A depressed man returned to the hospital from the embankment. At that moment, I wondered if I was going to be like this for the rest of my life.

I have never been a desperate person, I am willing to be a positive person to love my family and take care of my children, I don't want to be a grumpy person.

I suppressed my emotions and came to the ward. As soon as he entered the door, Lin Jia was receiving an infusion.

"You're here Fei Fei, how is the child?"

I didn't speak, I was more tired than I had ever been, and I sat on the escort bed in a daze.

After a while, I looked up at Lin Jia, "Have you eaten in the morning?" ”

"Well, I did."

"My mom and I had a fight at home. I'm a little upset. ”

"I can see it, I've worked you lately, and your state looks bad."

"Lin Jia, you know, I've never been afraid of hardship or tiredness, I'm afraid of being wronged." Saying that, I sat there alone, and I hid my face and cried.

I don't know if it's because of my illness or if I've been too tired lately, I always want to shed tears, as if I'm a three-year-old child, and I cry when I can't say it.

Lin Jia touched my head with one hand, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's me who is not good." ”

After crying, I felt better, wiped away my tears and got up to peel an orange for Lin Jia.

I shook my head, "I don't blame you, I can't blame anyone, all living beings are suffering." No one lives easily. ”

I handed the orange to Lin Jia's hand, "I'll accompany you to exercise after the infusion, I've been lying down for so long recently, you must exercise well." ”

Lin Jia nodded, silently sat on the bed and ate oranges, I took out the book from my bag, and read a book while taking care of Lin Jia. The room was surprisingly quiet, so quiet that you could even hear the sound of liquid dripping from the infusion dropper.

About half an hour later, the liquid was infused, and after pulling out the needle, I pushed Lin Jia downstairs to the garden to sit for a while.

"I've always felt that when I'm old in the future, when I'm old and can't walk, you will push me to walk in the garden, but I didn't expect it to be realized in advance now, and it's okay, we can adapt to it in advance." Lin Jia laughed at himself.

"Why think so far ahead, just look at the present?" I helped Lin Jia to stand up and walk slowly.

Lin Jia stared at me, "It's not like you. ”

"Oh? Not like me? So what should I have looked like? "To be honest, I'm not in the mood to talk about the future with him, since Feng Nannan appeared, I thought in my heart that the two of us have no future.

"It turns out that you, if I told you about the future, you would be excited, and now it seems that you are not too interested."

"Lin Jia, I"

"Shhh But I still shamelessly want to walk with you to the future that the two of us once thought. ”

I didn't speak, I quietly helped him, to be honest, I didn't really want that future anymore.

"There have been several times when I wanted to kneel down and tell you the truth and beg your forgiveness, but I was afraid that you would divorce me immediately, so I would rather hide it from you selfishly, and I could delay it for a day, as long as I could keep you by my side. I know you hate betrayal above all. Lin Jia pursed his lips and paused, "But I hurt you in the way you are most afraid of." ”

"Don't talk about that, it's not bad today, everything is in the past. Let's not talk about that. I said quietly.

"Feifei, I ......"

"I've said it all, you shut up." I forcefully told Lin Jia to shut up, I don't have such a good ability to recover from the pain. I'm not sure if I can still love this love.

"Let's just look at the present, if we still have the possibility of being together, then we will be together, Lin Jia, you must know that there is only one Feng Nannan in front of us now."

Since Feng Nannan appeared, there have been no other topics to talk about between us except quarrels, accusations and apologies.

"Let's go back," I said to Lin Jia, "Exercise gradually, don't get tired, I'm going to cook for you, what do you want to eat at noon?" ”

"Not too hungry, nothing particular to eat. I was inactive in the hospital every day, so I waited to eat three meals a day, and I felt that I couldn't digest it. Lin Jia said with a smile.

"Then I'll do whatever I want." I helped Lin Jia back to the ward, and then went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables.

At the entrance of the market, there is a big truck unloading Chinese cabbage, and in the winter of the north, cabbage is still everyone's favorite dish on the table. Smelling the rhizomes of cabbage, I suddenly saw me when I was a child, that snowy winter, the chimneys of the houses were emitting white smoke, and the eaves of every house would have crystal clear icicles.

There are big trucks parked on the side of the road selling cabbage and radish, and people in the north never buy cabbage one by one, but a whole package of cabbage, and a whole bag is dozens of catties when they are bought, hoarded at home, stewed into stewed vegetables, fried into hot and sour cabbage, eat rice, and eat noodles.

I stood in the crowd with a smile and watched everyone from choosing cabbage to weighing. The aunt next to me said to me, "Girl, don't just look at it, don't you know which one you want, come to the aunt to help you choose." ”

"Okay, thank you, Auntie." I smiled at my aunt.

"Why do you usually eat a lot of cabbage in your family, is it shabu-shabu or?" Auntie asked as she picked.

"What's the point?"

"That's natural, if you want to make shabu-shabu, I have to choose a big leaf for you, and if you fry and eat it, I have to choose a big cabbage."

"Auntie, I'll fry and eat, I'll eat a meal."

"Here, this one is a little smaller, if you can't finish a meal, you must put it upside down, so it's not easy to break, now young people go to the supermarket to buy, and there are not many people who come to the vegetable market, so there is not so much experience in picking and choosing." Auntie handed it to me while weighing me.

After paying the money and thanking my aunt, I walked towards the vegetable market.

Every time I pass a stall, the stall owner asks, what would you like to eat today? Walking down in a circle, it was even more dazzling than the supermarket.

"Girl, what do you want to eat?"

"I didn't think about it."

"There's Italian lettuce today, it's good to make a vegetable salad, it's delicious, do you want to buy a little?"

"Today's fish is good, how high do you see jumping, let's have a stew?"

In such a warm greeting from the stall owners, I felt that I had come to life. Look at the vegetables red, green, bright colors; Long and flat, with very different styles. No matter who comes, the stall owner can have a few words with you, from national events to what is the freshest food in the kitchen today, so I really came to life in this place with the strongest fireworks.

"Girl, don't just stand there and giggle, express me a bag, you see this fish jumping, come back and stew out the soup is delicious, you remember, when you go home later, you must put a few white pepper granules so that the stewed fish is fresh enough, if you love to eat coriander, sprinkle with coriander, it is even more fragrant."

"Lao Li, I'm bragging again, your crucian carp grew up drinking perfume, it's so fragrant."

"I'm not bragging, my crucian carp is definitely the best in the city, haha"

Choose the dishes, leave the market with a smile on your face.

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