It's always like this, and I look down on myself. I kept saying to myself, "What the hell are you thinking?" Calm down, Lin Jia let you rest, just rest well, what is this thing you are doing? ”

I shook my head and went back to bed.

"Get up and eat?" Lin Jia poked his head out and looked at me.

I smiled and let me smell what was delicious. I closed my eyes and pretended to smell it, but I knew that my heart was pounding, but I didn't dare to look into Lin Jia's eyes, because I felt like I was a thief.

"Maybe I'm sick and I don't smell anything."

Lin Jia came in and touched my head, "Are you okay?" ”

I quickly pinned my head away, "It's okay." My face was against the wall, "I'm not a child." I know my health myself. ”

"I won't faint if I know it. Hurry up, wait until the chicken broth will be cold. Lin Jia slapped me lightly on the back.

After he left, I let out a relaxed breath and said, "Whew." ”

Suddenly, I felt that Su Ri'an had not yet made a real hammer, but it had already drawn a galaxy in the fragile relationship between the two of us.

During the meal, the two of us were very quiet, and we didn't speak to each other, so we quietly lowered our heads to eat, and then he and I each looked at our phones.

I bit the spoon and my mind went up and down, and I wanted to get things out of the way.

"Lin Jia."

"Huh?"

"It's fine." I bowed my head as if I was the one who had done the wrong thing.

"If it's okay, hurry up and eat, you see that you only drank soup and didn't eat anything."

Because there was something in his heart, he actually couldn't eat much, and he felt a little tightness in his chest, so he smiled with Lin Jia, "I can't eat a little." ”

Lin Jia put down his rice bowl and silently lowered his forehead again, "Why can't you eat?" ”

I shook my head and didn't speak, I actually wanted to say in my heart, Lin Jia, you tell me who was sitting in your car that afternoon?

But biting my lip for a long time, I didn't say it.

"Is there something wrong with you?"

I shook my head again, and I got up from the table, "Maybe the air pressure is a little low, and I feel tightness in my chest." ”

Lin Jia brought me a cup of bitter tea, and I took a sip, it was so bitter.

I frowned, "It's so bitter." ”

"Drink, prevent heatstroke and quench thirst, lower the fire, is it heat stroke?" As he spoke, Lin Jia put his hand on my head again.

I frowned lightly at a speed that Lin Jia couldn't see, and quickly turned my face away, "I'm fine, you should go and do what you should do!" ”

"You are like this, how can I rest assured."

"I'm fine." I shook my head.

But I couldn't hold this breath in my heart, so I sighed vigorously and closed my eyes, "Lin Jia!" ”

"What's wrong?" Lin Jia looked at me and asked gently, if it was normal, I would have thought Lin Jia was very good, but today, I didn't, this breath nested in my heart, and I couldn't get down.

"I ...... I gritted my teeth, closed my eyes and asked vigorously, "You went to the county for surgery a few days ago, who was in the car?" You drove to work by yourself that morning, leaving so early than me, but why did you get to the hospital at half past seven, where did you go? ”

"Me." Lin Jia instantly had a look of surprise on his face, "I." I. ”

I kept it, but I couldn't say it.

"There was no one in the car. ”

"No one?" It's okay that Lin Jia didn't speak, but as soon as I spoke, I instantly became angry, "You look at my eyes Lin Jia, you look at my eyes, and said seriously, there is no one in your car, and you are not Feng Nannan in the car." ”

Lin Jia looked at me in surprise, with an indescribable expression on his face.

I took a deep breath, "Say it, Lin Jia." "I felt a little more comfortable when I breathed out.

"Tell me, is there anyone in your car?"

Lin Jia sat on the balcony, and the dim yellow light that once made people feel very warm hit Lin Jia's body, looking extremely sad and pitiful.

"Lin Jia." I smiled and squatted at Lin Jia's feet, I patted the dust on Lin Jia's pants, this man, I love it so much, I love it very much, but yet, I smiled and shook my head, "Lin Jia, I said, I have something to tell me, why can't you tell me the truth?" ”

Lin Jia took out a cigarette from his trouser pocket and lit it gently, "Feifei, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." ”

Tears rolled down my eyes silently, "I just want to know when it started?" ”

Lin Jia took a puff of cigarette: "When my mother went to the imperial capital for surgery, when I went to pay the hospitalization fee, I happened to meet her. ”

I nodded, didn't speak, probably squatted for a long time, so I was a little dizzy, and my eyes were shaking and ready to go back to the bedroom, but before I could get to the bedroom, I fell to the ground.

I walked alone, in the dark, and walked and walked to the lake again, and saw again the red house, with the red roof, the red wall, and not even a door.

I stood by the lake in thick fog, looking at the house, eager to get out of this terrible place.

"Xia Fei, Xia Fei, Xia Fei." From afar, I saw Lin Jia waving at me, I wanted to run to him, I wanted to talk to him, but I couldn't say a word.

I tried to run to Lin Jia, but Lin Jia held Feng Nannan's hand, running and running, I saw them smiling brightly, running and running, I couldn't run anymore, I was angry, I was full of grievances, I wanted to scold, I wanted to hit people, but I couldn't make any sound.

I shouted hard, and by the time I did, I had completely woken up from my dream.

"Are you awake?" Lin Jia sat beside me, her voice trembling a little.

I calmly wiped my face and thought that I must have fainted just now.

I looked at Lin Jia's face, "Give me a glass of water." ”

"Okay." With a hoarse voice, he got up and went outside.

I looked at Lin Jia's figure and covered my face dejectedly, it turned out that it was not that I was wrong, and he knew that he was unwilling to lie to me once.

"Drink water." He handed me the water, and I took it, and when I drank it, he said to him, "I'm sleepy, I'm going to sleep." ”

"Okay, you sleep, I'll take care of you." I didn't refute, I didn't let him go, I pinned my face inside and went to sleep.

I slept until nine o'clock the next day, and I thought Lin Jia should have asked me for leave, so I wasn't very worried, or I didn't ask for leave, it didn't matter.

I don't have a home, and I'm afraid of any job.

I sat up weakly, rubbed my face, and got out of bed.

The room was empty, Lin Jia had already left, and I sat on the sofa and finally couldn't control my emotions and cried.

When I had enough crying, I washed my face and went back to bed, and I dialed the head nurse's phone in a hoarse voice.

"Head nurse, I'm taking a leave of absence." I choked up and told the head nurse.

"What's wrong with you?"

"It's okay, it's just a little weak, I went home yesterday and fainted again, maybe because of low blood sugar."

"Pay attention to your body in hot weather, Lin Jia called me this morning, you can rest at home, don't be too tired. The body matters. ”

"Okay, thank you, head nurse."