Chapter 39: Love and Life and Death

"Wafan, if you like it, you don't have to be together."

"There are many kinds of likes, and I like you very much, but that's the likes of friends and classmates, no matter how much, I really can't give it, I think, in fact, no matter what feelings, in the final analysis, the essence is the same, as long as you treat it sincerely, it's okay."

The white canopy is as soft as a gust of wind blowing across her cheeks, and although the meaning is refusal, it is trying her best to be comfortable and not hurt.

Qin Wafan's heart had already rained a sad yellow plum drizzle in this gentle wind.

Sad and comfortable. The result that has been predicted for a long time is just that he insists on vomiting as quickly as possible so as not to block his emotions, and his heart is a lot empty.

"Pu Jia, in fact, I knew that this would be the result, but I still can't control it, I must tell you, it's like it rains every day, and if I don't open the floodgates, the flood will be monstrous!"

For the first time in his life, Qin Wafan's analogy is so appropriate. The extreme pain will always force him to show the rare potential of a poet.

"Vafan, I'm really sorry. I can't force myself to hurt you and hurt myself, that would be unfair to you and irresponsible to myself. I just want to be honest with my heart and be honest with your feelings. What's more, I still have an undecided job, I don't know where it will be, and my mind is not emotional, can you understand? ”

Still a soft sound.

"Well, I understand, how can I not understand you? We've been on the phone for so long, and we've had more than two years and almost three years like this. I know how you are. ”

"Thank you. I'm so happy if you think so! ”

"Pu Jia, will you ignore me after hanging up the phone?"

Qin Wafan was like a reservoir that had leaked a flood at the moment, completely restoring his usual calm, but he began to worry about the follow-up after his confession.

"No, it won't. Don't worry, as long as you're not embarrassed, I won't ignore you, we're good friends just like before! And, you see, I'm busy with my graduation thesis, I'm busy looking for a job, and I'm also busy with my final subject exams, so how can I remember your embarrassment every day? Right? So, as long as you're calm, I'm fine. It's the same as before, call when it's time to call, and chat when it's time to meet. ”

Bai Pujia is indeed such a person.

"Pu Jia, how did you handle it so well? Are there a lot of people who confess to you, and you can easily deal with the past like this? ”

"Where do I come from, many people confess, it's just a normal heart in everything. However, Vafan, thank you so much, your heart, I understand, thank you, I will cherish it. ”

She will cherish it, but she can't accept it. Qin Wafan's heart tore again.

Perhaps, she has never been the type she likes, maybe, she is also sad, unable to accept a person who loves her, and regrets why this kind of love is not what her love told her, right? Qin Wafan's heart suddenly brightened up at this moment, and his heart was like a piece of jade that was illuminated in the light, extremely clear.

But, for her, where to go, he still can't think about it now, the only easy thing is that he said what he wanted to say, and the result is not too bad, she said that he and she are still good friends as before, hopefully, when she wakes up tomorrow morning, she will not change her hexagram, and when she sees him again, it will be the same, just fine.

Qin Wafan, who hung up the phone, no longer had the burning feeling of not touching the ground like his feet in front of the phone, but it was like stepping on the back of his cotton bed, and the flat tiles were pitted a lot, and even seemed to be tripped up every step he took.

"Finished? When you're done, come and help me calculate the shipping list, right? I'm worried I've miscalculated. ”

Bai Yu glanced up at him, as if he was still immersed in the long list of names and numbers listed on his A4 paper, not noticing Qin Wafan's faltering steps in the slightest.

Qin Wafan glanced back coldly at Bai Yu, who had been looking at him all the time, but still ignored him, walked straight to Shang Chu's bed, and as soon as his buttocks fell, he collapsed on the edge of Shang Chu's bed, relaxed his back, and leaned against the wall completely. Shang Chu was also leaning against the wall holding a book and reading it carefully.

"Boss!"

"What's wrong?"

Shang Chu glanced at him, and when he saw him coming in the morning, he took the initiative to vacate half of the bunk for him.

"Help!"

Qin Wafan called weakly.

"Your life is here, good one, what can be saved?"

Shang Chu patted him on the shoulder sympathetically, with a look in his eyes that I understood, but his words were ridiculous.

"Yes. I thought I wouldn't be able to survive tonight, but who knows if I'm not alive in a good way? ”

Qin Wafan felt that he had some strength.

"That's right, why don't heroes have girlfriends! There is grass everywhere in the world, it depends on whether you know how to raise grass. ”

Shang Chu smiled slightly, Qin Wafan paced back and forth like ants on a tree, and then walked to the door with a telephone set mysteriously, and then to the listless and frustrated state at the moment, he guessed it.

"That's what I said, but still...... Alas, this time it was really made clear. ”

"It's good to make it clear, sooner or later you have to make it clear. Not to say, but also clear. It depends on how comfortable you are and how you come! ”

"Boss!"

When Qin Wafan heard the words "how comfortable and how to come", he couldn't wait to shed tears in his eyes, and he said countless words to Bai Pujia, this time it was finally the turn of others to comfort him, but the person who said it turned out to be the boss of his bedroom, he was a little regretful, but he was surrounded by warmth.

"Okay, don't get excited, I'm not interested in you, don't get me wrong! However, we are brothers, your business is my business, you are in a bad mood, I understand, if you think of a way to be in a good mood, tell me, I will help you achieve it! ”

"Wow! That's great, I'm going to ......."

"Don't tell me that you want Bai Pujia to be your girlfriend, I can't help anything else except this."

"Oh, well, then I'll think about it first!"

Qin Wafan's eyes closed, and he fell into a state of weakness and depression again.

"Eh, how's this guy? Still alive? ”

Bai Yu finally came over from his pile of accounts, patted Qin Wafan, and asked Shang Chu.

"Hehe, you ask himself."

Shang Chu smiled.

"I'm dead! You know the bookkeeping every day, and you have to become the bookkeeper, and by the time your accounts are finished, your brother and I will have already stopped breathing! ”

Qin Wafan's eyes were still closed.

"Oh, then if you die, I'll have to keep accounts better, and all those profits will come to me, don't be blind to death!"

"Is there a case like you? Murder for money! ”

"Eh, boss, this person is really unreasonable, obviously he said that he would die, and it was on my head again, is this to pull me on my back?"

Bai Yu slammed Qin Wafan's shoulder.

"Okay, don't die in this life, it's not easy to live, and I'm sorry for myself when I die. Do what you have to do! ”

Shang Chu smiled a little sadly, Qin Wafan felt that the boss was interesting enough, not only to manage the study, life, and health of the whole dormitory person, but also to manage the thoughts and moods, which was really many times more tired than the League branch book uploaded and issued by the class every day.