On the way home, my father was in front and I was behind. In the middle of the night, the street was empty, and the fallen leaves on the ground were swept up and fell. Suddenly, my father stopped at a street lamp. He turned to look at me, and I could see that he seemed to have aged a little lately, and his sideburns were starting to have a little gray hair.

My father said to me, "Feifei, don't do stupid things anymore, then your mother and I will feel distressed." ”

When my father mentioned my mother, I suddenly collapsed and fell to my knees, holding my father's legs and crying, "Dad, please don't tell my mother, please don't tell my mother, I just can't control my emotions for a while, Dad, I beg you." "I was like a child who had done something wrong, even kneeling on the ground and kowtowing to my father.

Obviously, my father had never seen me like this, and he was stunned for a few seconds, and then he pulled me up like a small animal, and said angrily, "You stand up for me, look at what you look like now, where is the former Xia Fei, who loves to laugh and sing, gone?" Tell me, what were you doing just now? What do you kneel down for? ”

I was overwhelmed by my father's sudden anger, and I remember that I was never angry with my father and mother when they got married, and for so many years, no matter what mistakes I made, my father always tolerated me and never allowed my mother to say a word about me. My father and mother were married, my father had no children, and for me he was my only father, and of course I was his only child.

"Dad, Dad" My father's drink made me wake up suddenly, and I didn't know what to say for a while.

My father straightened my coat for me, looked me in the eye and said, "My daughter should not be controlled by emotions, my daughter should be more important, my daughter should know that she is the father and mother's heaven, once she has an accident, the father and mother's sky will fall." After saying this, my father walked forward with his hands behind his back, and under the street lamp, I saw my father's shadow gradually lengthening, and my father walked farther and farther.

And I was still standing still, not knowing what to do.

To be honest, I never thought that I would act like this in public, that I would take out a blade and scratch my own skin, or that I would turn back to Xie Yongjiang to vent my anger, all of which were so different from what I used to be.

I followed my father back to the community from a distance, and along the way I was like a child who had done something wrong, and I didn't dare to get too close to my father, and of course I felt very embarrassed, as if someone had spied on my innermost secret, which made me a little overwhelmed.

When I got home, the two children had already slept, and the mother was sitting in the living room without turning on the light, and it was obvious that when the father went out, the mother had a rough understanding of 123 in her heart.

As soon as I opened the shoe cabinet, I heard my mother say, "You're back?" "I" well, back. ”

"Fei Fei, I have something to say to you when you come here."

"Okay." I came to the living room softly, I wanted to turn the light on, but I didn't dare.

I obediently sat on the sofa opposite my mother, "I heard that you went to find Xie Yongjiang today." ”

"Well, yes." I replied honestly.

"You, you're too good at hiding things in your heart." Mother sighed.

"Why do you do something stupid?" I don't know how much my mother knew, so I didn't speak.

"Why?" My mother asked me again, but as soon as she blurted out, she choked up.

I still kept my head down and didn't speak, but my head was running at high speed, I don't know if you've heard the sound of the CD, it's such a harsh and discordant sound in my head at the moment.

I covered my head and tried to calm myself down. To be honest, I didn't expect that today's meeting would cause me so much trouble.

My mother gently took my hand, and the wrist she stroked was already dried with blood.

"Does it hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt," I said in a hoarse voice.

"Why?"

"Because it doesn't hurt my heart." I calmly said to my mother.

"Mom, I saw him at the gate of the community today, he stopped me, to be honest, I was disgusted at the time, but I thought that if I didn't warn him, he would continue to disturb your life and Dad's life. So I asked him to have dinner in the evening, but I didn't expect that I became more and more excited and excited, so excited that I couldn't control my emotions at all. I said calmly to my mother.

"I don't want that, that's not what I intended." I burst into tears, "Mom, you know what? I'm too hard, I think life is too hard, why is it always so hard for me, is it that everyone thinks it's so hard? I'm not a person who is afraid of hardship, why do I still find it so difficult? "I held my head in one hand and wiped my tears with the other.

My mother squatted in front of me and wiped her tears with her hand, "Your father came back just now and was very angry, he said that you are his most precious daughter, something as precious as a treasure, but because of an unworthy and irrelevant person, you entered the police station, and even you knelt on the side of the road today and kowtowed to your father, your father was very sad in his heart, and felt that his daughter had tortured herself like this because of these things, but he didn't know." ”

My mother touched the tears on my face, just like when I was a child, "Your father said that he should have solved this matter, but he put all the pressure on you, and it was his incompetence to do so." In fact, my mother also has something that I didn't do well, Fei Fei, my mother can't figure it out, why are you so excited today. ”

I wiped away my tears and said to my mother, "Mom, there's a reason I'm so excited. I couldn't control my emotions. ”

"Why?" Mother asked gently.

"I had already left the restaurant, and I didn't want to hurt him when I went to him, I just wanted to warn him not to come to us again, but when I walked out of the restaurant, the more I thought about it, the more angry I became, the more I thought about it, the more angry I became, until finally I couldn't control myself, in fact, I tried to calm myself down, but it didn't work. Then I ran into the restaurant and tried to stab him to death with broken glass. When I said this, I became agitated again, because I could even feel the vicious tone in which I said, "I want to stab him."

At this moment, I suddenly stopped crying, but brought into the atmosphere just now, "Mom, he hurt us like this, if he doesn't die, he will always be a pimple in our hearts, Mom, I should really stab him to death." ”

I said this, and my mother suddenly said sternly, "Shut up! No further talk. ”

"Why stop talking, there is reincarnation in the way of heaven, he should die, no, death is cheap for him." I stood up angrily, the fire in my chest burning violently, and I felt my heart pound harder and harder.

I gritted my teeth, pursed my lips and didn't say anything more. My mother took my hand, gently pressed me on the sofa, and then held my face and said, "It's all over, he is irrelevant, don't let him affect our good mood, our good days." Fei Fei, it's not worth it, you kill him, what should I do, what about your father, what about Lin Jia and the child? What do they do. ”

I stopped talking, gasping for air, I picked up the white water on the coffee table, drank it down, staggered back to my room, collapsed on the bed, and waited for the anger to subside

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