In order to be able to get better completely after stopping the medication, I started various hobbies to keep myself busy and not think about it.

Go to the flower market to buy flowers, go to the market to buy vegetables, learn flower arrangement, practice pen calligraphy, read, think, drink tea, and raise fish.

I hope that by changing my habits, I can become more sunny. The weather in June was warm, and on this day I finished my night shift, returned home, vacuumed, washed clothes, made myself a cup of tea, lit a plate of incense on the balcony, twisted the sound switch at hand, and put on music for myself.

The south balcony is always very sunny in the morning, and I am comfortable to nest in the chair, and I cover a thin blanket, and the smell of laundry detergent from the blanket just washed makes me feel so good. Everything was just right, everything was so calm and unwavering.

I like the feeling of calm. When my parents divorced when I was a child, my mother raised me in my grandmother's house in order to take care of me and make ends meet. Every night after dinner, my mother took me home by bicycle, both in winter and summer. The exhaustion of running around my grandmother's house and my mother's house made me very eager to be stable, to be able to settle down.

And at the moment everything is gentle, the wind is itching on the ankles, and the goldfish in the tank are weaving under the aquatic weeds.

I don't know how long it took me to go back to bed. So that I can get rid of the fatigue caused by the night shift.

No pills, no erratic mood changes. I'm very happy. I think it seems that God still loves me and has not given up on me. Otherwise, how could I recover so quickly?

Maybe I should have done this a long time ago. It turns out that I always think about work. I didn't go home after work, and I worked hard to attend classes in order to get promoted, and I held meetings to accumulate credits. Children can't be accompanied, and the elderly can't be cared for. But what happens at the end of the day?

When I was sick, my family was by my side, and this bright red award certificate and published papers could not do anything for me, thinking of this, I suddenly felt that I did not grasp the balance, and life needs to balance all things to do a good job of switching roles at any time. To be a qualified nurse in the hospital, you should play the role of a wife and mother at home. I seem to be wasting too much time with my family doing things at work.

Thinking of this, I suddenly felt that June's innocence was really good. It seems that I can take my children and go to the countryside on the weekend to see life.

I slept soundly until my daughter got out of school and patted me on the face. The daughter said, "Mommy, Mommy, wake up, the sun is going to set." It's still awake, why are you sleeping? ”

I smiled and said, "Because last night I fell asleep, but Mommy got up to work, last night there was an aunt who wanted to give birth to a baby and couldn't give birth, so he came to the operating room to open the belly and take the baby out safely." ”

I got up and went to the living room with my daughter, Lin Jia was cleaning up a fish in the kitchen, I turned around and went into the kitchen to greet him, "This fish is really lucky to meet you, after all, the surgeon's hand is relatively neat, so let it end without pain!" ”

Lin Jia kissed my forehead and said, "Just kidding, it seems that you are really getting better, go to the living room and stay there, just wait for dinner." ”

I poured a glass of water, sat down at the dining table, watched the children stacking blocks in the living room, and Lin Jia frying fish in the kitchen.

I ran desperately to chase my so-called happiness, but I forgot to look back, it turned out that the beauty was all around me, and I didn't need to run so fast.