The only difference is that the brain does not have a clearing key, and it cannot be re-emptied like a system.

The people or things you meet and know in your life will leave a mark on your life. Some make you happy, some make you melancholy, all of them carry too many memories, and sometimes the weight is too much for me to bear. I looked at the photos I had always carried with me and all kinds of things buried in the depths of the box, the youthful and childish face and emaciated body, and those immature fantasies and loves, all in that youthful season, let me put it in my pocket, and carry it there when I walked there, let the memories and thoughts travel the world with me, no matter how I looked at them, it reminded me that these were real things, and I didn't care what the result was now, just like thoughts and expectations, Each piece has an inseparable nostalgia and an indelible memory of both pain and pleasure.

How do I forget and give up? The eldest husband has to give to get it, and I began to examine it. I threw away the pillow that was given to me by Yang and had been with me for four years, and the branch that I had cut with scissors was broken and thrown away; I threw away the so-called perfunctory gifts of my shells, crushed them with my feet, and threw them away; I put down the tooth jar that had been with me for four years and put it in its place; I left the manuscripts that recorded my bitterness and put them in their place; I left those damn memories and nostalgia with me and put them in place.

Everything, because time has not yet healed me. They all said I was stupid, so stupid that I couldn't smile; They also said that I was happy, so happy that I was jealous. I think silly is the ultimate of love.

Youth evaporates in the ocean of memory, and the sky condenses into a painful blue. It turns out that love can wither, or it can enter the truth in an instant. However, if there is love, why torture each other, and since there is love, why make people crazy? Is it just willfulness and recklessness in mutual destruction? No, it's not like that......

I had lust on a rainy night, and I always thought that lust was the source of seduction and ambiguity, or that spiritual love was separated from the body, and I could not let go of the doubts and insecurities I had about love. I met Xiao Dong, met Zhu Boyan, spied on Liu Fang, longed for Gao Wei, missed Xiao Na, the unattainable Yuan Jie, and those indulgences in the youth past, in the end, I was like a mummy that was drained, it was all empty. Maybe I'm not the only one who is obsessed with love, and when I return to the original point, my life is like an eternal night. Loving someone doesn't necessarily have to have, I don't think so.

To have nothing is to have nothing.

My life has become a stagnant pool, with nothing to do, nothing to do, or an empty hunger.

Gu Laomao called me and said that he was also mixed with Beijing, and that the uncle of his Ministry of Railways had found a company for him, which was regarded as occupying a foothold in Beijing, and invited me to have time to play. I was bored, so I discussed it with Huzi, and called Liu Wei directly on Saturday and asked her to help book a train ticket to Beijing, and we went straight to Beijing.

The place where Gu Lao Mao lives is in the Wanliuyuan community on the edge of the South Third Ring Road, which is his uncle's house, and when Huzi and I went, Yuan Erye, Zhu Desan and Da Liu Yang had been fooling around around at his uncle's house for a while. He told me and Huzi that they would mix in his uncle's house every day after work, drinking, playing cards, and talking about girls, as if they were drunk and dreaming of death.

A few of us had dinner in a restaurant outside the community, looking at this bizarre capital, scanning all kinds of men and women, here is full of temptation, I think in the future I should almost do a North Drift in Beijing, drifting success or not, at least with these buddies, it can be regarded as a happy one.

Of course, it is impossible for a group of men not to talk about women together, Gu Laomao, Yuan Erye, they are single, and they have been more enthusiastic about going to Wanfeng Bathing City recently. Liu Yang's girlfriend is also called Liu Yang, we are both high school classmates, and now we are nurses in Beijing 306 Hospital, the two have a good relationship, and they are ready to talk about marriage. As for Zhu Desan, he is getting along with the daughter of a professor in the school, and it can be seen from the state of drinking with us that the daughter is more expensive, a phone call, a text message urging Zhu Desan, a will let him do this, a will let him do that, we all think that Zhu Desan belongs to a typical person with serious masochistic tendencies, if he finds a woman who does not abuse him, he is uncomfortable, and he has to rush to let people clean him up, and I don't know which tendon is wrong. But then again, turnips and cabbage have their own loves, and we can only envy them.

At one o'clock in the morning, I stood in the open space outside the hotel, took a deep breath of the cigarette in my hand, and then called Liu Wei tremblingly, because in Beijing I can think of the only girl, waiting for the phone to ring for five seconds, there are familiar songs in the ringtone, I think these seconds are very long, suddenly there is a feeling of suffocation, I don't even know what to say to her, at midnight, it may not be a miss. The phone rang a few times, but she didn't answer, so I hung up the phone and went back to the private room to drink with them until three o'clock in the morning, and everyone drank more.

Out of the hotel, we went to the legendary Wanfeng bathing city, which is also considered to let me see the difference between the bathing culture of the capital and the bathing culture of Shijiazhuang, omitting 10,000 words here.

The next day I was still sleeping, and Liu Wei's phone woke me up. She asked me what was the matter with calling her in the middle of the night last night, and I told her in a daze that I missed her, so I called her.

She said to me in disbelief: "You don't make fun of me, I don't eat this." ”

"You think I'm joking with you, I'm really not joking with you, I just miss you, I want to see where you are." I don't think I'm lying.

"Besides, I don't believe you, I'm in Beijing."

"I'm telling the truth, why are you lying to you, I'm also in Beijing."

"You're not here with your buddy, are you going to play for a few days?"

"Well, come to Yuan Erye and play with them for two days, have you gone to work? Didn't you come to me for work? ”

"What are you looking for, I'm not as comfortable as you at work."

"When are you off? You said that I have come to Beijing, and you still don't come to see me, it's not interesting enough, why don't I go to see you and go to the waiting hall to find you? ”

"Don't come to me, the last time you came, my colleagues always asked me who you were when they saw it."

"Then you won't let me go, then you say let's do it, I miss you so much."

"Stop, don't fool me, I'm off the day shift today, and I won't have anything to do tomorrow."

"Oh, you're off work tomorrow, that's good, I'll play with you, can you take me to visit Beijing?"

"You seem to have come less, and you still use me to take you to play?"

"I didn't come here much, it's not mainly because I want to meet you."

"I'm not poor with you, I'm at work, you can have fun."

"Oh, well, I'll call you later." After a flicker, I didn't know what Liu Wei thought, so I hung up the phone and went back to sleep.

By the time we all got up, it was already afternoon, so we simply ate a buffet in Wanfeng. Huzi had to go to work on Monday, so he packed his things and prepared to go back to Shijiazhuang, he asked me if I would go back, I thought that there was nothing to do when I went back, so I planned to play in Beijing for two days, mainly because I still wanted to meet Liu Wei.

A few of us said goodbye as soon as we discussed, Liu Yang went back to Zhongguancun, Yuan Erye went back to Daxing, Zhu De returned to Xizhimen three times, and Gu Laomao and I went to Beijing West Railway Station to send Huzi.

On the way, I called Liu Wei and asked her to help buy a train ticket to Shijiazhuang, and when the three of us arrived at the waiting hall, I went to her to get it.

We went to Beijing West Railway Station and passed the security check, and I led them to the ninth waiting hall to find Liu Wei. She was the most temperamental when she was wearing her uniform, with a well-proportioned figure, a sweet smile, and a standard standing posture, standing at the door of the waiting hall waiting for the three of us. Seeing Liu Wei from afar, Gu Laomao and Huzi began to envy them, and sneered at me about how beautiful this girl was and how good her figure was. I ignored them, took the ticket with Liu Wei, and sent Huzi to take the bus.

Sending Huzi away, I looked at the time, it was almost five o'clock, I asked Liu Wei what time she got off work, she said six o'clock, it happened to be almost time to get off work, Gu Laomao and I were waiting for Liu Wei to get off work.