At one o'clock in the afternoon, we collected the tickets at the airport, and when I got the tickets, I suddenly found that the seats of the two tickets were not next to each other, and I was inexplicably upgraded to first class, or for other people, this is an exciting thing, but I didn't feel the slightest bit happy. Holding the ticket in my hand, I was short of breath and began to feel anxious. Lin Jia tried to stabilize my mood, let me take a deep breath and relax, to find a solution, but in just a few minutes, I had already made the neurodermatitis on my body due to anxiety become particularly itchy, I scratched hard, as if as long as the skin was broken, my anxiety could be relieved.

Lin Jia comforted me and said, I will just take the ticket and change seats with the person next to me, and things like first class to economy class should be possible. When I got this sentence, I gradually calmed down, and I gasped for breath, as exhausted as a person who had run 5,000 meters.

Like a frightened bird, sitting in the waiting area of the airport, motionless and alert. Lin Jia hoped that I could relax, but it didn't happen.

got on the plane, because the passenger next to Lin Jia hadn't boarded the plane yet, so I could only ask the first-class flight attendant to help me solve this problem. I was notified about a few minutes later that I could change my seat. When I sat down next to Lin Jia, I suddenly burst into tears. There was no reason, it could be because of grievances, or it could be because of the hatred of my own anxiety, which made me cry uncontrollably. In order to quickly calm my emotions, Lin Jia explained the situation to the flight attendant, asked for a glass of water, and asked me to swallow a metoprolol. After taking the medicine, I gradually stabilized under the effect of the drug and psychological suggestion, and I don't know how long it took for sleepiness to gradually hit and I fell asleep peacefully. When I woke up again, the route reminder had already told me to arrive in Yunnan.

Get off the plane and meet the tour guide and arrive at the hotel in Dali by car. The single-family villa hotel makes me feel inexplicably relieved that I don't have to meet with the surrounding tenants and have my own space to move. On the terrace on the second floor, looking at Cangshan surrounded by clouds and mist, my tense mood finally relaxed.

Look at Cangshan and Erhai Lake in Dali, ride a bantam horse in Lashi Lake, and listen to the whispered chanting in the quiet bar in Lijiang. Everything has softened, and after taking the medication, I am no longer so easily excited, and I am more and more peaceful, and everything seems to be developing in a better direction.

No nightmares, no insomnia, no anxiety or even laughter because of small things. Days like this made me feel like I was getting better, and I even thought that depression wasn't so terrible at one point. I couldn't realise how troublesome it was, it was chasing me like a nightmare, leaving me with nowhere to hide.

Two weeks passed quickly, and I happily called my mother, thinking about picking up the mango home when it landed. I had a brief communication with Zhang Teng about my condition and explained to me to adjust the dosage of the medicine. This long-lost lightness and exhilaration, I felt like every pore was opening up to breathe, and I was desperately trying to absorb the sweetness of the air like a seed rooted in the soil in spring.

When I got home, I had a good dinner with my mother, and my mother looked at me with confidence, and the big stone in my heart fell to the ground. The mother smiled with tears in her eyes and said, "It's good to be back, it's good to be back, it's really old and useless, and I always want to cry." Don't laugh at me," said my father, "why don't you laugh at you." After eating, he and Lin Jia took the child back to their home.

Turning on the lights and looking at the house instantly made me feel that if I really jumped off the building, I think it would be a different scene. I couldn't do anything more to increase my sadness, so I quickly sorted out my mood and held my daughter's hand, and slept extra sweetly this night.