Twilight buttoned the starlight button one by one.

In the cold wind, someone broke the path on the wasteland one by one and stuffed it into the hearth, warming the night of wandering. In the concrete forest, I had no direction, the flickering neon lights kept beating in front of me, and the wide road, the bright street lights, stretched into the distance, but they couldn't show me the way. Stepping on the land of Tianjin, in such a bright and active emerging city, I am a lonely passerby, and I don't know why I decided to come here so persistently, to this strange city full of hatred. Is it because the ocean is here? I think that's enough for one reason. When he got on the train to the north, the sadness kept spreading, and he curled up in the corner of his seat, holding the phone and exchanging text messages with the unfamiliar number, and then called the heartache to defeat him completely.

"I took the 9:56 train to Tianjin, and I arrived at about 5 p.m. Can you pick me up when you have time? ”

"Huh?! What are you doing in Tianjin? I have to go to work at night. ”

"I want to meet you, and by the way, give you back what you left with me."

"But I don't want to see you, those things don't matter to me anymore."

"Why? Even if you separate, don't you even have friends? Besides, I'm in the car, did you tell me to jump? ”

"No, I just don't want to see you. Whether or not to be friends is not a decision for me alone. It has nothing to do with me whether you jump or not. ”

"Are you a foreigner? How did you become like this? This is not the Yang I have loved and still love, who are you? ”

"I am who I am, what have I become? People have to change. What do you say this for? I don't love you anymore. ”

"But I still love you! Do you think the reason for our separation is appropriate? Could it be that the answer you gave me was your simple sentence that you don't love anymore? ”

"There's nothing out of place. It's no longer possible. ”

"How did you become so ruthless? Let's not talk about these for now, can you pick me up when I go to Tianjin? ”

"I have work to go to work at night, and I can't get out of it. What's the point of coming to Tianjin? ”

"What's the point? You tell me? I want to have a good talk with you. Can you give me a chance to redeem myself? ”

"It's no longer possible, we're done. I have a boyfriend. ”

"Ahh It would be nice for me to meet your new friends. What does he do? ”

"This has nothing to do with you!"

"How can you call it okay, he's very nice to you, right? Otherwise, I would have snatched you away from me. How are you doing now? ”

"I said this and it has nothing to do with you. You don't need to ask! ”

"Are you a foreigner? Who are you? Are you fucking or aren't you? Do you know how much it hurts me to see your text messages back? Can you please stop talking like that? ”

"I said, I am who I am. What else do you suspect? People change. ”

"But you're so fucking different, aren't you? Where did you go to the gentle and innocent before? ”

"It used to be before, it's all gone, and I don't want to mention it. I have my life, you have your life, and you have no right to interfere with these things. ”

"Good! You're ruthless. You're amazing. We don't talk about that, you think you're doing it right. What a thing I'm in! ”

"There's nothing right or wrong about that. I'm still me. ”

"Yang, I don't know what caused so many things to happen between us, to make you become like this, I don't know why you came to Tianjin, to this city that is destined to give me sorrow. But I know I still love you, and I don't care what happens on this trip, I just want to stand in front of you and say to you: I love you! ”

"Are you trying to impress me? What's the use of it now? I don't love anymore. ”

"You... You...... You're going to drive me crazy! ”

I wanted to scream hoarsely, but tears were already soaking my collar. I didn't have the courage to do that on this roaring train. All you can do is hold yourself tight, curled up, curled up, lying on the small table in the middle of the seat, looking at the window, letting the tears flow wildly. I knew that I was really hurt by the girl I once loved so much, and I could hear the sound of heartbreak. Now it's hate.

"I will kill you, when I see you, and then I will die by your side, and what we can't get in this life will allow us to continue in the next life."

"What do you want to do? Our fate is over. ”

"I didn't want to do anything, I just said I wanted to kill you."

"Okay, then you can do it. See who killed whom. ”

"You're too fucking excessive, aren't you?"

"You'd better not say that, who's going too far?"

"Okay, I won't say it. Let's all calm down, okay. I'll text you when I get there. ”

"Okay, but I might not be able to pick you up."

"It's nothing, I'll go find you."

"You know where I am?"

"I don't know, I can walk all over the city."

"You're awesome."

I didn't reply to the message, because there was a terrible thought already brewing in my mind, which made me lose my mind, and I thought that when I saw Yo, I would kill her, and then die by her side. What you can't get in this life, others can't think of. I'd rather take everything to the grave and bury it forever. What a terrible thought, in this northbound train, on the first day of 2005, at the beginning of this new year, I decided to use my life as a bargaining chip to redeem the once beautiful love.

Huh, New Year's Day? What kind of holiday is New Year's Day? This New Year's Day has passed on this train? Tears condensed on the corners of the smiling mouth, a salty bitter taste. Is this what love tastes like?

The eyes of the city have not yet shining, and the twilight sun stretches the backs of the tall buildings. Stepping on the land of Tianjin, perhaps he has been captured by the evil devil, when his footsteps first came into contact with this land, he suddenly had a feeling of lightness, and his feet were soft and almost fell down, and he had no strength in his body, and his head was like a twine of thoughts. I couldn't find the direction, not only because I was in a new city, I didn't know where to go, I didn't know where to go, I didn't know where every street here leads, I didn't know where to go, but I knew I was going to find Yang, and then kill her, and die by her side. This thought may be a bit extreme, but what supports me may be this extreme and immature thought, something that cannot be done in this life, then look forward to the next life, so let the next life come quickly!

"Yang, I'm in Tianjin, it seems to be Tianjin North Railway Station, where can I find you?" Standing in the small square outside the exit of the train station, I texted Yang and began to look around the city.

"Huh? Are you really here? I'll be at work in a moment, so come back to me tomorrow. Yang replied to me with such a text message.

"Do you think I'm joking with you? I'm in the small square outside Tianjin North Railway Station right now, can't you see me after work? "I don't dare to think about anything too much, because everything is still thought of badly, and at this saddest time, life has lost its original color. I started to walk forward, choosing a random path, not thinking about its direction, just hoping that I could melt into the city quickly and get out of this place quickly.

"I'm going home in a moment and can't pick you up. We'll talk about it tomorrow. "Yang sent a message.

"Hehe, it's important to go home, so don't you stop by me? Or are you running away? "I have a hunch that the ocean has really changed, and the beginning of the change is terrifying.

"I've got some things to go out and do, see you tomorrow. It's not my phone, I've given it to someone else. I'll contact you tomorrow. ”

"Hehe, where's your phone? Didn't you say you wanted to go home? Did he pick you up from work? Then you're busy. While typing these words, I walked forward with a stupid smile, and I had an indescribable feeling in my heart, which was very painful and tiring.

"yes, he's coming to pick me up from work."

A very simple sentence, although I have a hunch, I never want these conjectures to be confirmed from Yang's mouth, but in fact, I got the answer from this simple word. The heart-rending pain began to spread, so that I was unable to walk, and slowly held on to the lamppost next to me, squatting down little by little, tears began to flow down my cheeks. "Who can give me some strength? Can anyone give me some courage? Who can give me a shoulder to make me feel safe? Can anyone tell me the direction? "Who can I ask?

The night bravely eats away at the light. I was asking around about Yang's whereabouts and texting many friends asking if they knew that Yang worked there. And then anxiously anticipating. Later, a friend of hers told me that she worked at the northern outlet. On Bai Causeway Road.

I said thank you. Knowing where Yang worked, he began to inquire about how to go to Baidi Road and how far it was from his current position. Listening to the local dialect of Tianjin people, I knew that I was a foreigner, so I simply took a taxi and went directly to the northern outlet.

The taxi drove on the winding road for more than 20 minutes, and the neon lights on the roadside buildings decorated this city with a combination of Chinese and Western civilizations, showing the luxury and temptation of this city at night. The taxi arrived on the street of what seemed to be a neighborhood, and there was a large billboard on the opposite floor: Northern Outlet.

There are a lot of bicycles in front of the Internet café, and the face of the door is also magnificent, so it should be a small Internet café. I didn't care about this, I went to the northern outlet, went to the front desk and asked the staff at the front desk; "Is Yo here?"

"Oh? Are you looking for her? She's off work. The staff at the front desk looked at me and said.