When I woke up early in the morning and walked to the living room, I saw my mother-in-law who was cleaning up, because she had a little dispute with her mother-in-law last night, so she didn't talk to her mother-in-law.

"Xia Fei, I didn't finish eating last night"

"Well, Mom really can't eat it."

"Look at such a big bowl of noodles is wasted, now you go to work alone, you have a salary, you have to take care of Lin Jia, and two children, how big is the family's expenses, you are still so lavish It's not okay."

"Mom, it's just a bowl of noodles, I'll pay attention next time"

"What is a bowl of noodles, do you know how many people can be saved by this bowl of noodles in ******? You know a bowl of noodles, now some of the poor conditions at home may be a big meal at noon, you can pour it, cook noodles in the middle of the night but don't finish it, my son's money has been ruined, you go to the bathroom yourself to see, how many bottles and cans do you have? ”

My mother-in-law's voice was raised a little, I just woke up in the morning, it sounded very harsh, and it was useless to her, so I picked up the noodles and poured them directly into the toilet bowl in the bathroom.

"Look at you, why are you so wasteful, do you know if if your sister-in-law might be able to eat two leftovers."

Sister-in-law Sister-in-law is a sister-in-law every day, and I slammed the bowl on the bathroom floor with all my strength "Sister-in-law, sister-in-law, the most talked about in my ears every day is sister-in-law, can you shut up, I'm already very annoyed, I don't want to listen to sister-in-law." ”

I watched my mother stunned as I walked around her and swept up the pieces of the bowl.

"You....... You"

"What am I, what's wrong with me, isn't it just a bowl of noodles? Let me tell your mom, when I get married, these properties are jointly owned by both husband and wife, including salary, what's wrong with me buying bottles and cans? Am I wrong to take care of myself? I earn my own salary and spend it myself, what's the matter. I couldn't suppress the anger in my heart and yelled at my mother-in-law.

My mother has always taught me to endure, and the result of forbearance is that this group of people kick my nose up, I can't bear it, I don't need to endure it anymore. I simply took advantage of today to spit out all the words in my heart: "Mom, listen to me, I've hated my sister-in-law since I got married, and I hate you, what's wrong?" I just hate you! ”

I yelled at my mother-in-law. "You have to tell me every day, you turned on the switch of the electric blanket for my sister-in-law, she was moved to cry, you came to our house and she cried with you in life and death, don't say anything else, just say that you came to our house, what's the matter? Now your second son's house is not your home? You have come to our house to suffer? What are you two crying about? I've always been funny, and I really want to ask. ”

My mother-in-law didn't speak, she must not have thought that I would say something like this: "You keep telling me that my sister-in-law pays you a thousand yuan a month for living expenses, you don't want it, she insists on giving it to you, I just want to ask, what are you two doing about private matters?" Do you want me to give you a thousand dollars a month? Or show off how capable your eldest daughter-in-law is? You always say that she is very busy every day as a teacher.

"What about me?" I paused and continued, "I leave every morning, you know that I go home after the operation, I can eat lunch less often, I can go to the toilet less often, and I can go home on time less often, I want to ask you, why don't you feel sorry for me?" ”

I said all these words in my heart, not to mention how happy I was.

I'm going to wash up and deliver mangoes and butter to school later. The morning time was very nervous for me, so I quickly got the mango up to wash my face and brush my teeth, followed by a small cream, and then went out with the child without saying hello to my mother-in-law.

The Tao is not the same, I have nothing to say to her, I endured it again and again for Lin Jia's sake before, and now I am at this point, so there is no need to endure it anymore, right?

On the way, Mango asked me, "Mom, why are you arguing with grandma?" ”

I said, "Because grandma said the wrong thing, in the future, Mango must not find a man with two children at home." ”

"Why?" asked Mango again.

"Because two children are bound to have two daughters-in-law, your mother-in-law is prone to uneven bowls of water."

"What is a mother-in-law?"

"It's your husband's mother."

"Then why is she uneven, because she is old and the water is too heavy?" Mango asked, puzzled.

"Okay, okay, don't ask anymore, it's almost late, Mom doesn't have time to answer so many questions for you." It was a bit of a struggle for me to answer questions for Mango while riding an electric car, and I was afraid that my habits would affect her in the future, so I decided to jump away from the topic.

After Mango and Cream went to school, I didn't rush back to the hospital, but rode an electric car to the edge of the city 5 kilometers away to watch the train, every time I was in a bad mood when I went to school, I came here to watch the train, the train flashed on the elevated tracks, the farmland below, the whole place was empty, so that I could relax quietly.

I'm here again, I haven't been here for almost 10 years since I last came, and I came here today, and it really came to me suddenly.

Because it was winter and there were no crops in the field, I sat on the embankment and sat barefoot cross-legged, not feeling that it was winter at all. I took my phone out of my pocket and turned it off, I didn't want to care about Lin Jia's mother and son today, because I really felt very depressed because I had been arguing with the two of them since the evening.

I thought that the marriage was that two people became one person, and the two families also became a family because of these two people, but I never thought that there would be a situation where Lin Jia would never have reason to talk about in front of his mother, and he would always have to be dominated by his mother.

Looking at the bare fields and the absence of green wheat seedlings and the sound of cicadas on the trees, it seemed that the whole person did not feel the depression in my heart getting better, and I began to pace up and down the embankment, not at all afraid of what to do if I fell.

The cold stone made my feet hurt, and the soles of my feet were a little hot, I stopped, and found that because the stone feet had been broken, I stayed there, and my heart was in turmoil, I don't know when I started to have such masochistic tendencies, I don't know why I had to bleed myself to stop my anger, is it because of anxiety?

Thinking of this, I felt depressed, and suddenly felt like a tragic heroine, constantly telling my grievances with my mother-in-law and Lin Jia, what happened to me? I suddenly couldn't understand myself, I rubbed my face vigorously, because I hadn't slept for too long, and my whole mind was confused? Or is it because of something else?

To be honest, I was a little uneasy, because I decided that this was not me, at least not the real me, and I wanted to change back to the original me, and in an instant a sense of powerlessness of collapse hit me, is this me? I do not know.

How do I get myself back to my old self? I was so irritated that I couldn't stop for a moment.