotel, Juanzi was watching TV, wearing pajamas provided by the hotel, the dress was pink, I don't understand why I can always see this color today, she is too tempting to me, because I like this color very much, light without losing its true color, heavy but not strong, like a soft light, so that your heart is very comfortable. I put the wine on the table, looked at her, looked at the TV, the channel was constantly changing, I didn't know if her eyes would be fixed there. I brought her a bottle of joy, I don't know if she likes it or not, I don't know her yet. Then I said I'm going to take a shower.

The water from the sprinklers was pouring down like rain, and I was standing underneath, not knowing what was wrong with me. How did it come to be like this, and think about what you've done in the past few months? Drinking, sleeping, skipping classes, fighting, learning to smoke, getting used to connectivity, sleeping like death during the day. Begin to emaciate the face, begin to fall of the heart. Fu Yizhuo, what's wrong with you? How do you treat yourself like this, and who are you doing to show it? Who cares about you? Who cares about you? You're doing your own thing! Cheer up! There will be such a voice in my heart, but I don't want to hear it.

Life is not good, there is good wine, there are beautiful women, there is an elegant environment, how exciting life, you can meet all kinds of women, you can associate with whomever you want, you don't have to care about how others see you, you don't have to care about how the family will bear it in the future, you can let go of all kinds of things you can't do before, how comfortable life, this is the life of a single nobleman. Also oh, I'm single, I have capital. Because I don't care about anything, because I'm alone lol...

The water was still flowing, and it was hot and mixed with tears.

There was a knock on the door.

Have you finished washing? Come out for a drink with me?

Okay, right away.

Seeing my body frozen in the water, I don't know what I'm going to do when I go out, so let it be.

I put on my white pajamas, brushed my hair, and walked out of the bathroom. Juanzi didn't sit on the chair, leaned on the bed and sat on the carpet, and the wine was scattered. She looked at me. I walked over and sat down quietly.

I also found a random beer.

I'll open it for you. Juanzi took out the bottle from the drawer of the table and said to me.

Thank you.

We started drinking, first little by little, and then whole bottles. In the end, we found a large kettle, and then two large cups, and poured all kinds of wine into the kettle, and then we guessed riddles, guessed fists, and counted, and if we lost, we poured a glass and drank it ourselves.

When the wine was about to run out, we all looked at each other unconsciously, not knowing what to say. I lowered my head, feeling dizzy.

I don't know when Juanzi has sat next to me, and there is no sound.

We started kissing. Her tongue was soft, and her lips were a charming pink with a hint of cherry, perhaps the effect of alcohol. We kissed infatuately on the carpet, and the pajamas didn't know when they had fallen off, so naked and entangled together, and then we went back to the bed and started rolling, making crazy sex......

When I woke up in the morning, my head hurt like it was going to explode.

The sun was warm, shining through the thin gauze curtains on the bed, and I was the only one left in the room.

The big white double bed, the folded clothes lay quietly on the bedside cabinet, and there was no longer the mess of last night on the floor. Everything was very quiet.

Juanzi doesn't know when she left, and after leaving here, my life may have to be peaceful.

Pick up the phone and turn it on. The time is 11:23.

At this time, the bedside phone also rang.

Hello sir, do you still need to renew the lease of the room? Check-out time at our hotel is 12 noon.

Oh, no need, I'll check out right away......

Yang and I proposed to break up, and I asked her why?

She said that I don't love her anymore, and this is the so-called reason, and I can't accept it.

But if they are still separated, what can be done? I have tried hard to save the relationship between us, and even used my life as a weight. But in exchange for a sentence: "I don't love you anymore!" ”

I sent her a lot of e-mails, and I persistently went to that distant Tianjin, standing there alone without any direction, looking for the happiness that once I was.

"I don't know if you'll wake up from your dreams, strange dreams always wake me up. In my dream, my friend brought you news from afar, and it was a card I gave you before. In the dream, it seems to be a long time apart, just like when each other forgot about love, but what I brought was that you still kept the card I gave you, and I cried loudly!

I searched all the places we've been,

I stood on a high mountain and said to the wind: Tell me where she is, will she come back?

I stood by the creek and said to the water: Tell me where she is, will she come back?

Because I want you to love me as much as I still love you.

When the wind blows by my face, but there is no news from you,

Tears flowed along with the creek.

The things in the dream are fantastical and bleak, but they are derived from waking up from the dream,

When my roommate woke me up crying, I didn't know what to do.

They said I must have had a nightmare.

I nodded, but I didn't have the strength to sleep.

If there is really a chance of redemption,

I am willing to compensate with my afterlife.

I love you so much heartache,

Waiting but quietly coming, I don't know when it's the end,

At least I think I'll keep waiting,

Waiting for you to come back!

Let's live our lives well.

What is Love? Maybe you and I don't know the answer. "This is an email I sent to Yang's eyou e-mail, and it is another effort I am trying to redeem.

Love is a very difficult thing to figure out, I don't know what she is, think about whether it's material or spiritual, I don't understand, I just think her charm is very great, so that you desperately pursue the so-called love. Maybe it's just a feeling.

I don't think love is about looking for someone to live with you, it's about leaving that person, you can't live! Friends say that love is to understand each other, love each other, tolerate each other, love each other, and be considerate of each other, that is, to be transparent to each other, and to have a heart.

This is the happy life we envision.

Some people say that love is the ring that is solemnly given, some people say that love is the arm next to the pillow when you are asleep, and some people say that love is made to experience the feeling of breeze on the back frame of the bicycle. In fact, love is a cup of coffee, bitter with a rich mellow aroma; It is a piece of music that is long and long; It's a cloud, erratic; It is the sunshine, showing the edge; It is a flower, ephemeral and then apoptosis; It is an evergreen tree, proud of the cold and frost.

What love is, in fact, none of us can tell, each person's own opinion, it can be said that there are thousands of answers. Love is an eternal mystery, left for you and me to slowly find and guess.

I love Yang very much, but now I don't know if the feelings at that time are love now, at least I don't think I will be happy without her. I won't feel happy. When I broke into my world from the ocean, I thought that I had no reason to accept others in this life, and I worked hard to fight for it, and that road was so hard, so I cherished that feeling, and when she agreed to date me, I could really be excited and couldn't sleep all night, and boundless happiness hit your heart like a wave. But everything is gone, time is gone, and the old days are gone.

When I love, I really don't look at others and accept others, because I know that I have found the happiness I want. But I didn't really know what I could do. I used to think that life could be fixed like that, and we could live our little life in a stable way. But I didn't expect that there was such a big variable. Maybe I'm a doll played by fate.

Anne said, "Loved, hurt, and then parted and forgotten." ”

I don't think I'll ever forget it.

"I'm here, I haven't forgotten here! Didn't forget every place we met!

You ask me if I feel like I've lost a lot, I feel like I've lost the people who love me the most in this life and the people I love the most in this life! I don't know what's going on between us, you said you think I don't love you anymore, I want to tell you that I love you, it's the truest words in my heart, maybe my love for you is not the kind you want in your opinion, but during the time we were apart, I realized more about what kind of emotions I have for you.

You said that you were going to Tianjin to develop, because I didn't keep you, and you felt that I didn't love you anymore. But have you ever asked me what I think? I think you have a chance and have a better development, then you can go, and I will go to you in the future. You want me to give you the courage to wait for me, I want to give it to you, but I don't ask you for the right to wait for me, can you understand? Like you said, if you love someone, you have to give her happiness, maybe when we are together, I give you too much depression, so you can't bear it, so you decide to leave, I don't know if it's a reason. When you weren't there, I asked my friend how long a relationship is, and my friend said it was too profound and didn't know how to answer, and I asked him if there must be a reason why people who love each other should be separated, and he didn't give me an answer, I know that such a question is difficult to answer, and I am also wondering, am I wrong and unforgivable.

Looking back on the time we have walked together, I know that I have made many, many mistakes, it has always been you who tolerate me and give me encouragement, I am used to your obedience, I am very relieved to you, but I ignore your feelings, I continue to treat you with my machismo, treat things, I am too selfish. When I reflect on myself, I think about your feelings, you said that little women also need to be cared for, but I give you so little care. I was speechless, I could only hear my own heartbreak, but who cares? ”