I don't know how long it took, but Mango and Little Cream fell asleep in my arms. Looking at the child in my arms, remembering the appearance of the gaffe just now, I regret and fear in my heart, I have never been so out of shape in front of the child, today is the first time, but I am afraid, with the first time, there will be a second time.

Trembling, he carried the child to the bed, gently undressed the two of them, and changed into pajamas.

Looking at their sleeping faces, and even the crystal tears hanging on the long eyelashes of the mango, I couldn't help but tear out of my eyes again.

Gently caress their delicate faces, for fear that the movement will wake up the sleeping children.

I sat by the window, turned on the lamp, and wrote my first letter to Mango.

"Dear Mango, Mom writes this letter to you with a worried heart, Mom did a wrong thing today, because of some trivial things, Mom scared you, although Mom has apologized to you, but Mom is still infinitely panicked in her heart, because Mom doesn't know if Mom will hurt you in the future, but Mom assures you that Mom will try to restrain herself, if one day Mom really can't guarantee your safety and happiness, maybe Mom will try to separate from Dad, if that day really comes, please forgive Mom, Mom loves you forever. ”

At this point, my tears have blurred most of the handwriting on the letterhead.

I was lying on my desk, and suddenly I felt that my breath had dissipated, and I definitely couldn't lift my spirits.

Then there was a soft knock on the door. I walked weakly to the door, pulled the door open, and Lin Jia stood at the door.

"Did they sleep?" Lin Jia didn't dare to ask more, and cautiously asked about the child's situation.

I glanced at the two sleeping people on the bed, "I'm already asleep." ”

Lin Jia took my hand, "Feifei, you go back to the house and rest." ”

"No, I'm not leaving, I'm going to take care of my children." I retreated into the house in some panic.

Lin Jia didn't dare to pull with me, the slightest bit of movement in the middle of the night would be extra loud, for fear of waking up the two children, Lin Jia had to let go of his hand, Lin Jia gestured to me, signaling me to calm down, I tried to take a deep breath, as much as possible to stabilize myself.

"I'll watch for you, you go and rest. You didn't take a nap at noon, and it's late at night, so go back and sleep well. Lin Jia paused, "If you really can't sleep, or can't calm down, you can try to take a sedative." ”

Lin Jia didn't know that I had been to a psychiatric hospital, and thought I was just the same as before.

I smiled wryly, "Okay, please take care of my child, thank you." ”

Lin Jia patted me on the shoulder, "Isn't your child my child?" Don't be so polite, Fei Fei, you have to go to work tomorrow, go and rest. ”

I dragged my heavy body back to the bedroom, knowing that such a state would not allow a second time, I took out the medicine I should have taken for the night, poured a large glass of cold water, and poured the pills into my stomach.

After a while, I felt myself sinking, and then I saw the lights on the roof spinning, and I knew that I was about to fall asleep, which was a good feeling, but before I could enjoy it a little longer, I fell into a deep sleep.

The next morning, I was woken up by the alarm clock, sat up suddenly, thinking of the child, I quickly ran to the children's room, gently unscrewed the door lock, Lin Jia curled up on the crawling mat and fell asleep, the two lovely children on the bed still slept very soundly, maintaining the posture when I left last night.

I reluctantly went to work, still carrying the weight of last night in my heart along the way.

In the middle of the operation, my mother called me: "Fei Fei? ”

"What's wrong, Mom?"

"Is this convenient? Mom wants to say a few words to you. "I know that if my mother usually comes to me at work, it must be something.

"Say it, Mom, I didn't go on stage today, and it's quite convenient to speak." I motioned to Jing Xin on the stage for me to go out and make a call, and then gave anesthesia Li Hao a look and went to the outer corridor.

"What's wrong, Mom?" I asked.

"That, you quarreled with Lin Jia yesterday?" My mother asked me suddenly.

"Nope." I said to my mother.

"Your mother-in-law just called and said that you had a quarrel with Lin Jia last night, and pushed Lin Jia out of the door."

I was immediately furious, "If it weren't for her and my sister-in-law who had a moth and insisted on taking Xiao Cream back, how could I be angry?" Now the wicked are suing first? What did she tell you. ”

"What she means is that husband and wife quarrel and say anything directly, which means that you are not sensible."

"I'll fuck it!" I was furious.

"Don't worry, tell me what's going on? I was confused by your mother-in-law's phone call in the morning. ”

"She said yesterday that she was going home for the Chinese New Year, and I said okay. Then she said that the tuition fee was too expensive, and she wanted to take the child back to take care of it. I said no, and then she said that she missed it, and that anything going back for the New Year was fake, and she wanted to go back to my sister-in-law to see the child. Think about what I feel in my heart, her child is a child, and my child is not a child? ”

"Don't worry, she's the child's grandmother, and it makes sense for her to want to take care of the child. If you block it in every way, it will only make Lin Jia angry in the middle, you two still have to live a good life, don't affect the relationship between the two of you because of the old man and the relationship between the concubines. ”

"But I just don't want to take the cream with me. Other people's children have mothers when they sleep at night, and Little Cream sleeps at night with grandma, why am I so unhappy. ”

"At least it's more reassuring than sending a little cream to school, right? In fact, there is really no way to send the little cream to the nursery, think about it, what if the diapers are not changed in time, or if you are hungry because you are too busy to take care of us to make milk powder? Grandma takes care of it, is it good to be able to eat complementary food and take it downstairs to play? You want to think about things on the good side, don't always think about the bad things. In addition, the child can just go to exercise when he takes it away, isn't it the same as exercising at school? ”

After my mother finished speaking, I felt a little better. "Feifei, don't be too sensitive, don't always think about things in a bad way, sometimes you think about it when you can't figure it out, maybe you can figure it out all at once!" My mother comforted me on the other end of the phone, hoping that I would figure it out and not be angry any more.

In fact, you could have been happy and happy, but as soon as you interfered with it, you see, the family can't eat dinner well, don't say it, do you think Lin Jia will be sad and think you dislike his mother?

I didn't say anything, but after my mother finished speaking, I actually regretted it a little in my heart, feeling that I really reacted too violently yesterday, and almost hurt the child.

"Then I'll send the child away for two weeks."

"You decide for yourself, you remember, your mother is your strongest backing, and if you don't want to send it away, your mother will pick up the child for you every day. If you send it away, we will be happy, for Mom, nothing is as important as you are happy. ”

After hanging up the phone with my mother, I felt a little more comfortable, and I decided to go home and apologize to Lin Jia and my mother-in-law, hoping that they would forgive me for my extremism yesterday.

Finally, on the way home after the operation, I kept thinking about how to coax my mother-in-law to meet the flower shop, and specially bought flowers for my mother-in-law, hoping that my mother-in-law would feel better when she saw the flowers.

Holding the flowers, I happily walked in the direction of home. As soon as I entered the house, I shouted, "Lin Jiawen is back." Mother. Mother. ”

The room was empty, where did it go? Regardless of tidying up the house first, I cleaned the room, put the flowers in the vase, and the whole person was very relaxed. At about three o'clock in the afternoon, Lin Jia opened the door of the house.

"Where have you been, Lin Jia? Where's our mom? I smiled at Lin Jia.

"That Feifei, I'll tell you something."

"Say, talk, I'm ready to pick up the mango and the cream. Kindergarten is almost over. ”

"That...... This morning, after sending the mango away, we went home with the little cream, I just went out, and I just came from home. ”

At this time, the smile was still on my face, and I didn't have time to take it back. Hearing this, my brain was buzzing. I smiled and said, "Lin Jia, I didn't hear it clearly just now, you say it again." ”

"That mom came home with the little cream, and I sent it away in the morning."

After hearing this, I smiled and knocked the vase to the ground in an instant, and with a "bang", flowers, vases, and water splashed in the room.

I put on my coat, and the moment I opened the door with my coat, I said to Lin Jia, "Lin Jia, I hate you." ”