If I am a persistent person, I don't think I can talk about feelings anymore, if I use feelings to explain attachment, there is another word to describe stupidity13. Then I'll use other words to describe it, such as reading books and watching TV series. I feel like I'm very good, a book or TV series that I like, I have to finish it in one breath in black and white, as long as I'm still sober, I have to insist, so I didn't move in front of the computer for 2 days and a night to finish watching "Struggle", it feels weird, and my heart is a little impulsive, after reading it, I suddenly feel as if I should change my lifestyle, so I immediately washed my face and brushed my teeth. Ran out to eat, it was already 7 pm on the second day, I think I'm really stupid 13, oh, I didn't fast forward this TV series at all.

At the beginning of the plot, Gao Qiang's death caught me off guard, and it seemed a little unfair to face death at the age of youth. But for those of us who are in the ivory tower, a diploma really means everything, and no one cares what you have learned in the past four years, nor how much ability you have, all you have to show is a diploma. This is the injustice of society, but it is also a harsh reality. Later, no one mentioned Gao Qiang again, but I never forgot him, watching the protagonist in the play grow up, quarrel, and fall in love, I would think what would happen if he was still strong and alive? But the "if" is meaningless, and all the fantasies are like his graduation certificate, which has not been settled.

And me? I couldn't help but ask myself. Look at the life I'm living now, I've been idle all day with nothing to do, I've learned to smoke, I've learned to drink, I've learned to play online games, I don't have any goals, I don't know what I can do tomorrow, I don't know what I've done today, I really haven't planned for myself.

I hope that I can become a strong and independent person, not relying on others, just relying on my own efforts, but unfortunately I am not as strong as I imagined, maybe this is the characteristics of our generation of post-80s, I want to prove my strength to everyone, but underestimate the power of this society. We live in a space of our own design and are a little bit autistic. In "Struggle", we can more or less see some of our own shadows, everyone has a period of hesitation, everyone has a time when they fall to the trough, everyone has something they want to grasp but can't do anything about it, and in the face of the unknown future, there will be confusion and incomprehension. Graduation is coming soon, what are we going to do? We come from a rural area, our college dream has come true, and in another year, we should also struggle. That kind of urban romance is too far away from me.

Utopia is the most beautiful society in human ideology, not just an "ideal". Friendship, love, and responsibility in utopia are all difficult to achieve in real society. Everyone has their own selfish side, maybe your current happiness is based on the pain of others, a few young people in the abandoned factory to find their heartbroken happiness, at the same time, this heartbroken utopia also pushed the story to a climax. Coming out of the heartbroken utopia, their journey of growth is vivid. In the years after graduation, this group of young people has learned about the interaction between people and society through their careers, and experienced the true meaning of dreams and reality, responsibility and friendship through love. They experienced the waves of life and love, sometimes confused and sometimes painful, but they fought hard and left the most sincere smiling faces in their youth. Without heartbreak, it would not so truly reflect the sincerity of emotion, the sincerity of friendship, and the sincerity of dedication. After watching "Struggle", although the delicate brushstrokes can move people, a series of videos will leave more indelible marks on our minds. Each of us has a dream in our hearts, and we are running around and spending our youth for this dream. But one day, the dream woke up and came true, and then I looked back, and my face had already changed.

The winter vacation was a time of endless food and wine, and I also returned to the economy and trade after the end. Of course, Aunt Xia Yufei found me the job, and I quit my job, so I can count it as a full month. The company was generous and paid me a salary. I invited Xia Yufei to eat Western food in the city, which was kind of thank you for her help. Seeing Xia Yufei, my heart was calm and there were no waves, although we often sent some text messages during the holidays and had nothing to call, but when I thought of her vacation with nowhere to put it, the days spent in the hotel, my heart was inexplicably a little sad.

Xia Yufei took my arm and walked on the streets of the city, we went to the mall, watched the movie, drank wantonly, we all laughed very presumptuously, but I always felt that all this was an illusion, it was all the forced laughter we tried to pretend, and there was always an invisible barrier in my heart, so that she could not reach my heart. Or maybe it's also an instinctive reaction, a rejection of someone who is so much like me, and I can only find the reason in this way.

After I stayed with Xia Yufei for a while, I told her that I was tired. She cried and asked me why? I didn't know why, I used the most shit reason to tell her that we weren't in character right. She leaned against the guardrail by the lotus pond, trembling, and I felt a little distressed when I saw her crying.

I shouted that Cortana and Fan Xiaobo would go to Kim Hans in the city to eat barbecue. The taste is beautiful, and life is beautiful. I'm envious of their happiness.

During the winter vacation, Cortana and her boyfriend Jiangshan, after all kinds of experiences, the sound of the waves is still the same. Cortana still has an important role in my life, and she has a special position, and she has changed as she should. Fan Xiaobo said that he was also preparing for the graduate school entrance examination. I lost my direction, and I didn't know what I wanted to do, so I had to drink.

After eating, the three of us laughed on the neon-lit street, and I walked fast, perhaps accustomed to the fast-paced life, as curious about everything. Watching everyone in our iron triangle grow and change, is it all transformed by love?

Yuan Jie said that people who love me dare not be with me, and those who are with me are not people who love me. But she didn't know that the person I loved didn't love me. It's like I don't know how to answer a lot of times, is it the best thing that I can't get, and I don't know how to cherish it if I get it? It's the same question, isn't my love love? In fact, I don't know if I have love anymore, and many quiet nights wake up thinking of many people and many things. There will also be a sudden thought that everything is starting to be so boring. Who am I sorry for? Who is sorry for me? I don't want to hurt anyone, and I don't want to be hurt anymore. Many things are so helpless, and many things are so bleak and sad.

If I hurt someone, I really want to be forgiven, I'm a collection of contradictions, I'm really sorry!

Life is so light that there is no way to remember it when talking and laughing. Therefore, it is better to be happy and happy in your lifetime, and adapt to those who cannot change, and round your edges and corners, and you can meet the source everywhere. And the way of advocating individuality and pursuing oneself cannot go on my path, so for a person like me who has two sides of the personality, I must find a way to weigh and seek relaxation. It's not the high-sounding excuse I'm looking for, or is it.

I held Xiao Na's arm with my left hand and Fan Xiaobo with my right hand, and walked stupidly on the way back to economic and trade.

The moonlight was bright, the wind was cold, and there was a long winter of snow in the cold corner.